About Me

This is a copy of my original About Me page. I have created this because the content mysteriously went AWOL but may reappear at some point as has happened in the past. Strange world the Internet!


 "First, we would say this: You are no longer your human past. You are no longer a descendent of your biological family, nor are you a member of the 3d dimensional human family.  You are co-creators of the new earth, descendants of the stars.  You are members of the 5th dimensional human-galactic family, focused in this time and space continuum as representatives of your true genetic origin. Your role now is to take your final step into this truth." - Seven Sisters of Pleiades (channelled through Lauren C. Gorgo, 22 June 2011, 'One Eclipse Left...and counting’).



The dawn of a new Golden Age has arrived. Earth is shifting back to the 5th dimension (and beyond).

Like many starseeds, I have now had various DNA activations. St Germain told me that, eventually, everyone is going to experience this jump (quantum leap) and won't be able to explain what happened.

It is important to understand that humanity itself has been attuned to the 12th dimension (the Christ beyond mind). The Creator is bringing us home to the realms of Light in accordance with the Ascension of the entire universe which essentially means going up one dimension at least.

On 12:12 2009, a major portal opened to allow for this collective Christ connection which, according to St Germain, is a rare phenomenon on a 3rd-dimensional planet. It means that it is now easier than ever to connect with God. I have really felt this open up for me personally. I feel connected to Source in a way that was never possible before. The future is full of promise.

You will notice that there is a large amount of channelled material on this website. The reason for this is that I, personally, appreciate communication that comes from a higher source of divine love, inspired wisdom and creative and intuitive intelligence (not to mention humour) and is therefore not limited by human ignorance in whatever way. I feel that it is sad that, at a time when many portals have opened up, making it easier for such entities to transmit telepathic messages through channels on Earth - these being freely available on the internet for the most part - this information is being ignored by most Christians and rational atheists and humanists and co.

I believe it is highly likely that the prophecy in Revelation of the everlasting Gospel (Word of God) being shared with humanity during the End Times refers to these enlightened teachings that help us to make sense of the rapid changes in our world today, to guide us to release density and embody Light in preparation for planetary Ascension and to understand what this golden opportunity for leaping forward in our evolution is. You're pretty unlikely to find another quote from the Bible on this site so enjoy this while you can (btw, Revelation was left in the Bible in its complete and original form because it was accompanied by a warning that separating or even altering it would lead to unbearable misery for the culprits)!:

"And I saw another angel flying in the midst of Heaven having the everlasting Gospel to preach unto them that dwell upon the Earth; unto every nation, and kindred, and tongue, and people, saying with a loud voice...Give glory to [God]; for the hour of His Judgement is come: and worship Him that made Heaven and Earth, and the sea, and the fountains of waters." (Revelation 14.6-7).


Life's Work

“It is the function of art to renew our perception. What we are familiar with we cease to see. The writer shakes up the familiar scene, and as if by magic, we see a new meaning in it.” - Anaïs Nin, quoted in The Wordsworth Dictionary of Quotations.

I have been writing a number of books over the past 16 years. The books that I am aiming to complete in the next decade are generally contributions to re-introducing the subject of consciousness to a predominantly British audience although they also have universal appeal. The majority of my books are long-term projects.

My own vocational background is music, philosophy and astrology. I am a creative and visionary thinker and the use of imagery and poetic allegory represents the 'highlights' of my writing throughout the books I am working on.

Originally, I was writing a series of books on astrological archetypes but I was unable to juggle my writing and full-time job and finally stopped writing for four years. When I eventually attempted to continue with those projects I found myself branching out in other directions, starting new books.

I then had a revelation about the transition humanity is currently going through. Owing to the political climate at the time, I postponed the full exploration of this subject and focussed on its political relevance (in the UK) instead. I have therefore also been working on a series of books that combine politics and spirituality. The first one focuses on the evolving role of the news media.

During the years in which I had abandoned the astrology books, I read, wrote, studied and collected notes and quotations for a few other philosophical books. I also kept a spiritual journal for a few years. A man moved into the flat upstairs and, after a few months, held me at knife point! Consequently, a theme developed as part of my journal entries: I needed a coping strategy for living here. Thus was born this Monster trilogy: Monstaville!

I have added many experiences and insights relating to the spiritual Ascension process and how personal crisis may be viewed as preparation for releasing repressed emotions and purging ourselves of negative ones. The trilogy ends with the promise of returning to a natural state of inner peace and happiness. I am close to finishing these books and seeking a publisher so watch this space!

              Antraeus the Tormented, as someone calls me:

              with my God and my hurt!

“If you want to be happy, set a goal that commands your thoughts, liberates your energy, and inspires your hopes.” - Andrew Carnegie.

Quiet Revolution


 Be The Presence Of The Love That God Is

Listen very carefully. Indeed, listen very, very carefully! If you would know the Love of God, you must be that Love. You cannot know about it. You must literally be the presence of that Love. Only then do you know God. This, then, is the essence of the Way of Knowing: knowing by being that which you have knowledge or direct experience of, and by choosingto be only that.
This is why knowledge is a mystical experience. This is why true knowing has an immediacy. It is not mediated through a theology, a religion, a philosophy or any words. Words are just symbols of symbols. They are symbols of ideas, and ideas are a step still away from reality. One who knows Love knows its because every cell of their being is the presence of Love. The Way of Knowing culminates with your perfect resolve to be the presence of the Love that God is.
Now, if you would truly know Love, look upon the things that you fear. Discover them. Dig them up and out of yourself. Rest assured, any time you must look at another and analyse them, there is something you fear. Anything that pushes your buttons is a sign that something is still requiring your love.
The Way of Knowing, beloved friends, can culminate only in the transformation of your mind to such a level of completion that you sit in your rocking chair and say:
       There is only God. There has never been a separate me. There never could have been.
       There is only this moment in which Love can dance, can be celebrated, and can be extended.
       Father what can we create this day that offers to the world the grace of the good, the holy, and the beautiful.
       - Jeshua through Jayem: The Way of Mastery, page 311





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"Grace is the beauty of form under the influence of freedom." ~ Friedrich Schiller

Thank you brothers and sisters


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    Egyptian Quote of the Year

    "I arise on wings of aspiration to Thee, O Isis. Come, descend from above, arise from below, expand from within—and fill me, Goddess. From the rising bud of the lotus, to the mighty branch of the sycamore, to the Moon and Sun which are Thine eyes, to the Stars which entwine Thy hair, all the Universe is Thine, Isis—as am I. O Isis, Goddess, Mother, Sister, Queen—the Ways are open unto Thee—I am open unto Thee"

    ~ Ancient Hermetic Prayer

    St Germain

    "Turn your eyes away from fear. Discontinue the conversations of fear if you choose to embrace the fullness of your heart"

    through Ashamarae, 2009

    "If you focus on the sweeter things of life, that's exactly what you're going to get out of life" - St Germain

    through Ashamarae, 2009, AFW

    “A light heart is a magnet for all that you love”

    through Ashamarae, July 2009

    "Alchemy is the science of the mystic and it is the forte of the self-realised man who, having sought, has found himself to be one with God and is willing to play his part." - Beloved Saint Germain




    "The Eternal Feminine
    Draws us heavenward."
    ~ Goethe




    "In the quiet moments of our lives lie courage. In the everyday steps we take is courage. In love is courage. In being different dwells courage. In the cry against injustice lives courage. In the stepping up to responsibility lies courage. In reaching out to others is courage. If I've learned anything about courage and intuition it is that they demand that we live in the moment without preconceptions of how life should be." ~ Judith Orloff


    “God is not far away from us, but we are far away from God, and the only reason is our insensitivity.” – Osho

    “My whole teaching consists of two words, meditation and love. Meditate so that you canfeel immense silence, and love so that your life can become a song, a dance, a celebration. You will have to move between the two, and if you can move easily, if you can move without any effort, you have learned the greatest thing in life.” – Osho (Come, Come, Yet Again Come).

    “A real Master is not a teacher: a real Master is an awakener. His function is totally different from a teacher; his function is far more difficult. And only very few people can stay with a Master because to wake up after millions of lives is not an ordinary feat; it is a miracle. And to allow somebody to wake you up needs great trust, great surrender.” - Osho

    "The moment you start seeing life as non-serious, a playfulness, all the burden on your heart disappears. All the fear of death, of life, of love - everything disappears." - Osho

    “Whatsoever you are, there is nothing wrong with it. Love and relationship has not to be destroyed; only meditation has to be added to it.” - Osho

    "The head is a marketplace, the heart is the shrine of being. All that is beautiful and true arises out of the heart, never out of the head." - Osho

    “I do not ordinarily make prophecies, but about this I am absolutely prophetic: the coming hundred years are going to be more and more irrational, and more and more mystical. The second thing: After a hundred years people will be perfectly able to understand why I was misunderstood — because I am the beginning of the mystical, the irrational. I am a discontinuity with the past. The past cannot understand me; only the future will understand. The past can only condemn me. It cannot understand me, it cannot answer me, it cannot argue with me; it can only condemn me. Only the future…as man becomes more and more available to the mysterious, to the meaningless yet significant…After a hundred years they will understand. Because the more man becomes aware of the mysterious side of life, the less he is political; the less he is a Hindu, a Mohammedan, a Christian; the less is the possibility for his being a fanatic. A man in tune with the mysterious is humble, loving, caring, accepting the uniqueness of everybody. He is rejoicing in the freedom of each individual, because only with freedom can this garden of humanity be a rich place.” – Osho (The Osho Upanishad).


    "When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be." ~ Laozi

    "All the fish needs is to get lost in water. All man needs is to get lost in Tao." ~ Chuang-Tzu

     "There are many paths to enlightenment.
    Be sure to take the one with a heart."
    ~ Laozi

    “Giving to others selflessly and anonymously, radiating light throughout the world and illuminating your own darkness, your virtue becomes a sanctuary for yourself and all beings.” ~ Laozi.

    Laughing Owl


     is the best cocktail
    (St Germain)

    “Water is the only drink for a wise man.” ~ Henry David Thoreau

    How to Charge your Water:

    Each one try this, and if you do not feel results at first, just go on, for you certainly will as you use it more and more: 

    "'I AM' the Presence charging this water with the Life-giving Essence which I absorb and which renews my body in Perfect Health and Eternal Youth." 

    I also used this to charge the water that makes up my body - I placed my hands on my body stating:

    "'I AM' the Presence charging the water in this body with the Life-giving Essence which I absorb and which renews my body in Perfect Health and Eternal Youth." 

    Another way from Quan Yin to charge water:

    "With these hands and with this Heart and through the pure intention of God, this water (food) is blessed, removing and transmuting all impurities forever. God Bless this water (food). Thank you, thank you, thank you."

    7th-dimensional tool from St Germain for energising the water in our bodies and the earth

    (Our water is under attack!)


    "In a world filled with hate - we must still dare to hope!
    In a world filled with anger - we must still dare to comfort!
    In a world filled with despair - we must still dare to dream!
    And in a world filled with distrust - we must still dare to believe."
    - Michael Jackson

    Love is what matters. Indigo must shift to Crystal, to full consciousness. By demonstrating unconditional love in all his dealings with people and under all pressure Michael passed on to the summit of the astral realms. John Lennon - referring to himself as an ascended master - introduced him as 'Moonwalker' in the channelling circle I was in for a brief time. So he is a powerful guide and through continued loving service to humanity will soon ascend to the 5th dimension himself.

    "What we need to learn from children isn't childish. Being with them connects us to the deeper wisdom of life which is ever-present and only asks to be lived. They know the way to solutions that lie waiting to be recognised within our own heart. Today, I would like to thank all the children of the world including the sick and deprived. I am so sensitive to your pain." - Michael Jackson (at the 35th Annual Grammy Awards, 24 February 1993, Los Angeles, California).

    "The whole world abounds in magic. When a whale plunges out of the sea like a newborn mountain, you gasp in unexpected delight. What magic! But a toddler who sees his first tadpole flashing in a mud puddle feels the same thrill. Wonder fills the heart, because he has glimpsed for an instant the playfulness of life." - Michael Jackson (From 'Magic,' Dancing The Dream, 1992)

    “We have to heal our wounded world. The chaos, despair and senseless destruction we see today are the result of the alienation that people feel from each other and their environment. Often this alienation has its roots in an emotionally deprived childhood. Children have had their childhood stolen from them. A child’s mind needs the nourishment of mystery, magic, wonder and excitement. I want my work to help people rediscover the child that’s hiding in them.” – Michael Jackson (Dancing the Dream, 1992, p.80).

    "And my goal in life is to give to the world what I was lucky to receive: the ecstasy of divine union through my music and my dance." - Michael Jackson

    Breathe deeply!

    Breathing fully means that we are allowing our connection to the Source. Shallow breathing is a sign of denial of, and resistance to, our Divinity

    "Fill yourselves with love, with joy. Breathe in the prana. Breathe deeply. The prana is once again available to you, in such magnitudes as you have not known since Atlantis. It is the Elixir of Light, it is the Love of all Creation, it is the Adamantine Particles, it is the foundation of all life, all Creation. You have The All available to you, by simply breathing deeply throughout your day. A gift from the Creator. Take advantage of this blessed gift and breathe deeply, Dear Ones. You will lift yourselves up once again to the heights which you are soon to experience, a civilisation far surpassing Atlantis, as this time, there will be no darkness. There will be no misuse of power. You have come through the darkness and are emerging into the light and the light will allow no darkness. That Dear Ones is the beauty of the Now Moment which you are entering. You have succeeded and you will live and breathe the Love and the light and the joy and the peace and harmony, and you will experience the abundance which is your Divine birthright." - Archangel Michael (channelled through Michelle Coutant, ‘Claim Your Personal Power & Be the Love of Your Sacred Heart,’ 29 June 2010)


    Invoking the Mother Goddess

    Mahalaya heralds the advent of Durga, the goddess of supreme power. It is an invitation to the mother goddess to annihilate the evils of the world by her Supreme Goodness



    Love is

    Love is all

    Love is all there is

    Love is all

    Love is



    Don't be a stranger

    It's cold outside, There's no kind of atmosphere, I'm all alone, More or less. Let me fly, Far away from here, Fun, fun, fun, In the sun, sun, sun.

    I want to lie, Shipwrecked and comatoase, Drinking fresh, Mango juice, Goldfish shoals, Nibbling at my toes, Fun, fun, fun, In the sun, sun, sun, Fun, fun, fun,In the sun, sun, sun.

    (Red Dwarf theme tune)

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