On this page...

  • the Conclusion to the first book in my Monstaville trilogy in which I recount my experiences of meeting a blue-slinned angelic being named 'M'
  • appendices on related themes from the abovementioned book
  • a PDF of 'Our Universal Family,' my article on rediscovering our space family (which is free to download). I am currently working on this and will make it available as soon as I have finished


Monstaville Book I Conclusion

Appendix V

The Andromedans & Mentoring Humanity


Personal Experience


Our Space Family

UFO Disclosure I

UFO Disclosure II

Crazy Alien Shit

Illustration by Nichole Lillian Ryan


Interviewer: What do you think about space tourism?

Daevid Allen: I actually prefer to go there in my psychic body. It’s less problem, you know? Why, actually, get this great collection of flesh and bones to go walking along the surface of things when you can just lie down somewhere soft and collect yourself and go there form where you are? That’s a form of space travel which I prefer. The physical realm – people still want to conquer it or understand it or measure it or explore it. I’m over it, you know? I don’t care about it anymore. I just think it exists and it’s fine and gives you a lesson. It’s like a university. We learn by our mistakes. And you go until you die. It’s OK. It’s a sort of school.

Interviewer: I knew you were the right person to ask!

 - From an interview with Daevid Allen after Gong’s show at the New Morning, Paris, 16 October 2012 (


Monstaville Book I Conclusion

From The Monstaville Memoirs. Testimony of a Tormented Tenant. Book 1

By Antraeus de Herschia

 “Ghost of a steam train - echoes down my track

It's at the moment bound for nowhere -

just going round and round, Ohh

Playground kids and creaking swings -

lost laughter in the breeze

I could go on for hours and I probably will -

but I'd sooner put some joy back

In this town called malice.”

- Last verse of ‘Town Called Malice’ by The Jam.

At the time of writing, I am treating the ‘war’ as a game which I am playing to win. Getting angry, or depressed (anger turned in against oneself) is not a positive resolution. In 1975, J.F. Kennedy made a reference to “that wonderful law of the Boston Irish political jungle: ‘Don’t get mad; get even.’” The saying ‘Don’t get mad, get even’ is a halfway house. No good. This is because awareness is still constrained to an egocentric and, therefore, exclusive view. If one goes all out in one direction one then misses out on increasing one’s awareness by expanding one’s consciousness to include other levels of oneself. The trick is to minimise one’s own suffering in order to be in a strong position to deal with the situation. One must fight (or play) intelligently. Reacting thoughtlessly is never going to solve a problem like this, which is with you each and every day (if it ever solves any problem). One needs to retain a clear head...consider, contemplate, understand, know and decide what to do. An effective strategy requires a degree of inner guidance. The Angel Cards I use applied to this situation have repeatedly revealed words such as ‘strength,’ ‘courage,’ ‘forgiveness,’ ‘surrender,’ ‘tenderness’ and ‘compassion.’ There is a time when force may be required but there are also times when non-action is equally, if not more effective. It has to be tailored intuitively to the people with whom one is dealing. I admit that I removed a few eventually (for a while), such as ‘faith,’ ‘gratitude’ and ‘obedience.’ They made me angry! Life is a hard taskmaster.

“...even if you are blessed with an abundance of Divine grace, you must acquire the capacity to benefit from it. To get this capacity, you have to obey implicitly the injunctions of the Divine. If the devotee in the story had adhered to Lakshmi’s conditions, he would have benefited from her bounty. Failing to abide by her conditions, he forfeited what he had been offered.” - Sai Baba (Summer Showers in Brindavan, Sri Sathya Sai Books and Publications Trust, India, 1990, p.111).

Most importantly, we must set our intention in order to orchestrate the most positive and effective response from within ourselves. Affirmations I have used include: ‘I am powerful and in control,’ ‘I know what to do about (or how to deal with) the neighbours,’ ‘I am doing the right thing,’ ‘I am dealing with the neighbours effectively,’ ‘I know how to silence my neighbours,’ (OK and ‘I am civilising the neighbours’ at one point, haha), ‘I am keeping the peace,’ and ‘there is peace with the neighbours.’ It is surprising what small but highly effective strategies can then come to mind. ‘Surprising’ because they come from within oneself rather than being negative, human reactions. Also surprising is the spontaneous action that can spring forth, also from within. I have found myself taking aggressive action that, gentle soul that I am, I would never usually dream of engaging in. And, to my astonishment, I have found it to be highly effective. Indeed, some people only really respond to force because that is how they themselves operate. It is the language they understand. Subtlety is lost on a great many (insensitive) people. The adage ‘Treat others as you yourself wish to be treated’ has a flip side in my view. Some people will not leave you alone until they feel sufficient pain and are then forced to reconsider the stakes. They must ask themselves if the price of their behaviour is worth paying. Always, the price must be higher than their selfish amusement of bullying other people.

“Send Love in some form to those you believe wronged you, and notice how much better you feel and how more peace you have.” - Dr. Wayne Dyer.

There is also prayer of course, not to mention sending light and love. "Amor vincit omnia; et nos cedamus amori” (‘Love conquers all things; let us too surrender to love’) as Virgil put it two millennia ago. My conclusion is that this is a prerequisite for the ultimately positive result one seeks. Yet, it need not be an end in itself. One must remain vigilant (at all times if possible). Ready to consider or actually take offensive action. And, this may also be need to be pre-emptive at times. Self-defence must lead to offensive action if one is ever going to win and settle the score once and for all. Well, at least until the next time one’s opponents or enemies feel confident enough to strike again, if they really cannot relax and let bygones be bygones. We need to outsmart our enemies, people like my neighbours who believe they are animals and see us as being the same, to be feared, attacked and oppressed (or eaten), to blot us out of existence. They don’t want to be reminded that we are different or might have higher qualities that they persistently deny within themselves. The only way to achieve anything is through dedication and by applying ourselves to the situation at hand. We can pull through by making a concerted effort strategically, as I have done. We must build on our strengths and shield our weaknesses.

The world is in a spiritual crisis and what really matters is how we deal with the spiritual side of our lives, not the material: balancing the negativity outside with power inside. Otherwise, we yield to fear. An endurance test such as this can build greater strength in us. Potentially, this exercise can push us to a spiritual conclusion and to the expression of our spiritual power - including love and humour - and on to a deeper awareness of ourselves as spiritual beings. It is vital that we learn to generate or draw upon our inner reserves, some kind of power from somewhere within us. Sai Baba recommends prayer - something which I have overlooked I think. 1

Ultimately, it is all a test to motivate us to increase our power on a higher level until we ourselves are God-realised.

For me, writing these books represents the start of a new chapter in my understanding and perception of life as I become more open to the possibility that everything in my world is a reflection of myself (whether conscious or unconscious layers of myself). This is one of the great mysteries and paradoxes of life. Fighting with life, even if it seems to be bullying us, escalates problems whereas love eventually calms the storm because it is an expression of Reality.

“Peace, peace! Learn my miseries and do not seek to increase your own.” - Mary Shelley’s Frankenstein.

As I said in the introduction, I am not offering solutions. I am not suggesting that this will work in every situation or with every person. There are some pretty ignorant, selfish, stubborn people around and it can be very bad for one’s health to say even a word to a nasty thug in the street. I am saying, however, that there are other options and that, if communicating with such people directly is unwise or ineffective, there is still something one can ‘do’ which both helps one to rise above the negative emotions and contribute something to the other person’s growth for the sake of everyone. Thought is energy. If we all sent good vibes instead of anger or bottling our emotions up until they poison us, then the future on this planet, whether we are here or not, will be much lighter and more fulfilling for all.

“Bless them which persecute you: bless, and curse not.” - Romans 12:14.

Meet negative action with positive activity and negative energy with positive energy. Meet destructive behaviour with creative expression. Love and you feel good about the situation which is a robust fortress to defend yourself from attack. You can, if you wish, regard your tormentor as a seed beneath the ground, aching, showing that it needs more water. So, you send it love, as though it were much-needed rain to help the soul to grow towards the Sun and move from ignorance in the soil of the unconscious to conscious light as a maturing plant above ground. It is no ordinary love. It is divine love, shared regardless of that person’s attitude towards you, irrespective of their hatred. Alternatively, you can simply perceive the hostile person as being ill and wish them well - bless them, wish for them to find peace and harmony in their soul, that they grow and blossom spiritually.

“You never lose by loving. You always lose by holding back.” - Barbara de Angelis.

"Human beings are innately loving beings. When we fail to love, it is because an element of ignorance has intruded into our experience, submerging our natural impulse to love." - Thich Nhat Hanh.

Alex Collier says that one of the Andromedans, 2 named Vasais (who is 4,000-years-old), told him telepathically, “Alex, the love you withhold is the pain that you carry, lifetime after lifetime after lifetime,” as he was objecting to having to leave their spaceship and return to Earth (‘Spiritual Messages and Teachings from Andromeda,’ a talk at the Exopolitics Earth Transformation Conference in Hawaii, May 2008). Who could blame him? Sometimes, you just need to let go of your fears (or swallow your pride) and take some loving advice from a much more advanced race of aliens! [See Appendix VII]. “All we have to do is get out of our own way,” he counsels; just let go of our fears and love, love every little thing, within and without, to become the true Self. The Andromedans, he explains, say that the vibration that we all move at is that of fear and anger. They say “we’re not taking advantage of others, we’re taking advantage of ourselves.” As Ralph Waldo Emerson said, “Most of the shadows of this life are caused by our standing in our own sunshine” (and Woody Allen said, “I’ve often said, the only thing standing between me and greatness is me”). [Note: I came across this quote as being attributed to Emerson in 2011 by, it would seem, people online who cannot handle channelled sources and have gotten these two quotes mixed up. If you search the actual quote a whole list of pages comes up referencing Emerson as the author so I guess perhaps one or a few major quotation websites got hold of it and the altered version spread from there].

“Your task is not to seek for love,
But merely to seek and find
All the barriers within yourself
That you have built against it.”
- Rumi.

As Lazaris informs us, we are all on a journey back to the Source, which is love. “Even those who, by your assessment, do not seem to be on any kind of a journey at all have made the conscious choice to return to the Love,” he says. “They may resist it. They may be afraid of it. They may deny it. They are still on the Path.” (Channelled through Jach Pursel, The Sacred Journey. You and your Higher Self, NPN Publishing Inc., FL., U.S., 1987, p.77). Our Light lies buried under layer upon layer of dirt, lodged somewhere down a drain. Or at least our diamond hearts which hold and radiate the Light of Reality and the eternal Self are covered by the dense energies that we carry in our lower three chakras. All this slime, all this fear, all this slackness and sense of lack, that blocks out the Light and attaches us to the holographic illusion in which we are stuck, this cess pool we’ve created that we will soon help transform into a world of Light! We simply need a thorough cleanse: a flood of water, Light and Oneness. Add some natural divine detergent: healing love. As Stephen Levine states: “To heal is to touch with love that which we previously touched with fear.” We need to breathe in the air of universal awareness. To remember something of the celestial environment above ground as it were which is our natural habitat as angelic beings: the beauty and peace, the joy, trust, security, freedom and love. We all need a good reality check! “If your commitment is, indeed, to look within and discover each and every obstacle you have ever created to the presence of Love, why do you resist feeling those things?” asks Jeshua ben Joseph. “...You cannot even know the presence of God unless you feel it. You cannot 'think about' the presence of God. You cannot insist on a belief about the presence of God. That does not do it; that does not fill your cup. Feeling fills your cup. Feeling - unbridled, unblocked, unobstructed feeling - is the doorway to that Love that sets you free!” (Channelled through Jayem, The Way of Mastery, Heartfelt Publishing, VA., U.S., 1997, Or, in the words of the Initiate RaHoTep: “I encourage you to remember that our greatest enemy is the fear that we have hidden deep inside. If that fear can be brought to our awareness, it can be loved free. Please, accept now the greatest lesson of my life: Love is stronger than fear, and Spirit is alive in all matter!” (channelled through Suzanne Caroll, 13 July 2009,

“Pain only arises when there is discord in the nature of the sacrifice, between the higher whose joy is in giving, and the lower whose satisfaction lies in grasping and holding.” - Annie Besant.

So, I have found a technique (thanks to Paco Rabanne) that both shields me from the arrows of hatred and sends out a blessing that uses the power of the Word positively and therefore seems the perfect complement to the light and love that I have also been sending them faithfully in my regular meditations. Indeed, I have found with affirmations and prayers that their power is greatly increased by being vocalised. It feels good because I am now also training myself to apply a spiritual discipline, that might become a permanent condition of my consciousness, a reliably positive response to other people’s selfishness, ignorance and hate. It is also possible that practising this art for a number of years might take me to the next level, eventually, where I can, indeed, just think something positive or send positive energy and remain unaffected. We’ll just have to see. At least it’s a start. Alex Collier has developed his own personal practice of blessing his food, coffee, and what have you. “What you do is just get into a space of blessing everything,” he explains, “and it does, in fact, change the frequency. It will change the people that you work with. It might take a little while but these are simple things. It’s just, you know, like the movie The Secret said: it’s an attitude of gratitude.” (ibid.). (‘Spiritual Messages and Teachings from Andromeda,’ a talk at the Exopolitics Earth Transformation Conference in Hawaii, May 2008).

I didn’t get very far when I tried expressing gratitude for my life and everything in it. When the list of things I was grateful for ran out, I would move on to everything I did not feel grateful for in the least and it was always so long that the exercise felt like a joke and just made me feel more bitter than if I never started in the first place! 3 Perhaps reason got the better of feeling. In the past, however, I have, for periods of time, followed some of Master Aïvanhov’s teachings, including injecting my aura with various colours for people to draw upon and loving my food as I ate (for the purpose of helping it on its evolutionary way). Blessing, itself, is an expression of love, one that is more proactive than acceptance or tolerance for example although these, and, as with gratitude and forgiveness, feels subtly uplifting. These activities, these intentions, are essential for maintaining a high vibration. It is a wise person, therefore, who blesses all to assist them in becoming the divinity, the co-creator, they are. I love the idea, and the feeling, of blessing everything and everyone, but sometimes it might feel right to send light or love, and I cannot see myself doing anything religiously. More’s the pity, perhaps. ‘I didn’t get where I am today by withholding love!’ 4

How to Bless and transmute from St Germain (channelled through Ashamarae):

“It is within my divine right to bless you and I bless you with the full force of God’s Love, so be it.”

“It is within my divine right through the full force of God’s Love, that I bless this and transmute this, so be it.”

If the truth be known, I was shocked when I watched the video of Alex Collier’s lecture last night and it reached the point where he says that the Andromedans have light-blue skin. For, I myself have had contact with such a being in the past! And, during hypnosis, I learned that he was also my teacher in Egypt 5 In fact, in that state, I felt that I wanted to just leave everything and kind of ‘dive’ into him, merge completely, as if returning home, where I belonged. I always assumed that he was from some ancient time, from the ancient continent of Lemuria or something, and living in the spirit world as an ‘ascended being.’ It feels as like he is part of my spiritual family or one of my higher selves (on a higher dimension). I now wonder if M is actually my ‘Higher Self’ as a being who provides a blueprint for my own evolution and guides me towards that level of consciousness (perhaps even visiting from the future!). “Another teaching of Ra is that all people have higher selves,” writes David Wilcock, “a sixth-density future incarnative self that is guiding their life and guiding their physical incarnation from the future. The Higher Self basically says, ‘Look, I know that you're going to evolve to become me. I'm looking back into my past at myself, but I also know that you have free will. I don't necessarily know all the choices that you will make on a day-by-day basis to eventually get to be me, where I am now. So I'm going to help you get to this point. I'm going to show you how to get to where I am, knowing that it's myself that's evolving.’” - ( and

To be honest, in those days, I didn’t really know that there were ‘extra-terrestrials’ who visited Earth. [Retrospective note: Kind of like 60-year-old Ernesto de la Fuente in Chile who did not realise he was talking with extraterrestrials until a year-and-a-half had passed! They were, apparently, a sect of strange priests called Friendship (Amistad in Spanish). They invited him to their island in Patagonia. There, underground, the healed him of cancer using unknown technology during the mid-1980s saying that it was not his time to die and that he was one of the ‘chosen ones’ which could mean that he is a starseed and entered the long reincarnational sleep of third-density to serve humanity and restore the Light at this time]. I thought the idea was baloney. The part of me that sometimes sees spirits has a childlike innocence that makes me open to such experiences. The analytical intellect, as well as personal beliefs and emotions, block out the view of the whole, with all its multi-dimensional layers of subtle life and beauty, dancing around us unseen. Once, I also saw a group of males from the same race as though it were a snapshot, like a picture postcard that had been sent to me. As with M, they each had pale blue skin and a broad cranium and wore a long white gown that reached down to their feet. They were sitting on a rocky bay overlooking an ocean. The rock was black and an unusually vibrant reddish-bronze and colour.

[Actually, I have since learned that ETs from Sirius usually have blue skin as well: see Appendix V. I have also discovered that there was a ‘Blue Race’ in Lemuria as well as a yellow-skinned people. M could be one of the Lemurians who now live in the Inner Earth. The Kryon, I have also discovered, refer to the Higher Self as a group and appear to identify the members of this group as ‘five giant blue forms.’ So, perhaps M is related to my Higher Self in some way, a member of this group that I am, or am a part of, either in Sirius or Andromeda. He could be one of my ‘Galactic Counsellors’ (to whom Kirael refers). Or, perhaps M is another me, like I am here in this physical body but I am also in another dimension at the same ‘time’ although I do not feel that he is one of my higher selves. Since this was written, I used a meditation technique involving visualisation to contact my Higher Self or main guide and the being I saw fleetingly prior to the indescribably powerful and magical energy merging with me was M. The vision was very clear. It was also accompanied shortly afterwards by the word ‘Andromeda,’ which was the only thing I heard. It seems feasible then that he might indeed hail from the Andromedan Galaxy. A helpful Ascension tip: visualise a beam of blue light from Sirius activating your light body].

The moments shared with ‘M,’ with his gentle smile and light, loving energy, were very beautiful and precious. [Retrospective note: Ernesto de la Fuente described the members of ‘Friendship’ as being identical (Nordic-looking, I think, so perhaps they are members of the Ashtar Command). And, he explained, they had a peace and serenity in their eyes and ‘radiated something.’ He was very attracted to their wisdom, he said, and when he asked where they got their knowledge from they said it came from ‘angels who came from God’]. I remember three of these meetings but there were at least one other visits which I’ve now forgotten. The last encounter with this powerful but kind and peaceful entity was fifteen years ago. On my way home from the meditation group I was facilitating, I felt inspired to sit by the river for a while. It was dark but mild out, and I felt serene perched on the river bank looking at the water. His tall, subtle form appeared and sat next to me. He talked to me (telepathically) for what felt like half-an-hour but could have been less, as I drifted off into a less conscious realm of thought and listened. I have only ever remembered two things. One was that he was explaining to me that life is my teacher, not my enemy (which I had blurted out in a healing session with the ‘Mandarin’ not long before and to which he replied that he was sad to hear me say that but added that, in truth, I love life and I love people). The other thing I recall is that he placed a ring with a green stone on my finger. I have no idea what it meant but assumed it was to help me in some way. After my initial ordeals in London, U.K., when I settled down to write, I was so bitter that I couldn’t meditate for a couple of years. Anger would surface and I just stopped bothering. I had changed. I had taken on a challenge and it had been a disaster. I vowed never to take on challenges ever again!

"There are some defeats more triumphant than victories." - Michel de Montaigne.

I did venture into meditation occasionally, however, and I distinctly remember once warning M not to visit me because I did not feel I could bear to experience such beauty and love as it would only accentuate the underlying despair I felt in regard to the state of my life. Once in a while, I have contemplated this idea of life being my enemy. It is not something I had considered until the words came out from deep inside me, from my emotional self, or ‘Inner Child,’ I suppose you could say. For a few years, off and on, I actually visualised myself fighting with some ‘demon’ cloaked in karma-black robes I considered to represent ‘life,’ usually with a sword (I used a sword but ‘life’ had an arsenal of weapons and tricks at his disposal). It was always a kind of draw even though I sensed that ‘life’ must have been holding back. The sword was my newly activated will which was being put to the test both at home and at work.

During the time that Pigsy lived in the flat upstairs this thermometer for how I felt I was doing in my battle with life was looking more and more gloomy. I was not winning the battles and finally gave in. I accepted my state of powerlessness rather than embraced the feeling of surrender. It was clearly an unwelcome defeat. I had lost...I had lost any hope of enjoying life and getting to where I wanted to be. I had lost my music and I wasn’t even writing. Instead, I had just the opposite of what wanted even though I was content spiritually, living simply and continuing to explore various Daoist works and other books.

“Every loving thought is true. Everything else is an appeal for healing and help, regardless of the form it takes.” – A Course in Miracles (Jeshua channelled through Dr. Helen Schucman, The Foundation for Inner Peace, CA., U.S., 1976).

Instead of living my dreams, I was in some kind of nightmare. Having given up, I stopped indulging in this fantasy for a while...until I discovered the teaching of using positive affirmations and conscious intent. I was confident that I could crack this nut, exercising my inner will and developing increasing faith, and persisted with it wholeheartedly for at least three years, as previously mentioned. It did not produce all that I had hoped for but it did enable me to expel the monster and brought my attention to the remainder of my life’s work (the books I’ve been working on over the past five or six years). So, the fantasy naturally re-emerged in my mind and I felt invincible. I conquered the life-demon with relative ease during each encounter, confident in my power. Then, I had this kind of breakdown and the whole exercise seemed completely pointless. All I could do was hope that there was light at the end of the tunnel. I’m not there yet, but things are improving. I do believe that a butterfly is finally emerging from the cocoon. I no longer see any point in resisting life; hence, the ‘sword fight’ has not resurfaced in my mind. I can’t even summon that projection if I try. Perhaps the reason is that it is no longer me making the first move! For, the reply to my initial statement was that perhaps I am the enemy of life, something which I denied for years.

I can’t tell you that I now trust life, that I am without fear or anger and that everything is hunkydory. I have matured through experience, however, and reached a point where wisdom makes me relax and smile and relate to difficult people and circumstances more kindly, where I know that reacting with my ego is both foolish and futile. For some time, the reaction would surface and I was sufficiently conscious to choose whether or not to assert myself in order to remind people to behave more reasonably. I also reasoned, however, that since it is impossible to confront everyone who behaves annoyingly, why bother at all? So, now, more often than not, I quietly observe, knowing that person is weak and mindlessly building up their portfolio of karma, that, while my suffering is reaching an end, theirs is just beginning. How can one not feel compassion for all human beings and the tests they must endure to slowly wake themselves up as they grow strong enough to learn the lessons that life provides?

“You must each decide what your life will be. You must always know that a hand extended to you fellow man is a gesture of love. Love that asks nothing, that expects nothing; it is simply there. And, if love is in you, then gentle will be all your steps as you walk beyond this valley.” - Excerpt from a speech in Beyond the Valley of the Dolls (directed by Russ Meyer, 1970).

It may sound flimsily ‘New Age,’ but one can only send them love and light, and the reality of that is more powerful and effective than we humans think. However, it must be noted that, initially at least, sending out this energy is very likely to draw to us the opposite. This, says my father, is the law of the universe! Life tests us to see how resolved we are, how much we want peace and harmony. So there is an adverse reaction but this eventually dissipates if we persist. Unless one knows this, one is likely to become easily discouraged, as I indeed was. As I have said, I sent love to my neighbours and received an automatically abusive reaction each time which led me to more than doubt the potential effectiveness of such an enterprise. In time, however, it is possible to put some distance between one’s own erroneous responses and their targets and build a feeling of trust in the other person’s consciousness. We are bound together through thought and it is therefore very possible to transform situations through thought (once we attain a high enough vibration).

In actual fact, I remember now, that having found my inner power clearly meant that such a shadow sparring partner could no longer exist. It no longer had a raison d’être. Duality itself had been sufficiently expelled by the Sun’s rays. No matter what my fear, suffering and strife might be now, it does feel like the chrysalis of my consciousness is starting to break away and that there is less inner conflict for the outer world to prod. Even if I am sometimes reduced to being a wreck and still see life itself bullying me more than teaching me the understanding that I have reached is that I can only do my best with what resources I have, and I now have a few tricks up my sleeve, thankfully. Beyond that, one can only endure with patience and acceptance and a kind of inner peace and, indeed, kindness to oneself and towards life. I laugh about things more than I ever have and I do often, I confess, declare, ‘stupid universe.’ This is the last bastion of my hubris. It’s a kind of stalemate. I dismiss ‘life’ with a mixture of anger and humour, in an instant. I know that it is simply futile to get caught up in an inner struggle when I can only do so much and life either responds favourably or it does not. Generally, it does not, and that’s why I call the universe ‘stupid’! Rather than having more faith, it is probably fair to say that I am more fatalistic than ever.

If my life is a ship, it first had a narrow escape from a man-eating sea beast. I was then sailing along quite free but aboard a damaged ship. Consequently, I was always slow and vulnerable. I discovered my purpose at last and even retrieved my will. I found my map and fixed the compass. I set a course for my destination. However, the ship appeared to be irreparable owing to limited resources and continuing struggles. It floundered on the rocks and, although I managed to break free, I had to keep trying to weave in and out of the rocks, now free, now trapped, or scraping and bashing the hull against them. I still feel both stuck and independent. I am focussed and ambitious, yet very frustrated with it!

Now, I am just doing my thing, expressing my potential as I see it, like the craftsman god Hephaestus in his forge inside Mount Etna, hopeful but mistrustful. During a camping trip years ago an ex-girlfriend and I went canoeing on the River Wye. We came across this calf (well, older than that perhaps, but not fully grown) that had fallen down a steep, muddy riverbank intending to quench its thirst. We both felt sorry for the animal and agreed that we ought to stop and see if we could help it out of the water (crazy vegetarians!). Big mistake! It weighed a ton! And, besides that, it was not in the least bit helpful! I was standing in the water pushing the critter with all my might and most of the time it seemed to move in the opposite direction (pushing me) as if possessed by some obstinate death wish. Tourists! Finally, I gave up and we informed the canoe-hire guys about the situation when we got back. They said this was a regular occurrence and that they would let the farmer know so he could get someone to retrieve the cow himself.

There’s no use standing in a river, wading through mud, trying to heave against such a heavy brute, whether it is just plain dumb or too heavy or whether it has other ideas or just can’t help itself. Just relax and enjoy the ride and if a solution arrives then great. In other words, let go and invest in what you consider to be worthwhile and achievable. Prompting or trying to push life to do what you want may or may not be effective. I do think it requires a certain degree of wisdom to know when you’re beat and need to stop pushing the cow. ‘OK, have it your way,’ one might say, because if you don’t let go, if you don’t relax, then you lose your power and get into a cycle of fear and resentment, and other negative emotions that are not going to help either. Enjoy the ride and don’t create further obstacles for yourself. Give the cow a shove, by all means; then you will know the limit of your strength. Care, but don’t care too much. It’s not the same as love which also allows for will and reason more readily. Get your priorities straight and make sure you are attending to that which is most important to you and dealing with the things that matter, within your capability. Know when to have grace, in other words. I think that is my favourite Angel Card. The message is so clear and final and yet beautifully relaxing. I tend to smile inwardly when I pick ‘grace.’ Just let go because there’s nothing that can be done to alter the situation. Then, you are free to carry on enjoying the ride and row gently down the stream: ‘merrily, merrily, merrily, merrily, life is but a dream.’

Once you lose the river of feeling and consciousness, you’re just as stuck as that cow. And, the cow didn’t even invite you. It didn’t ask you to stop feeling, appreciating, living, rowing peacefully along and enjoying the view by exerting yourself and taking on more than you could handle. It tempted you though, sure. If it could talk, perhaps it would say, ‘I’m just here to see if you can be distracted from your path dumb-ass!’ You know, and if the cow succeeds, then there is something for us to learn here in preparation for future encounters. We need to develop more strength, or more wisdom, observe more consciously, ‘search our feelings’ more, have more faith, be more centred, more patient, more humble, more compassionate, more understanding, more intuitive, apply more will but, in all likelihood, use less force and effort...whatever. It’s where will ends and wisdom begins and where youth ends and maturity begins.

This whole drama over the past decade has been something of a birth, transformation through crisis, and I am very pleased to have shared it with you...just in case you happen to be going through a similar endurance test and are searching for insights that might be of help. Nasty neighbours, money problems, shattered dreams, ‘breakdown,’ and so all adds up and altogether it weighs a ton! But, it’s kind of baggage that we allow ourselves to burden us along the journey. Somehow, we have to respond to problems with the minimum fuss and then take our minds off them by expressing love and our life’s purpose whilst withstanding the stress and strain as best we can. It is an opportunity to grow, even if we do not see things on that level. [Source has subsequently prompted me not to take it all so seriously, to be more easygoing and laugh it all off. It reminds me not to lower my vibration for anything or anyone, to feel the discomfort but take my mind off it, accept the difficulties but be aware of them, be conscious and deal with them the best I can. To be a warrior of Light and return to the inner, eternal reality of love and joy at all times as Archangel Michael advises, to remain in the flow of love and abundance, the river of Tao, the realms of Light from the fifth dimension upwards].

“The moments of crisis and pain double the vitality in men. Or, perhaps, in a nutshell: the men begin to live fully only when they are with their backs to the wall.” - P. Auster (The Book of Illusions, 2002).

Me, I had no power to express at all until I was 27. And, now that I have a degree of power I realise that it must be handled with care, like a box of Acme dynamite. Indeed, wisdom and intelligence are more important because will is at the centre but depends on consciousness to achieve results. Apart from speed, increased awareness is the Road Runner’s greatest advantage over his nemesis. And gravity is, most often, “the Coyote's greatest enemy.”

( - worth checking for the list of hilarious Latin names ascribed to the pair in each episode).

The Wikipedia page notes that the Road Runner never harms Wile. E and that “the Coyote is always more humiliated than harmed by his failures.” (ibid.). In other words, being one step ahead of the game, not necessarily by playing it, but observing it, is enough to ensure that the wild coyote will get frustrated and make mistakes. He is so hungry and determined that he fails to think things through enough. He misses the big picture which, it might be argued, the Road Runner sees because he moves so fast that he covers more ground, so he has the advantage of perspectives from many angles over a wide distance, almost as he would if he were flying up above. Wile E. relies on force and tries to make up for his lack of intelligence by ordering a host of devices from the Acme Corporation. The Road Runner is kind of a genius. He seems to know what will work automatically whereas, even with the best products on the market, Wile E. still can’t figure it all out. He just can’t see where he’s going wrong and that is, essentially, because he is unable to see outside the box. He is miserable because tied to his own limited ego whereas the more ‘geeky’ (and cute) Road Runner appears to be free from such a sad state of affairs and, hence, is always smiling. Freedom and truth triumph over force and power in the end.

You don’t see the Roadrunner getting caught up in Wile E. Coyote’s fanatical games unless he deliberately chooses to when he has the upper hand. Then, Wile frequently blows himself up instead or comes crashing down to earth. When he does finally catch the Road Runner, it is because he has pursued the Road Runner back through a pipe and out of the widest end which results in the Road Runner becoming a giant while there is no change to the ever-hungry coyote’s stature. So, his knife and fork are rendered useless. “Wile E. will come within inches of catching the Road Runner, who will then suddenly shift into a higher gear and rocket away, instantly passing out of sight. Then, after his amazement at this sudden acceleration, Wile E. will begin scheming how to get the bird with his brain instead of speed...The Coyote's elaborate schemes always backfire, injuring him in highly exaggerated slapstick violence. While Wile E. is the aggressor in the series, he and his hopelessly futile efforts and intricate contraptions - almost always from the Acme Corporation - are the focus of the humour and the audience's sympathy, as these contraptions and/or plans invariably fail with catastrophic results for the Coyote.” (ibid). As with Bugs Bunny, the Road Runner outsmarts his attacker time and again because he thinks faster and knows more. They both run rings around their tormentors, confidently and playfully. Then there are Jerry and Speedy Gonzalez. What am I saying here? Am I saying that learning to outsmart bullies prepares us to outsmart life itself? Perhaps I am. It is all a journey towards self-mastery, to an enlightened state of mind in which one can, indeed, create one’s life, however many years or lifetimes that journey may require. Not just that, but, eventually, express the creative power of God intelligently and harmoniously, wisely and responsibly, in other realms of consciousness to enable other life forms to learn and grow similarly.

One must remember, however, that any book or teaching can only ever be a finger pointing at the moon. They are but bridges to our own inner wisdom and meditation is the key that unlocks the door to the all-knowing Self and other layers of consciousness (just remember to always close your chakras down afterwards please - life is troublesome enough as it is!). As David Lynch observes: “If you have a golf-ball-sized consciousness, when you read a book, you’ll have a golf-ball-sized understanding, when you look out, a golf-ball-sized awareness, and when you wake up in the morning, a golf-ball-sized wakefulness. But, if you could expand that consciousness, then you read the book - more understanding, you look out - more awareness, and when you wake up - more wakefulness. It’s consciousness. And, there’s an ocean of pure, vibrant consciousness inside each one of us. And it’s right at the source and base of mind, right at the source of thought and it’s also at the source of all matter.”

I have been very alone (never lonely) for most of my life; not all but most. I think M came to say hello while I still had some clairvoyant capacity, to be a special friend in a world seemingly so alien to me and to offer some encouragement with regard to my spiritual progress. Perhaps the challenge is to grow stronger roots or to develop my potential more deeply in certain areas. The world is an oppressive, ignorant, dark place that encroaches on our individuality and does its best to suppress individual purpose. It wants us all to conform to the System, or to tradition, or to the collective status quo - whether to identify with it or simply remain fearful and obedient. That’s what the collar and tie and other uniforms signify. It feels like I am a seed planted in the soil, in a dense, unconscious, materialistic world that doesn’t recognise or respect individuality. So, alone, I struggle to wake up in these depressing conditions. Yet, I have already been a flower. This, I have forgotten. This is the challenge, to clear karma and achieve that state again, and rise even higher and share more beauty and truth with the world. So, the seed struggles and slowly grows. Eventually, it will rise above the ground into conscious light and the stem will grow and the flower blossom. We step into time to forget who we are, says Collier. This enables us to work on certain aspects of our consciousness, growth and potential in a concentrated way that is unavailable to us beyond time.

The seed, or the root, is in the collective - but not as the collective soil, but as part of myself that can withstand the pressure and use that oppressive energy rather than being crippled by it. I then do not fear or resist it, but accept it for what it is, patiently and enduring wisely. The flower of love and joy can then grow towards the light without inhibition, without the duality that suppression maintains. That is why it is important to accept and deal with the world as it is, for all its darkness, limitations, ugliness, hostility and pain. Otherwise, one wastes too much time and energy resisting, giving life to fear, hiding from truth, being depressed, and generally stunting one’s growth. The beauty of the process, however, is that, all the time one spends underground, stuck in the unconscious, one is actually developing the strength and wisdom necessary to grow further when the time is right. It’s a win-win situation, for God. That’s why the Creator provided us with such a dense garden in which to test ourselves and put down roots, to prepare us for expressing our higher potential. Humanity is now entering ‘fifth density,’ a higher vibration of consciousness. According to Collier, the Andromedans have been living on that plane for some ‘time’ already and are living what, for us, is an ideal life both individually and collectively. One day, human beings, too, will be telepathic and create wonderful environments using holographic technology. [See Appendix VI for an excerpt from Alex Collier’s talk in January 2010: ‘The Andromedans & Mentoring Humanity’].

I did try to call to M to return a few years ago but there was no sign of him. It feels appropriate to end on this note because my vivid impression of M is of the being I would most wish to become. He is my ideal in terms of where I see myself evolving...eventually! And, what better to end a book on suffering that with this beautiful vision, this feeling of potential, of possibility. I know some (or most) of you will scoff and say I was only dreaming, imagining things. I had several clairvoyant experiences during my twenties and I would delight in mischief-making with you lot! I knew what I had seen was real so I just enjoyed telling my stories knowing that any resistance from others would not have the slightest effect on me. It was fun to challenge their preconceived notions about the nature of the universe, and, I suppose, a way to feel good about being unconventional. It was certainly more convenient than entering into philosophical debate. It was ego, in other words. And, as Osho says, clever people can win any argument even if they are wrong. I expect that mischievousness would soon return if I had regular contact with such benign aliens but, for the time being anyway, I don’t. And perhaps, just perhaps, I have more control over my ego now thanks to my creepy neighbours (who did the mash, who did the monster mash...remember?).

“God is crazy, truth is crazy, because truth is so vast, it cannot be reduced into a syllogism. You can sing about it, but you cannot argue about it - the moment you argue about it, you have falsified it. You can dance it, but you cannot make a dogma out of it. Yes, you are right. My ideas ARE crazy, because they are not MY ideas. I simply allow myself to be a hollow bamboo and whatsoever song God wants to sing on it, I allow him total freedom. I don't stand in judgment. I don't say: Don't sing this sing, this will look crazy. I say: Okay, if you want to sing it, sing it. If it is crazy, it s crazy...I can deny those parts which look illogical, and insist on the logical. I can remain consistent; I can make a very clean-cut philosophy. That is not difficult - in fact, that will be very easy. But I am not interested in consistency. I am not interested at all in logic, I am interested in truth. And if truth is crazy, I am crazy. If truth is mad, I am mad. And let that point be remembered by you all, because my whole effort here is to relax you so you can also become a little crazy; to help you relax, to help you loosen the grip of the mind so the no-mind can penetrate in you; to put the human aside so the divine can have a chance in your being. Don't cling to the clear-cut. Truth is not so clear-cut, and cannot be. Truth is so vast, it contains contradictions. It is crazy...All meditation is an approach towards divine madness. Stake all human sanity. It is better to be mad in a divine way than to be sane in a human way.” - Osho (The Divine Melody, Chapter 4, ‘The greatest love affair on earth,’ 4 January 1977, Buddha Hall, Rajneesh Foundation, Pune, India, 1978).

If you are sensitive and gentle, particularly if you have no choice in the matter, then you need to arm yourself with knowledge and balance yourself with additional strength, conscious intention and/or wisdom and understanding (including invocations and practices like closing your chakras for self-protection). You need to have some power at your core, in your soul, in order to centre all the stuff that sensitivity and openness let in.

“Each one of you wishes to exercise her/his free will and experience happiness. These are attributes that were shown to us and to which we now have access. Your free will depends upon the knowledge you have of your own power. Your happiness depends upon the love that you give and receive...Like most of you, we are in the quest of the Supreme Being. Therefore we are not gods or lesser gods but virtually your equals in the Cosmic Brotherhood. Physically, we are somewhat different from you but for most of us humanoid‑shaped. Our existence is a reality but the majority of you does not perceive it yet." (Excerpt from 'Change the World! 'Decide Whether We Should Show Up!''

By writing up these journal entries, I have rediscovered the concept of tonglen practice which, as Howard C. Cutler explains, “is meant to help train the mind, to strengthen the natural power and force of compassion. This is achieved because Tong-Len meditation helps counteract our selfishness. It increases the power and strength of our mind by enhancing our courage to open ourselves to others’ suffering.” (The Art of Happiness. A Handbook for Living by The Dalai Lama and Howard C. Cutler Riverhead Books, New York, U.S., 1998, p.212). Again, without taking it onboard, I have found, more emotionally than intellectually, a source of inspiration which seems to show that I am on the right track, that my conclusions are valid. It is as though, by being exposed to the possibilities, I might awaken to a higher perspective and realise my full potential as a human being. I have come full circle. However, I feel, personally, that by ‘sending’ light, we also receive, or ‘take’ (or ‘partake’) the light of Being that shines through us. One practice that I am fond of now is imagining - and feeling - that everything and everyone is pure love energy. It confers upon me a feeling of inner peace, trust and confidence, making me more open to my circumstances and the world around me. I also like to imagine that I am a being of pure love, rose pink in colour, transforming everything around me. A god of love.

“I repeated this mantra over and over to myself. I repeated it in the bathtub, on hikes up the mountain, one the way to school to pick up the girls, everywhere. I must have said this at least twenty times a day for those five years.

From the Lord God of My Being Unto the Mother/Father Within, I call forth all my unfinished business. Bring it forward. Bring forward anything I have not looked at. Bring forward my fears, my jealousies, and my insecurities. Bring it all forward and let me work on it now.’

Occasionally, I must admit, I added a line to my mantra.

From the Lord God of My Being Unto the Mother/Father Within, I call forth all my unfinished business. Bring it all forward that I may finish it, so I will be ready to meet the mate of my being.’”

- Judi Sion (The Magdalen Manuscript. The Alchemies of Horus & The Sex Magic of Isis by Tom Kenyon and Judi Sion, Sounds True, Inc., Boulder, Co, U.S., 2002, p.225).

The moment ‘M’ stepped into this Conclusion both Monstaville and my life took a dramatic turn in the direction of spiritual Ascension. Something was awakened within me: the beauty and Light, joy and serenity, of a gentle, loving, magical, Ascended being. I had my ‘First Contact’ years ago without realising it. Perhaps that is why I don’t trust humans much! I mean have my own alien role model (the word ‘alien’ appeals to my sense of humour). Naturally, once one achieves the feeling and awareness of actually being love one might be impervious to all external disturbances. Trying to act with love through simply doing does not negate the grief that other people can cause. Nevertheless, it is inspiring to peer into the future at one’s full potential.

The Ascension energy is raising our frequencies and leading us back into Light. It is expanding our consciousness so that we can know who we truly are as multidimensional beings. It is about discovering higher forms of expression, acting on a higher octave: thinking, feeling and acting in a way that expresses our divine nature more and more until we become aware that this is, indeed, the real you and the real me. All we have to do to keep up and become the beneficiaries of these higher vibrations is remain centred in our hearts, in the qualities of our higher selves: love, joy, faith and creative power. Feeling and witnessing the love and joy that we are in eternal Reality beyond the crazy and sometimes scary Hall of Mirrors of the third dimension. Somehow, we need to remain centred in our authentic self, expressing the qualities of the spirit which is our higher nature. We owe it to ourselves not to allow other people or events to drag us down. The stakes are high now; the rewards greater than ever. The Hathors (channelled through Tom Kenyon) offer the following advice: “Discover the things in your life, the situations, the people, your own thoughts and feelings, whatever gives you a reason for joy, appreciation and gratitude. Cultivate this like a precious garden in the midst of poisonous weeds, for then this garden will grow and give you sustenance. Paradoxically on many levels (not just emotionally and psychologically but spiritually and even physically) when the power of joy, appreciation or gratitude reaches a certain amplitude or strength, it can literally cause manifestations of physical reality. And so even in the darkest moments, if you hold the spiritual mastery to transcend fear and cultivate joy, appreciation and gratitude, unexpected auspicious moments and situations will present themselves to you. And, finally, we wish to be clear that these dark times can be your grandest hours. You hold within you the Secret of Secrets. Use them. Pass through the veil into the new world that awaits you. And may your path to this new dimension of being be strewn with auspicious blessings.” (‘Lies, Half-Truths and Manipulations,’ 11 August 2009,

Whilst being centred in our hearts is the most direct path, training the mind is a gradual but practical path to wisdom which can aid this practice. For, that wisdom, gained through experience, reminds us that what we feel in our hearts is real while the judgements of the thinking lower mind, the meddling tinker, the separate ego, is what obstructs our higher nature. We are working on our hearts and during this process we discover the intelligence therein. [See Appendix IX: ‘Being in Service’].

“So, as you begin to choose to relinquish the mind, the little mind, the ego, the little personal identity and the process of thinking about everything in relation to it, the little I, only then will you have any way to even comprehend Real ecstasy, because the little mind, the ego is a blockage to the conduit, a blockage to the experience of life and until you experience the living joy of Love We Are as a whole expression of conscious Love, only then will your vibration be the resonance of acceptance of the abundance of life I Am, and thus, the abundance you are.” - A message from God (channelled through Yael and Doug Powell, ‘Your Heart and the Transforming Power of Love,’ 28 May 2009,

Wisdom reminds us to breathe. She reminds us that we are love and knowing awareness. She eventually replaces fear and insecurity with strength and faith if we give her a chance. She puts us in touch with those on the inner planes who are keen to assist us in bringing out our full potential. And, after a dip in the dirty pond of negative emotions, she ushers us within to enter the cleansing and refreshing waters of divine Oneness and to dry ourselves in the Sun of eternal Being. This image is reminiscent of the Shopkeeper in Mr. Benn (my favourite cartoon as a child) ushering us back into the fitting room after our latest adventure. We remove the costume and reclaim the higher perspective of God/Goddess. It is also, of course, wise to accept and even appreciate what is (as difficult as this may be), to see all external events as the illusions they are (seemingly impossible though his may be), to replace fear with courage and faith (if at all possible) and realise that, in the words of Kahlil Gibran, “Out of suffering have emerged the strongest souls; the most massive characters are seared with scars.“ But let’s end on a happy note. For, Wisdom counsels us to choose wisely and to be happy with things as they are…

“Always rely on just a happy frame of mind.

If you are unhappy, that simply means that you have learned tricks for being unhappy, and nothing else. Unhappiness depends on the frame of your mind. There are people who are unhappy in all kinds of situations. They have a certain quality in their mind which transforms everything into unhappiness. If you tell them about the beauty of the rose they immediately start counting the thorns. If you say to them, ‘What a beautiful morning, what a sunny day!’ they will look at you as if they are surprised by your statement. They will say, ‘So what! One day between two dark nights! It is only one day between two dark nights, so what is the big deal? Why are you looking so fascinated?’

The same thing can be seen from a positive reference; then suddenly each night is surrounded by two days. And then suddenly it is a miracle that the rose is possible, that such a delicate flower is possible among so many thorns.

Everything is the same. All depends on what kind of frame you are carrying in your head. Millions of people are carrying crosses; naturally, obviously, they are burdened. Their life is a drag. Their frame is such that it immediately becomes focused on everything that is negative. It magnifies the negative; it is a morbid approach towards life, pathological. But they go on thinking, ‘What can we do? The world is such.’

No, the world is not such! The world is absolutely neutral. It has thorns, it has roses, it has nights, it has days. The world is utterly neutral, balanced, it has all. Now it depends on you as to what you choose. If you have decided to choose only the wrong, you will live in a wrong kind of world, because you will live in your own chosen world.

That's how people create hell and heaven on the same earth. It looks very unbelievable that Buddha lived on this earth with the same kind of people, and lived in paradise. And you also live on the same earth with the same kind of people, and you live in hell.

Now, there are two possibilities. The political mind says, ‘Change the world.’ The religious mind says, ‘Change the frame of your mind.’

Religion and politics are diametrically opposite. There is a possibility one day of a meeting of science and religion. Sooner or later, science and religion are bound to meet, because their approach is very similar. Maybe the direction is different - science searches the outer, and religion the inner. But the search, the quality of the search, is the same. The spirit of the search is the same.

But I don't see any possibility that politics and religion can ever meet. Politics always thinks the world is wrong; change the society, the economic structure, this and that, and everything will be okay. And religion says the world has always been the same and will remain the same; you can change only one thing - the context of your mind, the space of your mind.

Always rely on just a happy frame of mind.

Let it become one of the fundamental rules of your life. Even if you come across a negative, find something positive in it. You will always be able to find something. And the day you become skilful at finding the positive in the negative, you will dance with joy.

Try it, try the new vision of life. Think in terms of optimism, don't be a pessimist. The pessimist creates hell around himself and lives in it - you live in the world you create.

Remember, there is not only one world, there are as many worlds as there are minds in the world. I live in my world, you live in your own world. They are not only different, they never overlap. They are utterly different, they exist on different planes.

Atisha makes it a fundamental rule for his disciples to live in a happy frame of mind. Then you start turning each opportunity into a challenge for growth. For example, somebody insults you. Now it is so clear that you have been insulted, how can you practice a happy frame of mind now? Yes, it can be practiced. Insult a buddha and you will know.

Gautam Buddha was insulted once. He was passing by a village, and the villagers were very against him. It was impossible for them to comprehend what he was teaching. Compared to the buddhas, the whole world is always very primitive, very unsophisticated, very stupid. The people gathered and insulted him very much.

Buddha listened very silently and then he said, ‘If you are finished, can I take leave of you, because I have to reach the other village, and they must be waiting for me. If you are not finished, then when I return tomorrow morning you can come again and finish your job.’

One man from the crowd asked, ‘Have you not heard us? We have been insulting you, abusing you. We have been using all kinds of dirty words, anything that we can find.’

Buddha laughed. He said, ‘You have come a little too late - you should have come ten years ago. Then I was in the same frame of mind as you are; then I would have replied, and replied well. But now this is simply an opportunity for me to be compassionate, to be meditative. I am thankful to you that you allowed me this opportunity. This is just a test - a test of whether or not I have anything of the negative lurking anywhere in my unconscious mind.

‘And I am happy to declare to you, friends, that not even a single shadow of the negative has passed through my mind. I have remained utterly blissful. You have not been able to affect me in any way. And I am tremendously happy that you gave me such a great opportunity. Very few people are as kind as you are.’

This is how one should use situations, this is how a sannyasin should use negative opportunities for inner growth, for inner understanding, for meditativeness, for love, for compassion. And once you have learned this happy frame of mind, this positive vision of life, you will be surprised that the whole existence starts functioning in a totally different way. It starts mothering you. It starts helping you in every possible way, it becomes a great friend.

And to know this is to know God. To know this, that existence mothers you, is to know God. There is no other God - just this feeling, this tremendous feeling, this penetrating feeling, that the existence loves you, protects you, helps you and showers many, many blessings on you; that the existence is graceful towards you, that you are not alienated, that you are not a stranger, that this is your home.

To feel that ‘This existence is my home’ is to know God.”

                - Osho (The Book of Wisdom: Discourses on Atisha’s Seven Points of Mind Training, Chapter Nine: ‘Watching The Watcher,’ Commentary from 19 February 1979 am in Buddha Hall, Rebel Publishing House, India, 1993, p.162-164).

Foot notes

1 In addition, Joshua David Stone recommends praying to Sai Baba himself: “Call upon Sai Baba each night to assist in your solar activation [the anchoring of solar crystals into one’s being]. Ask him for his help as well as the blessing of his constant protection and continuing aid in your realisation of God on all levels.” (Golden Keys to Ascension and Healing. Revelations of Sai Baba and the Ascended Masters, Light Technology Publishing, AZ., U.S., 1998, p.180). Actually, I recently picked this book up for the first time in a few years and opened it at this page! I took Stone’s advice only to realise that I did not understand what the solar activation was and I could not find the source on the Vywamus website. After a few days, I decided to add the request for protection and after a couple of weeks of this I received a gift during meditation one day which I’m confident came from Sai Baba. I saw a tiny little maharajah (Indian king) who was exceedingly jolly. So full of love and joy was he that he also emanated great divine power, bestowing abundance on all whom he encountered. Although slight in body, he was an expansive energy. The vision was so vivid that it made me feel so happy and I myself laughed in joy and humour. I was able to tune into this energy and still feel the joy and laughter for a few days. Since then it has remained a reminder that this is the ideal state of being as a human mini-god. I also realise that this vision was the answer to my request for protection. The ‘message in the maharajah’ was that love and joy are themselves the greatest source of power, abundance and protection.

2 Aliens, but some of the good guys who are more advanced than we are and living in ‘fifth density’ - humanoids, not reptilians or Greys. "The Greys have been the 'fly in the ointment,'” explains SaLuSa from Sirius, “as their presence and actions have conveyed a false impression of the intent behind visitations to Earth. The Galactic Federation, along with the White Brotherhood and Elders, are the principle players in the process of preparing you not just for these final years to 2012, but beyond." - Atmos (channelled through Mike Quinsey, 28 August 2009, Jeshua says that nonhumans “outnumber the Creator’s more recent genetic creation called humanoid.” (‘The Christ,’ channelled through Virginia Essene, New Teachings For An Awakening Humanity, Spiritual Education Endeavours Publishing Company, CA., U.S., 1986, updated 1994, p.210). He explains that, “Humans are but one of many life forms in physical existence, just as there are angelic forms of different kinds, also. Creation is varied and experimental...If you can comprehend that beings like yourself are only one physical genetic pattern, even as a cedar is one type of tree and a nightingale is one type of bird, you will face the upcoming transition with greater peace and security.” (ibid. p.200-201).

3 Apparently, it is preferable to make a list of things for which you are not grateful for first and then burn it before proceeding to create a list of things that you are grateful for.

4 St. Germain recommends that we share the energy of love with our food, with the earth from which it comes and with the people who have contributed to its production in any capacity. Taking his advice I resumed this practice. As the ascension process got under way in 2009, I encountered other people who bless their food prior to eating it, or thanked/blessed the Earth.

5 It is interesting to note here that the Pharaoh Akhenaton - who also appears to have been Moses - is said to have been a ‘starseed’ from Sirius B. But, then, Barack Obama (who looks similar) is also said to hail from Sirius!

Appendix V

From The Monstaville Memoirs. Testimony of a Tormented Tenant. Book 1

By Antraeus de Herschia

 Our Star Family

 “You are not alone in the Universe. The Universe is filled with life. There are spiritually and technologically advanced civilisations not just in this dimension but others as well. It is part of an unseen brother/sisterhood that loves you greatly. It is time to expand our views of the universe and educate our children to the existence of a grander reality. They are there waiting to assist on a grander scale yet this must be initiated and earned by our own choice and action.”

- James Gilliland (excerpt from ‘Earth Changes & Solutions,’ 19 March 2006, 

“The thought of meeting beings from somewhere else. You know, it’s better than swimming with dolphins, isn’t it?”

– Gary McKinnon (‘Hacking the Pentagon: Project Camelot Interviews Gary McKinnon,’ with Kerry Cassidy, June 2006).

“We have been told by the indigenous elders before the great shift we would know that our star brothers and sisters are real. Many people think that the star beings are aliens or just something in a film or story. But, very simply, they are as real as you and I. I am not a crazy person. I am very normal, average, just like you. But I have seen them. I have talked with them. They are real. They have existed throughout human history. Every indigenous culture on this planet has a knowing of the star beings. They have a written history of them. They have been here always. But they have hidden themselves because we are afraid of them. This is not a story or make-belief. They are real. And now they’re being seen by thousands of people. Just a couple of weeks ago, there were several over Manhattan in New York. They sat in the sky for thousands of people to look up and see. On 10-10-10, the date, hundred of them were seen all up and down California, right there for everyone to see. On television, the ex-government official of Canada stood up and made an announcement live to all of the people that they had been interacting and knowing the star brothers and sisters for a very long time now. Great Britain has disclosed all of their information about the brothers and sisters from the stars to its people. India is preparing to have a public, live, speaking to its people about their information on working with extraterrestrials. Last month, China had to shut down their airports due to the traffic of disks in the sky. Two weeks ago, New York had to shut down its airport due to large ships in the sky. NASA is letting go of their filmed tapes…filmed from the space shuttle of watching the disks come over our planet to where the thunder and lightning storms were happening. And, this year, NASA released also that we, the United States, sent a very large message out into the universe with the coding of our DNA, the structure of our planet Earth, how our body is structured. They sent this message out and we received an answer back with their DNA, the structure of their planet, how their body is in relation. Not only were we answered but the very large answer came in a crop circle in front of the very tower that sent the message out. This is not a story. It is real. This is not make-belief. It is reality. Crop circles are very, very real.” – Little Grandmother Kiesha Crowther (from a workshop in Zurich, November 2010).

“We will tell you that something else is taking place quite rapidly. It is only a matter of years before other entities enter this Earth from other realms. They have been here all along in other dimensions. You call them ETs. They are simply beings from other games.  We hate to disappoint you but you are not the only game in the universe. Yes, you are the one that is changing everything and all the attention is on planet Earth and the Earth beings for you have taken a game of free choice and have raised your vibration to start remembering. That has never happened before in this context. Because of it, all eyes are on the universe and the Earth beings here. You think of yourself as hiding alone in your room when you are lonely, feeling unsupported and not remembering who you really are, but you have no idea that there are billions of beings watching you over your shoulder. And you are worried about privacy, if you only knew.” - The Group (channelled through Steve Rother, ‘2009 The End of Separation: Uniting the Hearts of Humanity,’ 15 February 2009,

“We could jokingly ask if you have ever seen an unhappy Space Being, because we epitomise all that you are to be. Our technologies are to be used to raise you up, and will restore each one of you to a totally healthy Being.” – SaLuSa (channelled through Mike Quinsey, 14 May 2012,

“It takes a strong person to recognise their weaknesses and an even stronger person to recognise the many lies that have limited their expansion into SELF. Furthermore, and most important to understand what we are saying, you will need to release the fear that other civilisations are as barbaric as your own. Yes, there are indeed some civilisations that function under the ‘Service to Self’ paradigm, just as many Earth societies have since the Fall of Atlantis. However, most of those galactic civilisations have now evolved into the Unity Consciousness, which you are on the cusp of embracing. As you will later discover, it was some of these ‘Service to Self’ civilisations that were greatly responsible for the decline and fall, rather than the rise and ascension, of these two great civilisations.” – The Artcturians (channelled through Dr. Suzanne Caroll, ‘Arcturian Corridor Part III,’ August 2010,

[The Solomons arrive back in the foyer after watching Dawn of the Aliens].

Harry (French Stewart): Attention ticketholders! Listen up! At the end of the movie when the President turns out to be an alien and he barbeques all the congressmen don’t believe it, OK, because aliens hate barbeques.

Man standing in the queue to watch the film [And doesn’t want to know what happens!]: Listen, if you don’t shut up, I’m gonna kill you!

Harry: Alrighty.

Man in queue: [To the Solomons] That goes for all of you.

Dick (John Lithgow): Did you hear that guy? He hasn’t even seen the movie yet and he already wants to kill us!

Sally (Kristen Johnson): We are in big trouble here!

Dick: We’ve got to lay low till this mania passes over.

Tommy (Joseph Gordon-Levitt): Maybe build a bunker.

Harry: No! We can’t hide. I say we come out of the bunker and into the street. I say we hold an Alien Pride parade. We’ll all get together. And we’ll prove that we’re all… [Sally slaps him on the head] humans.

- 3rd Rock from the Sun (Season 2, Episode 3, ‘Hotel Dick,’ written by Bob Kushell, 1996. “Aghast by the way aliens are portrayed in a film the Solomons have seen, Harry feels they should tell the humans the truth about aliens…Dick is feeling bad because he feels he should tell Mary he's an alien, but can't.”

Additional information I found on the Internet regarding ‘blue-skinned ETs.’

“The Smurfs are little blue people who live in magic mushrooms. Think about it.”- Anonymous.

“No, they’re not smurfs! I have since found some further information on the internet which suggests that the blue pigmentation hails from the Sirius star system. Before the fall of consciousness on this world, there were many races of galactic beings that shared life with humans on this planet. One of these advanced beings was the ‘Blue Ones’ or the Sirians. We are the ‘Blue Ones’ portrayed in Eastern Indian Culture as various deities. We resemble humans, but out skin pigment is blue in nature. Many of you have the ‘blue’ Sirian blood in your veins from your descendants. The ‘Blue blood’ as we call it is really DNA codes for mastery and ascension. (William M. Austin, III, 2006, Stewart Swerdlow has written a book on the galactic origins of Humanity called Blue Blood, True Blood (Expansions Pub Co, 2002). An Amazon review sums it up: “Human life, far from evolving here, was the result of colonisation by various opposing aliens, who are even now fighting to control the planet, us, and our DNA.” An overview of the information he shares can be found in his article on the galactic origins of humanity in the Old Universe, entitled ‘Galactic History,’ which can be found on this web page: According to Swerdlow: "The events that occurred in the Old Universe were very influential to the development of our universe. The civilisation that existed in the Old Universe was called the Empire. The Empire controlled almost the entire universe and was extremely evil").

“The Sirian Archangelic League of the Light come from the sixth dimension and the [star system] Sirius...The Sirians Archangelic League of the Light appear in vibrating frequencies of Light and colour, and more commonly appear as blue-coloured Light Beings.” (ibid. extract from

“Before the fall of consciousness on this world [During the previous Golden Age], there were many races of galactic beings that shared life with humans on this planet. One of these advanced beings was the ‘Blue Ones’ or the Sirians. They are the ‘Blue Ones’ portrayed in Eastern Indian Culture as various deities. They resemble humans, but their skin pigment is blue in nature. Many of you have the ‘blue’ Sirian blood in your veins from your descendants. The ‘Blue blood’ as we call it is really DNA codes for mastery and ascension. These mastery sequences will activate these Sirian Christed codes that are a part of your DNA coding and spiritual heritage to reclaim your position among the masters of this realm.” (Archangel Sandalphon, extract from the text accompanying the YouTube video, ‘The Sirians or ‘Blue Ones,’‘ 22 December 2007. According to another YouTube video created by AshtarHellas, the first Atlantean tribe resulted from extraterrestrial entities merging with ancient Lemurians. Their skin changed to an ‘open blue’).

“The Sirian Archangelic League of the Light come from the sixth dimension and the planet Sirius...The Sirians Archangelic League of the Light appear in vibrating frequencies of Light and colour, and more commonly appear as blue coloured Light Beings.” ( Lazaris speaks of the ‘blue light of Sirius’ and refers to it as the ‘brilliant blue-white star.’

The physical bodies of human beings contain many alien genes since so many ET races in our galaxy have visited Earth at one time or another. I also came across a couple of YouTube comments suggesting that “Blue Bloods are responsible for the dominion and ‘ownership’ (false) of the rest of human civilisation. Rothschilds etc. are bluebloods, they aren't gods. They are afraid of the rest of human population and consciousness.” And: “...from what I hear there are many benevolent altruistic entities with such pigmentation. I am just talking of the ‘blue blooded’ people, human beings on earth for the most part are descendants of the old kings/queens who rightly believe they have the right to own the empires they do today.“ These bloodline families appear to be divided now...some are corrupted and perhaps fear has taken over due to mixing.

In 2002, there was a huge crop circle in England measuring 120x80 metres depicting an alien's face and a patterned disc. Its message was: "Beware of the bearers of false messages and broken promises...much pain but still time. Believe that good is still out there. We oppose the deceptions."

I know this is a controversial subject, and one that is not even up for debate amongst most of the population (although as much as 60% are said to believe that extraterrestrial life exists), but, as David Wilcock told George Noory on Coast to Coast (radio show) on 4 January 2009, there are U.S. Government documents saying that “the ETs basically told our Government, ‘Hey, you can cover up the truth. You can say whatever you want. But, when it comes to the end of 2012, we’re going to show up in massive numbers and there isn’t a damn thing you can do about it.’” (Not that they would put it quite like that!). Wilcock added: “I’m trying to do my part to help start a new trend in ufology which is, ‘let’s look into human extraterrestrials because that’s where we’ve got to be looking. The Military Industrial Complex is cranking out a bunch of disinformation in the forms of very scary movies to make us think that aliens are these banana-headed creatures with fangs and terrifying appearance. People would be a lot less freaked out about UFOs and extraterrestrials if they found out that there’s a bunch of people out there who are very nice people, who look like us, who can talk to us and would be very nice to us if we could sit down in a room together. And they’re just waiting for us to sort out our problems on the Earth because they can’t interfere with our free will. And, if people don’t want to know they exist, they can’t just show up and say, ‘Here we are’ (unless they make special visits to people who are naturally attuned to other dimensions and receptive to them, such as Indigos).

Wilcock also adds that, “there is a simple blue-white ancestor that all human beings can be traced back to. The white person did not exist on Earth prior to about 10 to 11,000 years ago because of this exchange with higher species in the time of Atlantis. That’s when we started to have the first interbreeding occurring that lead to blue-eyed, white-skinned people.”

The people of Atlantis are also known as the ‘blue people,’ as Peter Kolosimo explains, because they wore blue garments, “…and the Tuaregs who live in the Atlas mountains actually wear blue clothes and are said to be descendants of the Atlantean peoples!” (Not of this World, Sphere Books Limited, London, U.K., 1969, p.174).

“You look very much like them” [the Anunnaki], says Bashar (channelled through Darryl Anka, They were “somewhat bigger, sometimes having what you would call bluish casts on their skin and, now and then, some other different tons or casts to their skin, but, in that sense, still relatively what you would recognise as your own kind…7 to 8 feet was no uncommon [but they were also broader].” The Anunnaki, adds Bashar, were referred to in our ancient literature as “the giants of those days, men of renown.”

Question: What gave rise to the blue colour of their skin?

Bashar: Simply the idea of some addition in their blood matrix of copper and other elements [an oxidation of copper].

Well, while disclosure appears to be scheduled for 2010, contact itself is likely occur sometime after December 2012 because, as Bashar also explains, that is when Earth’s quarantine ends. It may happen gradually as public awareness grows through media attention, he suggests. Other sources say it could happen sooner and that they are simply waiting for humanity’s vibration to rise to a certain point to ensure that news of our intergalactic family visiting our planet out in the open will be received more positively than fearfully. I find it interesting that blue was selected as the colour of the Na’vi, the indigenous and spiritual people of Pandora in James Cameron’s stupendous film Avatar (2009). Our ancient and galactic heritage is resurfacing and preparations are underway.

"My observation of the Universe convinces me that there are beings of intelligence and power of a far higher quality than anything we can conceive of as human; that they are not necessarily based on the cerebral and nervous structures that we know, and that the one and only chance for mankind to advance as a whole is for individuals to make contact with such beings." - Aleister Crowley.

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‘Extra-terrestrials’ by Gildas, channelled through Ruth White (A Message of Love. A Channelled Guide to Our Future, Piatkus, London, U.K., 1994).

p.44-45. Expand your vision of ‘the world’ to include the universe - take one step further and realise that within the vastness of that universe it is unlikely that earth is the only planet supporting intelligent life form and it is a very small step further to a belief in extra-terrestrials. These beings have different bodies to support their existence and are not bound by your laws of time and space. Many understand more of the nature of the universe and infinity than it is presently possible for you to comprehend with the finite mind. This is not to say that the minds of extra-terrestrials are non-finite, but they are dissimilar. Many have things to teach those who inhabit earth, but humans have things to teach them too. Do not fall into the trap of making yourselves feel inferior or impotent in the face of that which is merely different.

There are extra-terrestrials, with wider vision, who are concerned about the present plight of planet earth and the ‘mistakes’ which humanity has made. The balance in the universe is so finely tuned that any great cataclysm or destruction on planet earth would have a vast ‘knock-on’ effect throughout the galaxy. Thus, beings from other planets have self-interest in preserving earth and in helping humanity to a wider understanding.

For aeons of time (as experienced on earth), extra-terrestrials have been seeking ways of overcoming the barriers and difficulties in making communication with humanity. Now, as is right and appropriate in a time of need, they are beginning to break through. Sightings of what you call ‘unidentified flying objects’ have been made over many years and are becoming more frequent. These sightings represent the first stages in a breakthrough in perception. As your belief systems expand, so will your ability to perceive. Openness to possibility precedes discovery. Where something is deemed impossible it will often remain unperceivable.

p.46. Your attitude to extra-terrestrials should be one of openness to friendship and co-operation. You should certainly be willing to accept the existence of such intelligences. Be willing to have a dialogue, be willing to exchange, be willing to listen. Be willing to be helped. Yet you should also maintain dignity. Expect to build up a communication as between equals. In so doing you will maintain a hold on your integrity and your discrimination.

Notes from interviews with Dr. Steven Greer on The Disclosure Project TV series (created by Dr. Steven Greer and Chantal Boccaccio, No Fly Zone Pictures, 2009).

“Use of experimental drugs, holographic projection capabilities, directed-energy technologies, induced auditory input, experimental aircraft and special effects costuming and stagecraft, among other things, will be used to persuade abductees of the reality of their circumstances.”

This statement appears to be from a leaked U.S. Intelligence letter. It is from the CIA’s Psychological Strategy Director, Walter B. Smith (‘Subject: Flying Saucers’!). It refers to the ‘offensive or defensive utilisation of these phenomena for psychological warfare purposes.’ The letter also indicates that many abductees may be victims of “the Counter Intelligence operations that hoax ET events,” as Dr. Steven Greer refers to them, in order to make the public afraid of all ETs and therefore move us towards supporting interplanetary war at some stage in the future or justify attacking benign spacecraft should they become visible.

Some of the ETs ”are very benevolent and pro-human-evolution, said Lisa Renee of Energetic Synthesis ( during her talk ‘Ascension Cycle Timeline,’ [she calls them the ‘guardian races’] and there are smaller factions that are called the regressives or controllers that are not for human evolution.”

“Like you we are waiting for a breakthrough that will allow us to enter your lives more fully. It is all part of the Divine Plan that has been laid down well into the future. In actuality virtually all of you have had awareness of us from many previous lives, and in some instances full contact. That is why we are not seen as the threat that the dark Ones would like to make you believe. In fact it is they who have rubbed shoulders with the more negative Space Beings, and allowed them secret bases upon the Earth. In the context of freewill that is not something we can interfere with, as it is covered by the Law of Attraction.” – SaLuSa (channelled through Mike Quinsey, 12 January 2011,

“For our part and that of other visitors to Earth, we cannot do much more to confirm our existence. Sightings of our craft are intentionally more frequent, and our numbers are increasing. The cover up is no longer working, and pressure for the truth is forcing the hand of those involved in doing it. We expect that disclosure is likely to be announced at the latest within just a few months. It is simply confirming what is widely known, and will surprise very few people. However, what it will do is allow people to step forward and reveal what they know. It will also beg questions of the authorities in respect of why so much was hidden away, and in whose interest it was done. Such revelations will eventually lead to an outcry about the suppression of free energy devises. This will rank as one of the most criminal acts carried out, as it has prevented the use of discoveries that would have immensely lifted the quality of people’s lives. The list will be endless of things that have been denied you, and the people’s outrage will not be helped by the fact that many advancements have been kept purely for military purposes.

Our advice is to keep calm and control anger knowing that justice will be done. Furthermore that you will not only be given many advanced technologies by us, but many will in fact be more recent inventions that are going to be even more beneficial to you. We want you to become independent of others when it comes to energy for heating or other needs within your homes. The Universe is full of free energy and the Galactic Federation member Star Nations, and other more advanced civilisations use it. We will not overwhelm you with everything at once, but bring you into the Galactic Age over a series of stages that we will carefully explain.

We will be kept quite busy once contact is made, but will have no difficulty in handling it as we have millions of crafts and also the personnel to go with it. What we do register more and more is the gradually lessening of fear where we are concerned. That is heart-warming as we have patiently worked at creating trust and friendship between us. No one can deny that we have shown ourselves to be of a peaceful nature, and we have never been involved in any confrontation with you. As we have often mentioned, we would rather leave a situation that looked as though it could erupt in violence. That we have done on many occasions, particularly when our craft have been fired at without any provocation from us. We know that there have been incidents with the Greys, but they are not members of our Federation or under our control. They were allowed bases on Earth by agreement with previous governments of the U.S., and that was quite a long time ago.”

- SaLuSa  (channelled through Mike Quinsey, 5 November 2010,

“There is a new wave of energy that has proceeded from the Creator himself through all the channels and through all of creation. It is a reordering of the universe, a reordering of the creation. So what you are experiencing here in your corner of the galaxy is simply a result of this. So those beings who have been out of alignment with love and with the will of the Father are being dealt with…The way the galaxy is structured is that there is a core, or central sun, around which the stars and star systems revolve. At the centre of each of the galaxies is the Higher Evolution. As you proceed outward from the centre, there is less of perfection and more of chaos. Planet Earth exists a little bit on the edges of this galaxy, so the housecleaning has taken a little bit longer to reach here. And those beings who were a little bit closer to the centre, who were performing their high jinks, have been asked to surrender or have fled as their planets have also been cleaned up. So there will be some rather spectacular star wars. You will be made aware of them as your ascension is completed.” – Archangel Michael (channelled through Eric Klein, The Crystal Stair. A Guide to the Ascension, Oughton House Publications, CA., U.S., 1990, p.140-141).

Earth, stated Stephen Hawking in 2010, unaware of the return of Light to this world and the quantum leap that is on the horizon in all areas of human life, is becoming an increasingly dangerous place to live. The astrophysicist suggests that we must colonise space in order to survive owing to the population rise, finite resources on Earth and threats from countries obtaining or developing nuclear warheads. Yet, he also urges us to err on the side of caution when considering space travel since, to his logical thinking, alien life forms may not be friendly. Evidently, Mr. Hawking has not been briefed about the existence of the Galactic Federation we are soon to join and the protection afforded to its members when travelling through space whilst observing Universal Law. Our planet has been subject to off-planet interference from the likes of the Anunnaki and Greys who have worked hand-in-hand with our governments to enslave us! We have not learned about this until now because the Elite have maintained their power through secrecy, along with a myriad devices employed for the purpose of deception and distraction. The forces of Light are working to protect us now, remove the dark entities and usher in the Golden Age. It is taking longer than expected because they are obstinately clinging to the power they have held for so long and they have come too far in implementing their plans for a New World Order to stop now it seems. As conditions change as a result of human consciousness responding to this Light the dark hats naturally falter because they rely on an atmosphere of limitation, of ignorance, shame, fear, conflict, insecurity and low expectations, which affords them greater control.

“…Galactic wars were taking place and colonisation by the dark Ones extended to Earth. Different civilisations have since come and gone, but left their mark upon Humanity. Earth became a planet that was literally a prison, and it is only the coming of the Light that has lifted you up and released you. Such progress has not been allowed to be wasted or halted at such an important point in your evolution. So here you are now on the verge of experiencing a great change that will cleanse the Earth of the dark energies, in readiness for Ascension.” - SaLuSa (channelled through Mike Quinsey, 23 August 2010,

“And so it appears to me that there is some kind of cosmic war going on between higher intelligences – good ones and evil ones – out there [points upwards] that we’re not aware of. And the good ones are doing something with the human race while the evil ones are doing something with us. And, so, we’re merely pawns in a bigger and more serious…being played out to protect or secure the protection of the human race…My vision is that, in the physical world, we are being played by higher powers who have a design on us. Maybe the good ones have the design that we are supposed to evolve and to grow into wisdom and knowledge and to blossom out into godly creatures with wisdom and knowledge and have a better civilisation, a better life. While, on the other hand, there very well might be entities from out there who are the enemies of those good ones and they have in mind controlling this system here. None of this nonsense about evolution and for people to grow in peace and harmony, no, no. They’ve come here to own us, to control us. And, therefore, I see it as a legitimately military darkness going on. There are evil forces here and the good ones are watching us and they are at war…This is what the Knights Templars were implying with their symbols of ‘As above, so below,’ meaning, if you think it’s bad here between military and armies and bloodshed, you should see what’s going on in the spirit world. There are very powerful spirits at work on both sides, good and evil.” – Jordan Maxwell (‘David Icke and Jordan Maxwell in Conversation,’ Project Avalon, with Bill Ryan, May 2010,

“But the tussle’s a done deal because the energetic environment is no longer conducive to this so something different must change. And that’s why what we call ‘the future’ – which is not really the future, it’s just changing energetic environment – is one that is going to be very different to this one. And, yes, there is a tussle going on, yes, there is a battle going on. But the outcome’s a done deal. In my view, anyway…Their energetic pre-eminence through this period is now having the rug pulled from under them because we’re going into a new energetic epoch and these are very low-vibrational entities. You know, they’re very clever but they have no wisdom; otherwise they wouldn’t do what they do. But they’re very, very clever and cleverness without wisdom is the most destructive force you can come across, which is why they’re very, very destructive. So they have been clever – they use technology and stuff. You can get very advanced technology in these intellectual states. But the intellectual state is a very low level of awareness. And, as we’re moving into this new energetic epoch, their ability to dominate as they have – that rug is being pulled from under them. But, like I say, I this changeover, that tussle you’re talking about between those reptilian entities and those which are seeking to remove their control of humanity all this time, they are together in what we call a battle. But, what I’m saying is, the outcome’s a done deal…that battle there [in space] is manifesting as a battle here [on Earth]. But the energetic change will eventually wash away that which are manifestations of the old energetic blueprint.” - David Icke (‘David Icke and Jordan Maxwell in Conversation,’ Project Avalon, with Bill Ryan, May 2010,

There is absolutely no threat from outer space explains Dr. Greer:

“Imagine this: you have the ability to travel from interstellar distances with technologies faster than the speed of light. If they are hostile, you think we’d still be breathing the free air of Earth here? No. The bottom line is that all this ‘alien invasion’ stuff is part of a psychological conditioning propaganda experiment. Because, if you create enough fear and enough prejudice against a group – in this case, aliens – in the future, people will accept the cost of war.”

“They have put weapons in space targeting these extraterrestrial vehicles. This we can prove.”

“The weaponisation of space is a huge problem because these weapons, the really advanced ones, are electromagnetic weapons that target these extraterrestrial vehicles, hit them…and the question is, why are we doing this? Because there’s a group of folks who’d like to precipitate an interplanetary crisis so they can amass more power in the world and have the whole world fund this sort of militaristic approach. And, in fact, General McArthur – it’s in the congressional records – said in his last address to the nation, when he was in the well of Congress…World War III would be interplanetary.” – Dr. Steven Greer.

“Perhaps we need some outside universal threat. I occasionally think how quickly our differences worldwide would vanish if we were facing an alien threat from outside this world.” – Ronald Reagan (General Assembly of the United Nations, 21 September 1987. Apparently, the U.S. President had also told General Secretary Gorbachev in a private discussion two years earlier to think, "how easy his task and mine might be in these meetings that we held if suddenly there was a threat to this world from some other species from another planet outside in the universe. We'd forget all the little local differences that we have between our countries...").

Some researchers in the truth movement claim to have evidence that the Elite has developed ‘space-based laser-generating satellites capable of projecting simultaneous images to the four corners of the planet in every language and dialect according to the region,’ as Serge Monast explains. (NASA's Project Blue Beam, 1994, “These will be projected from satellites onto the sodium layer about 60 miles above the earth [like a cinematic screen]. We see tests every once in a while, but they are called UFOs and ‘flying saucers’ sightings. The result of these deliberately staged events will be to show the world the new 'christ,' the new messiah, Matraia (Maitreya), for the immediate implementation of the new world religion. Enough truth will be foisted upon an unsuspecting world to hook them into the lie. ‘Even the most learned will be deceived’…It deals with the religious aspect of the new world order and is deception and seduction on a massive scale. Monast, however, disputes the authenticity of genuine UFO sightings and channelled messages which does not do wonders for his credibility in my view. So, I do not know what truth there is in this aspect of conspiracy research, but David Icke describes it as another example of “problem-reaction-solution to create a mass acceptance of centralising power in the world to meet the threat to the planet.” He explains (on The Alex Jones Show, 14 October 2010): “When you want to change the world on a global level, you want global problems that you can give global solutions to. So you want a global economic crash – World Central Bank, etc. etc. Central control of finance. You have global warming, or climate change that they’re trying to sell as human cause. That’s a threat to the planet. It’s a world problem if you accept the nonsense that it’s a problem. And therefore you can give a global solution to it…And, of course, the old alien invasion – the extraterrestrial invasion – is a global problem if people buy it, for which they can offer a global solution. So this is what’s happening. We have a global ‘war on terror’ and all the rest of it. They’re just creating more and more global problems that they can give us solutions for. And we need not to buy it and to get informed. And, when we get informed, to communicate what we know. The whole thing expands and the game rules change and humanity takes its…collective life back and the planet back.” (Thanks to MrGlasgowtruther for uploading this interview on YouTube, accompanied by the brief description, “A fake alien agenda to forward the idea of global governance”).

“According to von Braun, space-based weapons, later known as the ‘Star Wars’ program, were to be promoted as a ‘shield’ against the Russians. Then, as a defence against 'rogue' nations. Then, as protection against asteroids and meteors. Finally they would be presented as a safeguard against an extraterrestrial threat…

If space-based weapons technologies are not being developed to protect the U.S. and its allies, why are they being developed? Could resistors, whether nation-states or isolated groups opposed to the coming New World Order, be singled out and eliminated? Another possibility is that such space-based weapons will be part of the ‘smoke and mirrors’ light show designed for use in ‘Project Blue Beam’ with its false, projected presentation of an alien invasion.

According to Dr. Steven Greer, the head of the ‘Disclosure Project,’ ‘...the prospect that a shadowy, para-governmental and transnational entity exists that has kept UFOs secret - and is planning a deception that will dwarf the events of 9/11...’ This is a scenario that more people within the depths of our government have begun to reveal.

Dr. Greer writes: ‘Since 1992 I have seen this script unveiled to me by at least a dozen well-placed insiders. Of course, initially I laughed, thinking this just too absurd and far-fetched...and yet others told me explicitly that things that looked like UFOs, but that are built and under the control of deeply secretive ´black´ projects, were being used to simulate - hoax - ET-appearing events, including some abductions and cattle mutilations, to sow the early seeds of cultural fear regarding life in outer space. And that at some point after global terrorism, events would unfold that would utilise the now-revealed Alien Reproduction Vehicles (ARVs, or reversed-engineered UFOs made by humans by studying actual ET craft) to hoax an attack on Earth.’

The goal of this hoaxed space alien invasion was simple: Create a common enemy and drive all nations to submit to a One World Government. And in Dr. Greer's words: ‘ justify eventually spending trillions on space weapons...thus uniting the world in fear, in militarism and war.’

Greer claims that Hollywood movies have been deliberately implanting a fear of ET's: ‘...this mental conditioning to fear ET has been subtly reinforced for decades, in preparation for future deceptions...The Plan is to eventually create a new, sustainable, off-planet enemy..."

- L.C. Vincent (‘Von Braun: Illuminati Plan for E.T. Deception,’ 26 May 2010, Dr. Wernher von Braun was the head of the Nazi rocket program, says Vincent, and confided to Dr. Carol Rosin NASA's hidden agenda in the mid-1970s. He “was brought to America after the war because our government considered his knowledge and expertise too vital to fall into enemy hands. Dr. von Braun brought a wealth of information gleaned from other top Nazi scientists like his boss, SS General Hans Kammler. Von Braun was privy to work on anti-gravity propulsion vehicles. With access to NASA's secret programs, von Braun apparently began to see the ‘big picture’ regarding the true goals of America's space program and how the military-industrial complex was manipulating it according to a secret, hidden agenda.” As L.C. Vincent also notes on her blog, Dr. Rosin, since revealing this information on 24 October 2007 before the national press in Washington, has said that she is willing to make her exact statement again under oath to Congress. Vincent is currently co-authoring a book titled The 440 Enigma).

“[Dr. Wernher] von Braun was writing the word ‘humour’ on this piece of paper in little circles. And he said, ‘You have to keep your sense of humour. If you don’t, this is going to kill you. Because this is so serious – what’s going on, the game in the military industrial lab, university, NASA and other space industries around the world, intelligence community, governments. Complex. It’s all inexorably linked. You can’t even blame any one of them for what’s going on because it’s all part of it. It’s called ‘jobs and profits.’” – Carol Rosin (at the International UFO Congress 2011).

“Your world hovers on the edge of incredible change. We are pledged to intervene. Our many liaison teams are focused on getting the preliminary changes done swiftly. We are determined to do this. One minor obstacle is the continuing belief of many on your world in an invasion by an off-planet organisation. This concept is being played up constantly by your entertainment industries, and we have therefore taken measures to ensure that what we do is not misinterpreted by your society. We came here, knowing full well that your limited-conscious society has been thoroughly manipulated, first by the Anunnaki and then by their earth minions. The use of carefully placed misinformation stories is a prime trick of the corporate American government. We intend to proceed in a way that makes us, first, welcome, and then perceived by you to be family.

The purpose behind what is now happening is to affect a major shift in your consciousness and in your reality. Much needs to be explained. Your recorded history is chock full of lies, unexplained events, and apparent 'mysteries.' We need to clarify what really happened to you and show you a true chronicle of your origins. This will cast light on why we are here and why you are being returned to full consciousness. Then you will be able to understand that this mission goes way beyond merely restoring you to de jure government, and you will see that your new abundance is a mere preamble to the creation of your new galactic society. A more expansive, friendlier approach to the universe is then possible, and you can begin to better comprehend our mission here and why we are working toward a full-fledged first contact with you.”

– Excerpt from an ‘Update by Sheldan Nidle for the Spiritual Hierarchy and the Galactic Federation’ (11 January 2010,

“The decloaking of a spacecraft in the skies above New York City a few weeks ago is but one of numerous similar events that have been occurring in different areas at various times around your world. While a mothership or a vast fleet of ships could have appeared during a more recent event in Washington, DC, doing so would not have been prudent. Rather than offering proof that civilisations are nearby to assist you, such a display would have played into the hands of the dark ones, whose entertainment venues have indoctrinated the public to react with fear to any alien presence. Although a growing number of the populace believe that other intelligent beings are ‘out there,’ comparatively few know that only those who are spiritually evolved are close by because the light is far too intense now for any darkly-inclined civilisation to approach your part of the galaxy.

However, sightings will keep increasing in frequency and in more locations until our universal family is officially recognised. Because that recognition will bring to an end all Illuminati activities - yes, including chemtrails, genetically modified foods, proposed actions that are against your well being, and even nuisance insect infestations - they will continue to do everything possible to prevent such an announcement. So it is reasonable to anticipate more silly explanations about sightings; stepped-up ‘entertainment’ about sinister civilisations; and possibly as last resort, an attempt to fabricate an invading force by one means or another. Be assured that if such an attempt is undertaken, it would be quashed before it could achieve its goal of creating mass fear and a reason to impose military control.“ - Matthew (channelled through Suzanne Ward, 6 November 2010,

“Not surprisingly, Bill Hicks is now fascinated by UFOs, and the possibilities they offer to point out to people that they need not think the way the ‘authorities’ say they should…

‘Well, with a five-minute UFO experience I got a taste of holiness I never got in 20 years of religion. All the things I talk about are foils to point out perceptions, so I really don’t have anything I’m against so much as I’m for, and that’s what I think my material keeps pointing at – deflating balloons, deflating fantasies and trying to find some element of truth. Ah, that’s pretty pompous, but I have to have somethin’, some kind of belief. ‘Til that fuckin’ ship comes back anyway.’” – Bill Hicks (’Hicksville UFO,’ New Musical Express, 18 January 1992. Love All The People. Letters, Lyrics, Routines, Constable & Robinson Ltd, London, U.K., p.95-98).

“If you have spoken of the Space Brothers to others and found resistance or fear, this is your responsibility. Don’t say we didn’t warn you! People will believe in Jesus Christ. They will believe in various Ascended Masters. They will even believe in angels. They will have a very difficult time believing and understanding the Ashtar Command. This has not been part of the Earth programme, except for a few light beings and prophets. It will become more and more part of life on the third dimension as time goes on. When the Earth is ready to feel the full manifestation of the Ashtar Command, it will manifest, so that there can be no doubt about their power and their benevolence. It is up to you in the meantime to experience the benevolence and share this with others who are open. Get the word out discreetly.” – Archangel Michael (channelled through Eric Klein, The Crystal Stair. A Guide to the Ascension, Oughton House Publications, CA., U.S., 1990, p.102).

“There is something that I would like to share with all of you, and it is that over the Christmas Holiday there were more ships around your planet than ever before. This is Hatonn speaking and I would like to explain a few things to you that may have great influence on how you conduct yourself in the coming times. I am telling you that in those ships that visited your atmosphere, and even your planet in various ways, have carried some of the most intelligent and kind, loving and wise beings that have been able to come and see you and to bring you the gifts of love that they brought over this holiday season. They brought to you the energies of the Mushaba Force. They brought to you the wisdom and love of the Christed energy. They brought to you the intellect for you to be able to recognise your own intellect and to bring it forth in a way that you have not been able to before, because of the duality that you have been living in.” - Hatonn (channelled through Nancy Tate, beginning of Hatonn’s Wake up Call, 27 December 2010,

“As soon as we land, you will be made aware of all the gifts we will share with you. You will have new modes of transportation, new technologies for healing, replicators to build or bring to you anything you need, including all of the basics. These will be available as soon as immediately. No one will be left out. Everyone will have what they need. You will very quickly remember your role with us. Many of you already work with us nightly. You will take up your passion and join us in the effort to restore Earth and balance all that is needed for humanity. We will make our computers, holodecks, and training facilities open for your use. You may drop the illusion that you were meant to do menial labour until you are too old and worn out to care. You may drop the illusion that you have no control over your life. The only requirement will be living life from a heart-centred focus, with love. Love for all on Earth, including Self-Love. It begins here. We welcome you to call on us for assistance at any time along the way. Call me, Mother Sekhmet. I will show you in subtle ways the steps to take, as we move forward in changing this Planet back to Love.” – Mother Sekhmet (‘Galactic Free Press. Breaking News. Prepare For The Mass Decloakings,’ by FatherMotherGod, 7 February 2011,

Hatonn and Matthew Ward on why our space family are unable to land for now (channelled through Suzanne Ward, 23 April 2011,


Some of you are discouraged or disappointed because we haven't landed to clean up the nuclear facility for once and for all. Yes, we could do that if we were on the ground, and the dark ones among you know this. They also know that once we land in numbers, all dark activity will come to an abrupt end. That's why mercenaries and other troops under their control around the planet are on alert for ‘alien attack’ and ready to take heavy retaliatory measures. We can't risk your safety or our crews' by making public landings until that risk is over. We don't know when that will be because it's that fear thing again - as long as fear keeps refuelling the darkness, that risk will remain.


There is yet another source of fear. It will not deter Earth's ascension pace, either, but it can have serious ramifications for the affected individuals. Unlike the sources mentioned above that have a basis in current circumstances, this source of fear is latent, rooted in people who believe ‘entertainment's’ representation of aliens as conquest-bound and the people who believe reports that a civilisation claiming to be benevolent will land and enslave Earth's population. Those people will see the arrival of strange-appearing beings as the unthinkable actually happening.

While we greatly desire that our information reach all who hold such beliefs, we may have to be ‘satisfied’ with enlightening the people who welcome craft sightings but have no idea what their passengers and crews are like and don't know that for long ages Earth has been receiving their assistance. We hope as well to reach the unaware individuals Hatonn mentioned and those who feel We don't need any help, we can handle everything ourselves.

In addition to emphasising once again the vital importance of staying out of fear, it also is for sound reason that we have focused on extraterrestrial assistance past, current and future. With Earth entering the last stage of exiting third density, it is time that you stop thinking of yourselves only as individuals with distinctive personalities, characteristics, talents, hopes, dreams and accomplishments. That you are indeed, but you are so much more, and you need to start thinking of yourselves as the powerful, multidimensional beings you are! You are members of the universal family of interconnected souls, eternally bonded as inseparable parts of God, and your brothers and sisters want you to feel a personal kinship with them so your imminent meetings will be joyous family reunions!

“The ramifications of many aspects of our coming are anticipated, none more than our appreciation of how it will ‘upset’ those with a strong religious belief. It is however interesting that the Vatican recently acknowledged our presence, and not in any way as a threat to them or their followers. All things will slot into place given time, and remember there is only the One Truth that must replace anything less. Again it will not be imposed upon people, and we accept that they must be allowed to gravitate towards it in their own time. Using force in any circumstances is non-productive and only alienates those concerned…

It is not even necessary to be fully enlightened about Ascension to ascend, but simply to be of good intent and live the love that is inside your heart for all life forms. See the love in another and know that when you share yours it is bringing it out from them. Other souls can learn from your example, as they will understand that it is the Light and Love that stands above all else. Ask yourself why you are here at this special time, because you all have something to offer that is important to the whole. That is how we of the Galactic Federation view our contact with you, as without exception those who meet us are immediately aware of our energy that is peaceful and uplifting. It makes you feel good to be in our company, and you can be exactly the same. Give of your love regardless, and perhaps you will calm those who are wild and reckless who act as undisciplined children…

Keep within the Light and you can go about your tasks without fear or interruption. Bless those who do not share your understanding and cannot release their attachment to the lower vibrations. They are cared for as much as any soul so do not be too concerned, as all will eventually turn out for their best advantage.”

- SaLuSa (channelled through Mike Quinsey, 6 July 2011,

“As you are beginning to understand, life is going to be totally different to what you are used to now. It will be a joy to be alive and experience what can only be described as a heavenly existence. It will be the feel of everything around you that glows with Light, and gives out an energy that can only be described as exhilarating and uplifting. What you will notice is the purity and cleanliness of everything, and the colours are so bright yet restful to the senses. Your immediate concern is to press on with your own preparations, but how wonderful that with your upliftment there is so much to gain. It should give you the necessary incentive to keep your goal firmly in sight. These opportunities are few and far between, and in the unique circumstances given you it has been made far easier to achieve success…

When we show up on Earth people will see in us their true potential, as we are you in the future. We are, as you would say, the living proof of what is possible through Ascension. We know that some souls feel that to ascend they have to give up things that give them pleasure on Earth. It is true except that you have so much more to gain, and life becomes one great adventure that is so fulfilling and satisfying. You have to want to ascend for the right reasons, and in so doing have to apply yourself to the necessary disciplines that will get you there. It means dropping any attachments you have to anything that is strictly of the lower vibrations. Living out as best as possible the vision you have of what it is like to be a soul of Light and Love. It is also necessary to curb the emotions and be in control of them, as humans have a tendency to let them run wild. If you can start taking steps to bring such changes into your life, then help will come your way through your Guides. However, you must be prepared to respond to it, and it is necessary to find sufficient time in your life to listen to your inner promptings. These are not to be mistaken for your ego, which may well deter you from going ahead. Ego desires to keep the status quo with the way of life you are used to…

Except in duality, life is meant to be one continuous great adventure, and you only have to look at our obvious enjoyment and fulfilment. God is our Father/Mother and provides all that we can possibly need, and we want for nothing at all. We have long reached that stage where we act responsibly, and never forget to express our gratitude for all that is provided. We also acknowledge the Oneness that we all live in, and see within all life forms the godliness that exists everywhere. Try to see beyond the outer cover as it can sometimes be misleading, as you will find when you eventually meet some of the non-human Space Beings from other Universes.”

“As you approach the final period of chaos, know that it can only go so far before our influence and authority will take over. We are far more active than any previous time, as we direct our allies into their final positions from which they will launch their take-over from the dark Ones. You may not see us in the early encounters, but be assured we will be there with them.

Our powerful position is instrumental in gaining the co-operation of your leaders, particularly as we bring the answers that can overcome the worldwide problems that are so immense they do not have any answers for them. We have the solutions and backing of the Creator and that represents a powerful means of persuasion. Because we come in peace does not mean that we can be ignored, as in the final reckoning we can be quite firm without resorting to any form of intimidation. We shall soon be announced as the Galactic Federation and our role in your Universe will be fully explained.”

- SaLuSa (channelled through Mike Quinsey, 7 September 2011,

Illustration of the opera singer, Diva, in The Fifth Element (directed by Luc Besson, 1997). She sings for the Universe on the spaceship Fhloston once every ten years, an event which is considered the ultimate extravaganza

“On another international front, some of your leaders and members of high universal councils still are discussing how to announce to your world the presence of other civilisations. We know the delay is frustrating to you, and it is as well to our family members on and off-planet who have been waiting for years to work alongside you openly. But they know that every aspect must be carefully planned so they will be warmly greeted rather than feared. Although the Illuminati's capability to threaten your safety and that of your space brotherhood has been greatly weakened, public reaction to strangers showing up with astounding technologies remains a sensitive consideration. It is essential that they not be perceived as taking matters into their own hands so the masses will welcome their assistance rather than panic about invaders from outer space, the way aliens are portrayed ad nauseam in films and games. Please remember, you have knowledge and discernment that most others in your world do not.” – Matthew (channelled through Suzanne Ward, 2 April 2012,

“Our tasks remain much the same as always, with the focus upon the dark Ones and their activities. We know them well and are aware of their plans to make a last gasp attempt to create a false alien attack. We are allowed to prevent it, and shall not hesitate to do so. As we see it, other events will precede such a time that will in any event make it impossible. We abide by the High Councils who decide policy matters, and are well aware of the Divine Decree concerning the end-times. It is time for the Light to become the controlling influence in deciding how the future works out.” - SaLuSa (channelled through Mike Quinsey, 30 September 2011,

“Just think for a moment how as visitors to your Earth we are maligned and deliberately shown as monsters bent on enslaving you, and stealing your lands. We are described as aliens when in fact we are your true family, and have never lifted as much as a finger against you in anger. Any such activities against you are not by members of the Galactic Federation of Light, but by other Extraterrestrials or by your own forces. It is of course all done to make you fearful of us, and is not helped by some religious groups who claim we are devils. We would ask that you wait until we can walk amongst you and then you will feel our auric emanations, and know that we come in Love and Light.” – SaLuSa (channelled through Mike Quinsey, 27 August 2012,

She had blue skin

And so did he.

He kept it hid

And so did she.

They searched for blue

Their whole life through.

Then passed right by –

And never knew.

- Shel Silverstein.

Blossom Goodchild: So…any hobbies?

Galactic Federation: Emanating Light.

(26 March 2013,

[Retrospective note: I attended a talk by Nigel Mortimer in February 2014 and was astounded when he produced a sketch of a blue ET he once encountered because it looked very similar to 'M' - definitely the same 'species,' in fact, because it also bored the bright white light in the centre of an elongated cranium].

Orson (Ralph James): Mork! I’m relieved to see you in one piece.

Mork (Robin Williams): Well, Sir, what do you expect to see me in, a bikini Your Harpers Bazarness?

Orson: Congratulations on once again surviving the attack of the Necrotons.

Mork: Well, Sir, this has been a week to end all weeks. I’m not kidding you.

Orson: Now that it’s over, have you any special observations to report?

Mork: You must remember this: that a kiss is still a kiss and a sigh is just a sigh. And, on Earth, friendship is as contagious as the flu.

Orson: Are you sure?

Mork: I must be Sir. I mean, I caught it from Mindy, then I gave it to Nirvana, Captain of the Necrotons.

Orson: You gave it away?

Mork: Well, I got it back. I mean, that’s the funny thing about friendship, you know? It’s like a boomerang. It comes right back at ya. BAM!

Orson: But you wasted it on a Necroton, our enemy.

Mork: Well, now we have one less enemy.

Orson: There’s plenty of Necrotons where she came from Mork.

Mork: Ah, but Sir, how about this for a plan? I’ll tell you what. If everybody makes two friends and those two friends make two more friends and two more friend and two more friends and [strange sound suggesting a crescendo] up to infinity, pretty soon we’ll all be flying in friendly skies and united. Till next week, Sir [holds his ears], Na-Nu Na-Nu [bows].

- Mork and Mindy (Series 2, Episode 11, ‘Mork and the Necrotons,’ 1979).

Pa'u Zotoh Zhaan (from the TV sci-fi series Farscape) by Lisa99

The Andromedans & Mentoring Humanity

[Included in The Monstaville Memoirs. Testimony of a Tormented Tenant. Book 1 as Appendix VI]

 A talk by Alex Collier


Earth Transformation: Super-Healing, New Science, Consciousness & Contact Conference, 9 January 2010

[Note: this excerpt is the end of Alex’s talk. Transcription from Exopolitics Journal 3:3 (June 2010),].

In the late 50s, the United States government signed a treaty with an extraterrestrial race who they believed to be benevolent, and agreements were reached and there were terms to that treaty. Shortly after that treaty was signed and agreed upon, the extraterrestrials broke the treaty, because technologically they are far more advanced than we believed they were. So the government was tricked into it, however, we called that up upon ourselves. We brought that experience to us because of our treatment and our behaviour with treaties. Just ask the Native Americans, we signed 263 treaties with the Native Americans, and we broke 263 and it goes on and on and on.  So if you need proof of karma there’s one for you, we drew that to us, because we haven't walked our talk.  We talk about it, we sing about it at sporting events, you know we beat our chests but we haven't walked it at all, it's in our face ladies and gentleman, it’s in our face.

And once again America is at the forefront of this. This economic crisis in the end will be a godsend because what will happen is the ridiculous laws and restrictions and regulations we have put on ourselves will all fall away because there will be nobody to support them. That’s number one. Number two, what makes us great is that we think out of the box, we create something out of nothing, we create solutions to impossible problems. That's what's made us great. We need to re-embrace that spirit, that wild spirit that freed the world, that changed the world. It doesn't mean that we cannot share that spirit with other nations, because other nations are getting there. Hell, Russia is as free as we were 25 years ago. Now, they're changed so dramatically, they realised what they were doing no longer works - there's a lesson there. Putin was very specific don’t go to communism it doesn't work. This is not about politics this is about control. This is about control, it's about you, it’s about me, it’s about us, it’s about our kids, it is time to create something.

All you need to do, all I've been asked to tell you is to consciously intentionally start thinking about what the world looks like, what a new world looks like, the way you want it. Do you want centralised government? Do you want a monetary system? Do you want to use fossil fuels? Do you want free energy? What is it that you want? We cannot allow a handful of people to decide the direction of all of humanity. They are only going to be self-serving, this is our responsibility, because this is our reality. We’re creating this together, and if we embrace that, if we take responsibility for creating all of that reality, we can change this so fast it will blow your minds! Because we're all extremely powerful, look at what we've done, look at what we’ve done already, it’s stunning!

An experience that I had…when I go on board [an Andromedan ship], they’re fifth density beings, immediately that I come onboard, a belt is put on me and essentially what the belt does is that it holds all of my atoms together, so that I don’t I'll fly apart because I’m a third density being. My vibration is very slow compared to them, this belt regulates it, regulates the speed of my atoms so that I can actually coexist with them. Now what’s fascinating about that, what's fascinating about fifth density as a third density being is that my body is moving before my thoughts are. In other words, if they start walking, I'm walking before I start to think about walking, because I’m now I’m connected directly to my higher self, to my soul. I’m not waiting for my ego to click in and say ‘okay start walking.’

The other thing that was very, very difficult, I’m going to give Joan Ocean credit for this because she brought it up yesterday in a conversation we had, is you feel like you’re losing yourself, you feel like you’re just dissipating, becoming invisible and you’re actually not. What’s happening is that on a higher vibration your ego doesn’t exist, it falls away, it simply cannot exist in that harmonic, it has no relevance whatsoever. And then what happens is, and it that takes some time to adapt, is you're confronted with who you really [are]. You're introduced to yourself, and at first you don't recognise it because we’re so conditioned to this. You know, we’re so conditioned to all of this, that this is what feels real.

Logically we know we have a soul, when we meditate we get into that space but we're still totally conscious of the fact we are in a physical form. There, in fifth density, my experience has been, you don’t even think about the physical form at all, you're moving, your physical form is trying to catch up to you. It's absolutely amazing. What’s also amazing is that if you close your eyes and see 360° around you. You know exactly what's going on everywhere.

I could feel every one that was around me. I could feel their emotions. I could feel them look at me. I could feel them think about my appearance, what I represented, how I was standing, all of those things. I didn't always hear the telepathic communication because a lot of it wasn't directed specifically at me. When it is, you hear it and it’s like we’re speaking now, and you'd know that it's coming from someone, because they’re looking directly at you. Except their mouth isn’t  moving but you're having the dialogue, and for those of you who were medium’s or channels you know exactly what that's like.

We will be moving into all those pieces alright, and we need the mentorship so that we don't freak out and flip out so that we can truly understand how to embrace our essential selves, what it's all about, the whole purpose of going through all of this stuff for humanity, all the thousands of years of tests, trials, tribulations, previous pole shifts, [etc]. All of that was to take ourselves through this exercise to move from third through fourth and eventually into fifth density. That's what this has all been about. It’s all been a school and we all volunteered. None of you were taken from the ship, thrown out the window, and said ‘make it/figure it out,’ it’s not how it happens, and I wish it were cause then we’d have some other excuses, but we don’t, that’s what this is about.

More and more people, probably many of you in this room are going to begin to have contact. It’s going to happen all over the world, it’s going to be picked up exponentially. Many of the races who have been here studying us, and I would suggest that you research the work of Colonel Wendell Stevens because he is the foremost authority on contactees around the world, his books are available. There have been many, many races here studying us, they know us better than we know ourselves, and many of them are stepping forward and are going to be stepping forward to say okay we are going to participate in this process to help move us as along because they understand us. They’ve been here around us, amongst us, they’ve observed us, they know the challenges we have. Many of those specific races have been in exactly the same place as we are now, and they knew how to get through the hurdles. They knew how to get through the traps, or to avoid the traps that apparently we may be stumbling into here.

Again, I know many of you in this room, if not all of you have devoted an amazing amount of time into developing yourselves, into finding your balance, to finding your strength, to finding out who you are or what you are, and to find out exactly where you [are] so that you know where you stand.  Bravo, you deserve every accolade there is! The next step for you, now that you’ve been there is to help create the world. What is it that we want the world to look like? It’s us, we have to do this, no one else is going to do this for us.

[It] has to be grassroots level. All it takes is conversation, discussion; you know, if you put out the intention, ‘I need to know about this information’ and you put it out and you keep putting out, even if it's just for 10 seconds a day, you will draw that information and knowledge to you. The right people will come to you. The opportunities will come to you. You have to trust that. I'm learning to trust that, because I’m a guy I still over analyse everything. But my wife is kicking my ass in that direction and making sure I get that (I love you for it).

This is all about us. We have drawn this entire experience to ourselves so we need to own it, and the faster we own it, the more empowered we will become about the process, the more it will make sense to us, the more intelligent we can discuss it and as with this process begins people around you - well, you’ll find yourself in a position of leadership and you'll find yourself being the teachers.

There was a great line in Sterling Allan's presentation, quote where he said ‘If you're one step ahead of the world you’re genius, if you’re two steps ahead your crackpot.’ It was a great line, so I borrowed it, we’ve all been crackpots! Soon we’re going to be geniuses but that's when the real work begins. The idea is to try to [get] everybody else up to speed. Do what you can. Just do what you can. Don’t over extend yourself to the point where you can't keep yourself centred and balanced, you have to keep yourself centred. It's not necessary for you to save the world, or to want to save the world. If you become the example it will reflect and other people will get it around you. The tide is definitely changing, the frequency is changing, again I want to just, I want to put this out one more time. If you have you had two years left to live on earth, what would you do with your life? What would you do? Just think about that. What would you do differently? If you wouldn’t do anything Bravo, you’re there, but if you would do something differently what would you do? What would make you happy? My wife Audra, has a great saying and its ‘we’re all sitting on the G waiting for the O.’

Ladies and gentlemen you are my brothers and my sisters, I love you. I am honoured by you, I want you to know that I have done the very best I could to represent us. I’ve had my stuff to deal with as well, I have my own challenges to deal with as well, but ultimately in the end I have absolute faith in us. The world is not going to end but it is going to change. It has to, and it's going to change for the better, but we need to be the driving force of that change. Humanity has to be the driving force of that change, not government. Do not ever, ever surrender your freedoms and liberties to government, it’s too self-serving and it doesn't create anything, but laws that restrict our freedoms. You know you can't possibly need any more examples of that.

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    "I arise on wings of aspiration to Thee, O Isis. Come, descend from above, arise from below, expand from within—and fill me, Goddess. From the rising bud of the lotus, to the mighty branch of the sycamore, to the Moon and Sun which are Thine eyes, to the Stars which entwine Thy hair, all the Universe is Thine, Isis—as am I. O Isis, Goddess, Mother, Sister, Queen—the Ways are open unto Thee—I am open unto Thee"

    ~ Ancient Hermetic Prayer

    St Germain

    "Turn your eyes away from fear. Discontinue the conversations of fear if you choose to embrace the fullness of your heart"

    through Ashamarae, 2009

    "If you focus on the sweeter things of life, that's exactly what you're going to get out of life" - St Germain

    through Ashamarae, 2009, AFW

    “A light heart is a magnet for all that you love”

    through Ashamarae, July 2009

    "Alchemy is the science of the mystic and it is the forte of the self-realised man who, having sought, has found himself to be one with God and is willing to play his part." - Beloved Saint Germain




    "The Eternal Feminine
    Draws us heavenward."
    ~ Goethe




    "In the quiet moments of our lives lie courage. In the everyday steps we take is courage. In love is courage. In being different dwells courage. In the cry against injustice lives courage. In the stepping up to responsibility lies courage. In reaching out to others is courage. If I've learned anything about courage and intuition it is that they demand that we live in the moment without preconceptions of how life should be." ~ Judith Orloff


    “God is not far away from us, but we are far away from God, and the only reason is our insensitivity.” – Osho

    “My whole teaching consists of two words, meditation and love. Meditate so that you canfeel immense silence, and love so that your life can become a song, a dance, a celebration. You will have to move between the two, and if you can move easily, if you can move without any effort, you have learned the greatest thing in life.” – Osho (Come, Come, Yet Again Come).

    “A real Master is not a teacher: a real Master is an awakener. His function is totally different from a teacher; his function is far more difficult. And only very few people can stay with a Master because to wake up after millions of lives is not an ordinary feat; it is a miracle. And to allow somebody to wake you up needs great trust, great surrender.” - Osho

    "The moment you start seeing life as non-serious, a playfulness, all the burden on your heart disappears. All the fear of death, of life, of love - everything disappears." - Osho

    “Whatsoever you are, there is nothing wrong with it. Love and relationship has not to be destroyed; only meditation has to be added to it.” - Osho

    "The head is a marketplace, the heart is the shrine of being. All that is beautiful and true arises out of the heart, never out of the head." - Osho

    “I do not ordinarily make prophecies, but about this I am absolutely prophetic: the coming hundred years are going to be more and more irrational, and more and more mystical. The second thing: After a hundred years people will be perfectly able to understand why I was misunderstood — because I am the beginning of the mystical, the irrational. I am a discontinuity with the past. The past cannot understand me; only the future will understand. The past can only condemn me. It cannot understand me, it cannot answer me, it cannot argue with me; it can only condemn me. Only the future…as man becomes more and more available to the mysterious, to the meaningless yet significant…After a hundred years they will understand. Because the more man becomes aware of the mysterious side of life, the less he is political; the less he is a Hindu, a Mohammedan, a Christian; the less is the possibility for his being a fanatic. A man in tune with the mysterious is humble, loving, caring, accepting the uniqueness of everybody. He is rejoicing in the freedom of each individual, because only with freedom can this garden of humanity be a rich place.” – Osho (The Osho Upanishad).


    "When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be." ~ Laozi

    "All the fish needs is to get lost in water. All man needs is to get lost in Tao." ~ Chuang-Tzu

     "There are many paths to enlightenment.
    Be sure to take the one with a heart."
    ~ Laozi

    “Giving to others selflessly and anonymously, radiating light throughout the world and illuminating your own darkness, your virtue becomes a sanctuary for yourself and all beings.” ~ Laozi.

    Laughing Owl


     is the best cocktail
    (St Germain)

    “Water is the only drink for a wise man.” ~ Henry David Thoreau

    How to Charge your Water:

    Each one try this, and if you do not feel results at first, just go on, for you certainly will as you use it more and more: 

    "'I AM' the Presence charging this water with the Life-giving Essence which I absorb and which renews my body in Perfect Health and Eternal Youth." 

    I also used this to charge the water that makes up my body - I placed my hands on my body stating:

    "'I AM' the Presence charging the water in this body with the Life-giving Essence which I absorb and which renews my body in Perfect Health and Eternal Youth." 

    Another way from Quan Yin to charge water:

    "With these hands and with this Heart and through the pure intention of God, this water (food) is blessed, removing and transmuting all impurities forever. God Bless this water (food). Thank you, thank you, thank you."

    7th-dimensional tool from St Germain for energising the water in our bodies and the earth

    (Our water is under attack!)


    "In a world filled with hate - we must still dare to hope!
    In a world filled with anger - we must still dare to comfort!
    In a world filled with despair - we must still dare to dream!
    And in a world filled with distrust - we must still dare to believe."
    - Michael Jackson

    Love is what matters. Indigo must shift to Crystal, to full consciousness. By demonstrating unconditional love in all his dealings with people and under all pressure Michael passed on to the summit of the astral realms. John Lennon - referring to himself as an ascended master - introduced him as 'Moonwalker' in the channelling circle I was in for a brief time. So he is a powerful guide and through continued loving service to humanity will soon ascend to the 5th dimension himself.

    "What we need to learn from children isn't childish. Being with them connects us to the deeper wisdom of life which is ever-present and only asks to be lived. They know the way to solutions that lie waiting to be recognised within our own heart. Today, I would like to thank all the children of the world including the sick and deprived. I am so sensitive to your pain." - Michael Jackson (at the 35th Annual Grammy Awards, 24 February 1993, Los Angeles, California).

    "The whole world abounds in magic. When a whale plunges out of the sea like a newborn mountain, you gasp in unexpected delight. What magic! But a toddler who sees his first tadpole flashing in a mud puddle feels the same thrill. Wonder fills the heart, because he has glimpsed for an instant the playfulness of life." - Michael Jackson (From 'Magic,' Dancing The Dream, 1992)

    “We have to heal our wounded world. The chaos, despair and senseless destruction we see today are the result of the alienation that people feel from each other and their environment. Often this alienation has its roots in an emotionally deprived childhood. Children have had their childhood stolen from them. A child’s mind needs the nourishment of mystery, magic, wonder and excitement. I want my work to help people rediscover the child that’s hiding in them.” – Michael Jackson (Dancing the Dream, 1992, p.80).

    "And my goal in life is to give to the world what I was lucky to receive: the ecstasy of divine union through my music and my dance." - Michael Jackson

    Breathe deeply!

    Breathing fully means that we are allowing our connection to the Source. Shallow breathing is a sign of denial of, and resistance to, our Divinity

    "Fill yourselves with love, with joy. Breathe in the prana. Breathe deeply. The prana is once again available to you, in such magnitudes as you have not known since Atlantis. It is the Elixir of Light, it is the Love of all Creation, it is the Adamantine Particles, it is the foundation of all life, all Creation. You have The All available to you, by simply breathing deeply throughout your day. A gift from the Creator. Take advantage of this blessed gift and breathe deeply, Dear Ones. You will lift yourselves up once again to the heights which you are soon to experience, a civilisation far surpassing Atlantis, as this time, there will be no darkness. There will be no misuse of power. You have come through the darkness and are emerging into the light and the light will allow no darkness. That Dear Ones is the beauty of the Now Moment which you are entering. You have succeeded and you will live and breathe the Love and the light and the joy and the peace and harmony, and you will experience the abundance which is your Divine birthright." - Archangel Michael (channelled through Michelle Coutant, ‘Claim Your Personal Power & Be the Love of Your Sacred Heart,’ 29 June 2010)


    Invoking the Mother Goddess

    Mahalaya heralds the advent of Durga, the goddess of supreme power. It is an invitation to the mother goddess to annihilate the evils of the world by her Supreme Goodness



    Love is

    Love is all

    Love is all there is

    Love is all

    Love is



    Don't be a stranger

    It's cold outside, There's no kind of atmosphere, I'm all alone, More or less. Let me fly, Far away from here, Fun, fun, fun, In the sun, sun, sun.

    I want to lie, Shipwrecked and comatoase, Drinking fresh, Mango juice, Goldfish shoals, Nibbling at my toes, Fun, fun, fun, In the sun, sun, sun, Fun, fun, fun,In the sun, sun, sun.

    (Red Dwarf theme tune)

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