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"Time is illusory; it seems real, and without it you would be unable see, hear, taste, touch, smell, and generally interact with one another and the environment that the illusion contains. Time is like an infinite slowing down of Reality, enabling causes to have effects, and as a result chains of events unfold, completing the experience of the illusion for you. An illusion lasts no time!  But when you are apparently caught up within it, it seems interminable. It appears to have all started many billions of years ago, and yet it is but a momentary aberration that cannot last. You are to awaken, you have been asleep for but an instant, and your joy will be ecstatic. So relax, be loving, open yourselves to your Father’s Love so that It can dispel the illusion, and allow yourselves to awaken. Remember, you do have free will, and to open yourselves to His love is to choose to awaken." - Saul (channelled through John Smallman, 'Time is like an infinite slowing down of reality,' 15 February 2011).

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The Year 2012

The seven main karmic issues

The Purpose of Crisis

Karma is your internet connection

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Further Reading 1

Further Reading 2

Karma & Emotions. Once more with feeling...awakening through crisis and emotional release


 Part 1


A note on karma

The Nature of Karma or Cause and Effect

Karma and Emotions

Mud Pies

Part 2

A Compilation of Inspirational Quotes

‘Karma and Emotions’ is an essay that was originally inspired by a channelled article by Vywamus. It started life as a later chapter in the original Monstaville Memoirs book. It is now an entity of its own and adds much in the way of depth and promise as well as serving as a bridge to prepare the way for book 3, in which the subject of ascension, which is really a process of self-healing and releasing repressed emotions, is explored in earnest.

My understanding is that we have denied uncomfortable emotions over many lifetimes through fear and sought to escape and project them any way we could. Consequently, we have a massive pile of negative energy in our emotional bodies to face and work through. It surfaces in the difficulites we experience in our lives and bodies and if we feel through it we can release it. Otherwise, it will come round again for another opportunity for self-healing. So suffering is good for the soul because it helps to clear our dense energies and lighten our load so we can reflect the joy and happiness of our Spirit, our true nature as expressions of God.

'Denile is deep.'

“When we come into this world we are like fountains of pure water. This is why most of us love our children so much; they remind us of what we truly are. The pure water is symbolic of the pure consciousness coming through a pure temple of God. As we grow up the water starts to change colour because it is being washed through the rag of our brains. A dirty rag taints the colour of the water and thus changes the reality from pure to impure. All polarised thinking dirties the rag. When we think in terms of Good/bad, right/wrong, positive/negative, male/female, higher/lower and superior/inferior, we dirty our rag and cloud our view of life. God sees life perfectly just like the little children until we teach them to see it otherwise! This is why Yeshua ben Joseph said, ‘The kingdom of heaven is liken unto the little children.’

Our fears are then just dirt in our rag. The true spiritual journey is to dirty the rag by living as a woman or a man, experiencing the polarised thinking of the first three seals [chakras], then to clean the rag and filter the water until it becomes pure again. A Christ is an entity that has experience all realms of consciousness and is heavily laden with wisdom, then by choice, unfolds back to the child within. In other words, they let go of the past and become the pure fountain of water again. It’s not that they have to be like a 3-year-old child again or be reborn through their mother’s womb! No, they become born again to a new life, a life that is waiting for them on the other side of the river of emotion…

If we relentlessly clean our dirty rags and filter the unclean water, I am sure the day will come when we will once again emanate pure love.”

– Gary Bate (Becoming a Christ. A Layman’s Journey of Self-discovery, Blue Light Publishing, Cardiff, U.K., 2003,, p.141-144).


"Time to move on...Grace chooses to rebirth you, beloved, to bring you the new." - St Germain (channelled through Ashamarae, 5 February 2012).

 “Higher and more refined frequencies are constantly bombarding you and the Earth. As a result, many of you are in the midst of the emotional intensity and distortions of the astral plane, which consists of the seven sub-planes of the fourth dimension. These are emotional planes of consciousness which must be brought under control and returned to an accepted level of polarity. These are some of the most difficult tasks you will ever experience while on your journey of ascension into the fifth dimension of balance and tranquility. It is a time of clearing the deep, residual core energy patterns that you must release in order to accommodate the higher frequencies of Light…Know this, beloveds, it is a golden opportunity for you to release, once and for all, those impacted energies that you have carried with you as excess baggage for many thousands of years. Face them, process them and see them transmuted into pure Light substance, and in the process you will feel LIGHTER AND BRIGHTER, as you traverse the pathway to higher consciousness into the realms of wondrous possibilities.” - Archangel Michael (channelled through Ronna Herman, ‘The Fast Track to Self Mastery,’ 30 March, 2011,

“It has been a good morning…You listened silently to things which are very essential to your spiritual growth, and you laughed heartily. More than that is not needed – a good laughter and a deep silence together are enough to transform you. You are on the right path, unless you get stuck somewhere. The path is simple and easy, and all that it needs is a let-go – either in silence or in laughter, either in music or in dance. Remember the most spiritual words in existence are LET-GO.” – Osho (Love’s Mysteries, Sterling Publishers, India, 1998, p.93).

“Duality has been a time of fully experiencing the senses and emotions and learning to control them. You have the ability to keep negative emotions in check, and you cannot excuse yourselves if you fail by claiming that is how you are. You must make the effort to change, and this will benefit you in many ways, as you will feel much better within yourselves. Anger in particular has a debilitating affect on you, and when it repeatedly occurs it is damaging your body and can bring the onset of illness.” – SaLuSa (channelled through Mike Quinsey, 27 August 2012).

“Life is a series of natural and spontaneous changes. Don’t resist them; that only creates sorrow. Let reality be reality. Let things flow naturally forward in whatever way they like.” - Lao Tzu.

"We have talked extensively about the endless releasing and clearing enlightening human beings have been experiencing as your earth and her inhabitants continue to shift. At each energetic alignment, you are locking in your energetic progress, as you become lighter and lighter, and embody more of your true essence. But the process is not just about letting go. Dear Ones, what would you like to add to your lives? Perhaps you wish to honour your body with better food and exercise? Perhaps you wish to make meditation, prayer, or gratitude a more consistent practice in your life? Maybe you need to spend more time having fun, or simply enjoying life’s simple pleasures. You get to choose, as you let go of the density, what you wish to replace it with! It is through this letting go and redefinition process you will be creating the life expressions you wish to have and truly deserve. Now is the time to get clear about what you want and to enjoy the fruits of your labour. You have made so much more room in your vessels. Why not fill them with everything joyous and wonderful?" - Archangel Gabriel (channelled through Shelley Young, Daily Message, 10 November 2012,

Facing the subconscious: this is where you are now.

“You are challenging yourself. You are turning to the darkness that is stored within the subconscious and you are coaxing it out into the consciousness for the purpose of being able to recognise the divine qualities of your electronic systems, which move through the electromagnetic field of your atomic structure.” - Master Kuthumi (channelled through Michelle Eloff, ‘9:9:9 The Fluid Love, Fluid Universe Activation & Air Gates 23-29,' 9 September 2009,


Excerpt from 'Ascension and Transmutation'

By Lord Metatron

Channelled through Laurie Gilmore 

(late 1994)

"The only difference between an Avatar and an ordinary man is the location of the energy held within the energy bodies. An ordinary man has all his energy “locked-up” in stored emotions and memories in the emotional body, and beliefs, dogmas and thoughts in the mental body.

The ordinary man has a flat spiritual body, for there is no energy to spare from the demands of the emotions and thoughts. An avatar has clear emotional and mental bodies. All the energy held within an Avatar’s subtle bodies, is stored in the Spiritual Body.

For a Master, the energy associated with emotion flows into the emotional body from the spiritual body IN THE MOMENT, and is released to the spiritual body once the emotional stimulus has ended.

The energy associated with a thought flows from the spiritual body to the mental body, and then is released to the spiritual body as the thought is completed.

This leaves an Avatar’s energy free, to use according to his will. The spiritual energy is available to an avatar because it is not consumed by thoughts, beliefs, emotions, and memories. This is the energetic structure each of you must create in your energy bodies, during tenth and eleventh level Light Body. This will allow each of you to perform miracles such as manifesting thought into physical reality."


The Year 2012

"Year 2012 according to Sai Baba" was from a talk given in 2001. Extracted from a conversation between a reporter and Sathya Sai Baba. Sai Baba almost never gave interviews, so this was very special...

"Have you heard of the year 2012 like a year where something will happen?"

The truth is that the planet has been changing its vibratory state, and this change has intensified since the year 1989 where the magnetic poles have moved the last 20 years more than the past 2000. Well, in one way there are several prophecies that signal this date like a term or important conclusion in the history of humanity, but the most significant is the end of the Mayan calendar, which prophecy has been interpreted in different ways.

The most negative ones think that during this year the world will end, but it will not be like that, it is known that during that year a new era will start, the Age of Aquarius.

This has to do with the rotation of the whole solar system (solar cycle) that goes passing through the different eras each one of them lasts 5125 years. The era in which we now are, called the Age of Pisces, started on the year 3113 B.C. and ends on 2012. If there is a change on the earth's magnetism, there is a change on the consciousness and also an adaptation at the physical level for this new vibration. The changes are not only on our planet, but also affect the whole universe, and today's science can verify that.

Inform yourself about the changes on the solar storms (that are magnetic storms) and you will see that scientists are up to date with these things, or ask about the movement of the magnetic poles during the last years, and airports having to modify their instruments.

This change on the magnetism translates or it's perceived as an increment of light, or an increase on the planet's vibration. For you to understand it easily you must know that this vibration is affected and intensified due to the consciousness of all human beings. Each thought, each emotion, each new awakening of a human being towards the consciousness of God elevates the vibration of the planet. This might seem a paradox, due to the fact that the majority sees around themselves more hatred and misery, but this is not so.

There are many, even if I would like them to be more, that are trying to get out of darkness to grow and become a better Son of God. I have been saying this on previous messages, each one chooses where to focus the view, and those who only see the darkness are focused on the drama, the pain and the injustice. If you don't see the spiritual advancement that humanity has made it is because you haven't focused on it, but if you do the right work and liberate your mind of the negative you will open a space where you will be able to manifest your divine essence that will put on the focus of what is really happening with humanity and the planet. Humanity is elevating its consciousness as never before.

"But how!...Can't you see the darkness?"

Yes, I see it, but I don't identify Myself with it, I'm not afraid of it...How can I fear darkness if I see such clear light?...Of course I understand those who fear, because I have also been standing where I could only see the evil. This is why now I feel love for all of that. Darkness it's not a force contrary to the light, it is absence of light. You cannot invade the light with darkness, that is not how the principle of light works. Fear, drama, injustice, hate and sadness only exist in states of darkness, because you can't see the global context in which your life develops, and the only way to see from the light when you are there is through faith. Once you have increased your vibration and frequency (state of consciousness) you will be able to see towards darkness and understand what you have lived.


"But...How can You say this if there is more evil in the world every day?"

There is not more evil...there is "more light", and that is what I'm talking about on this message. Imagine that you have a room or warehouse where for years you have been storing your things and is lit by a 40 w. bulb. Change the bulb to a 100 w. and you will see what happens. You will see the mess and the dust you didn't think existed. The dirt will be clearer. This is what is happening, and this makes possible that a lot of people are reading this without thinking of it as foolish, like it could have been some years ago.

Have you noticed that today lies and deceit come to the surface faster than before?...Well, to access God's understanding and life's functioning is also faster than before.

This new vibration of the planet is what is making everyone nervous, depressed or sick, because to be able to receive more light and to rise to that vibrational level, people have to change physically as well as mentally, they have to change the way they think and feel, and delete or eradicate from their lives such beliefs or parameters that generally differ from reality or that take them towards the negative side of things.

You must put your warehouses in order, because each day you are receiving more light on your consciousness and even if you want to avoid it, you should start putting your hands on the project and start the cleaning or decide to live in the middle of the dirt.

This change creates physical discomforts, pains on the body, on the skeleton system and most of the time; the medical tests can't find the reason or illness that provokes it. Generally they relate it with stress or nervous states; nothing is farther from the truth, because these discomforts are provoked due to negative emotions accumulated during our lives -- fears and anxieties that you have carried with you always and that now have the opportunity to transcend and transmute. It's about that dust accumulated for years that you are now seeing, for it to be cleaned.

There will be nights when you will wake up and stay up for a few hours...don't alter yourself. Read a book, meditate -- don't fight it by thinking there is something wrong with you; it's the new vibration of the planet that you're assimilating. You will go back to sleep and the next day you will not feel a need to sleep more. If you don't flow with this process properly, the pains will be more intense and you will be diagnosed with fibromyalgia, which is a name that medicine has given to these pains that have no visible cause and for which they offer no treatment with concrete results, they only give you a prescription for antidepressants and this makes you escape the opportunity to change your life.

One more time you chose which reality you want to live, only this time the drama will be more intense and of course so will be the love. If the Light is increased, so also is the lack of need for it, and this explains why there is so much irrational violence during the last years.

We are living the best time that humanity has ever lived, we will be witnesses and actors of the biggest transformation of consciousness that you have ever imagined.

Inform yourself; wake up your unrest for these subjects. Science knows that something is happening; you know that something is happening; we all know that many changes are happening in many levels. Be a conscious actor of these changes and don't let them take you by surprise simply because you don't know what is happening.

The seven main karmic issues

By Ra

Channelled through Amorah Quan Yin

[Ra is a spokesperson for the Pleiadian Archangelic Tribes of the Light, Member of the Pleiadian Emissaries of Light, who are guardians of this solar ring and members of the Galactic Federation of Light of the Great Central Sun]

Your part in all of this is to live right, learn about and practice impeccability, pray to know the Divine Plan and your part in it, and heal and clear yourself on all levels as much as possible. On a collec­tive level, there are seven primary karmic patterns that need to be cleared and transcended at this time. The patterns that are currently being exaggerated in order to bring them into your awareness so that you can transform them are: arrogance, addiction, prejudice, hatred, violence, victimhood, and shame. These seven sources of pain, illu­sion, and separation are listed in the order they developed in this solar ring—beginning on Venus and expanding on Mars, Maldek, and finally Earth. How they have culminated on Earth is so obvious that it seems pointless to elaborate very much.

Whether the United States has an attitude of supremacy in the world or a New Ager has an attitude of being superior to less aware, nonspiritual people, the attitude is still called arrogance. Whether an alcoholic lies in the gutter in Los Angeles or a person obsesses about his/her physical appearance or the body of his/her mate, this pat­tern is still called addiction. Whether the KKK burn crosses in black people's yards or a spiritual person looks down on a "redneck," it is still called prejudice. Whether capitalists hate communists or the "politically correct" person hates the loggers and builders, the atti­tude is still called hatred. Whether the United States creates war in Vietnam or Central America or a parent spanks and degrades a child, the activity is still called violence. Whether Native Americans, Aborigines, or other indigenous people are killed and have their land destroyed by white people or squirrels and deer are killed by unaware people driving too fast, the problem is still victimhood. Whether Germany bears the scars of Hitler or poor people feel unworthy because of their poverty, the feeling is still called shame. From the most obvious to the most subtle, each person individually must do his/her part to recognize and heal these patterns. The varia­tions of individual expression of these seven main karmic issues are many. However, if you look closely enough, you can see that the source of every problem on Earth today is one or more of these seven solar-ring karmic patterns. These patterns are accompanied by the absence of awareness of the four evolutionary principles, which must now be learned.

For those of you who have mastered the behavioural and attitudinal levels of these patterns, or are sincerely working on them, your next step is conscious alignment with your Higher Self, higher collec­tive consciousness, and Divine Oneness.

Excerpt fromThe Pleiadian Workbook, Awakening your Divine Ka, Bear & Company, NM., U.S., 1995.

Karma is an integral aspect of Ascension which is all about releasing karma, clearing up the fragments of illusory experience and returning to a more complete state of consciousness.

The Purpose of Crisis

By Antraeus de Herschia

“Each time individuals have a failure and lament it, each time they have a problem and sorrow over it rather than commit it unto the Father, each time individuals resent their problems and see them not as the return of karma but as an act of Deity whom they defy, they are building up in their own world frustration, resentment, anxiety and confusion. And these momentums draw to their doorsteps the negative conditions of the outside world.” – St. Germain (Intermediate Studies in Alchemy, Summit University Press, CA., U.S., p.66).

It is helpful to keep an open mind and ponder the possibilities whilst remaining sceptical of that which you do not know through personal experience, as yet. We are born into this world which is a karmic school (albeit gradually being transformed into a world of Light now as Mother Earth ascends to higher dimensions) and many of us have been going through an initiation for many lifetimes. We forget who we are and where we’ve been and we are conditioned to see the world through our ego minds as separate physical beings. When, in truth, we are spiritual beings having a human experience and our physical bodies are simply the vehicles through which we experience this world. To limit ourselves to just being physical personalities is to be asleep and dream that the world outside of ourselves is real and all there is when in fact it really is just an illusion but one that appears so real, so fixed and solid through collective belief.

So the initiation is to rediscover what we have learned in other lifetimes and to graduate from this initiation by seeing and living from the heart in which our true divine self resides: that which is divine love, joy, beauty, creative power, infinite peace and intelligence, etc. To centre ourselves there rather than reacting to what we see and experience with our minds. Then our Light can shine and illumine the world around us and affect it positively so that we wake up and inspire others to do likewise. It’s an absurd situation to be in, I agree. But, one that we have chosen for one reason or another. Well, both to serve humanity and to grow spiritually as the co-creators we are meant to be. We are spiritual, multidimensional beings of radiant Light and majesty as expressions of one creative Source not physical animals who are limited and separate.

So…we all have our tests and challenges, issues that don’t just go back to childhood but many lifetimes ago, blockages and habits that we have been attempting to clear for a very long time and always end up denying, projecting or hiding and escaping from in one way or another. But now, at a soul level, we know this is a grand opportunity to feel through these blockages and release them because the Light is returning and it is easier to accomplish. In addition, we know that the reward lies now just around the corner, that, as we face ourselves and shift these ancient fears, they can be replaced permanently with love and light, joy and peace, and we are less likely to slip back into our old ways. Darkness and density are leaving this realm and we are assisting in the process of removing it by taking on experiences that push us to grow at an accelerated rate. It’s heavy, yes! But with the result that we are lightening our load, becoming lighter, more en-light-ened.

So there is a purpose behind our seemingly unjust experiences. Those we may have had in childhood were there to set us up and develop the personalities we needed in order to grow. We have re-established those old patterns in ourselves but designed in such a way as to encourage ourselves to deal with them and unravel them. The issues and blockages we have chosen, again at a soul level, to work on in this life are right where they need to be, often on or just beneath the surface. No ignoring or evading them this time! And, however we may respond to them, or cope with them, or not, we are heading in the direction of resolving them. Even if we exhaust all other options, we must eventually arrive at the conclusion that there is but one way to transform our troubles and that is through love. Easier said than done, I agree! Nevertheless, it is our true nature to love and all else is merely an illusion. We can only transform something whilst experiencing it. Hence, we draw people and situations to ourselves that can effectively bring those fears we have held onto for so many lifetimes to the surface. And, somehow, we must relax, breathe deeply, see them for what they are and let go, without attaching our minds to these emotions or identifying with them, just allow them to pass like clouds.

Naturally, we may have to endure a longterm crisis at some point in order to repeat the procedure, to familiarise ourselves with every angle of our neurosis or psychosis or whatever! We may hold on for years and then, as a result of a breakdown, learn to start releasing a bit here and there, and then more. We may find that the ‘stuff’ we deal with from childhood is really just the tip of the iceberg and that there is much more to release. Yet, once we get going it is likely to become easier to release more because we are altering behavioural patterns that have been in place for so long. And, all along, we have believed that we were right because we allowed our ego minds to deceive us. The ego does not know. It exists simply to In other words, it has a limited function. We are taught to identify with the body and become this physical ego. And, as a result, we attempt to understand and live from that limited point of view, sometimes believing that we know everything. Many people are adamant that there could not possibly be anything beyond physical ‘reality.’ They have locked out any possibility of experiencing subtler realities because they are not open and do not love truth.

We must turn to our spirit for intuitive knowledge and wisdom, shift from the head to the heart, if we are to get anywhere in this crazy school of life on Earth. ‘Seek and ye shall find.’ Truth does not just come strutting into our lives wiggling her ass with a flamboyant flourish! The whole point of an initiatory experience is that we make an effort to find our way out of the maze we have placed ourselves in. Naturally, the challenges we face are there as cues to prompt such a quest, to recover what we have lost. The pot of gold that is our true spiritual nature must be earned. We are playing a game of hide-and-seek with ourselves and we must actively expand our consciousness if we are to find ourselves again. And that requires inner work, inner-tuition, going within, meditating, feeling in our hearts, allowing love and healing to flow. Everything in this world is geared to make us focus outside of ourselves. That is the nature of the Beast that has been controlling this domain for thousands of years. It wants our attention, our fear, our energy. Even those who rage against the machine and focus on this truth are feeding the Beast rather than turning within and working on shining their Light more brightly, awakening from this collective dream.

So, wherever possible, be grateful for your experiences, forgive those who may have hurt you in any way or who are acting ignorantly and making you feel uncomfortable. Know that your joy and happiness are to be found within yourself, not in others, and that, underlying our temporal needs as human beings is a longing to restore the peace, bliss and wholeness we have known in the higher realms of life, and that we miss our soul families but will soon be reunited with them. We are love and we are loved. It cannot be any other way. But, here we are, in the dark box of confinement to the ego mind and everywhere we turn save the heart yields more of the same. This little mind is a veritable coffin yet most people live exclusively from this point of consciousness as though it is all that is alive. So much for the legacy of patriarchy! We must learn to switch on the Light in the heart, fan the flames of the spirit with our attention. This is the wisdom that is being shared with us at this time.


Opening Your Heart

Transitions of the Emotional Body


"The rain falls
day after day
and we keep everything inside."
- Unknown

"Some people think that to be strong is to never feel pain.
In reality, the strongest people are the ones who feel it, understand it, and accept it!" - Unknown

Karma is your internet connection

My comments in a discussion thread, 21 Oct 2014

“This world is like a mountain. Your echo depends on you. If you scream good things, the world will give it back. If you scream bad things, the world will give it back. Even if someone speaks badly about you, speak well about him. Change your heart to change the world.” - Shams Tabrizi.

“This world is erected upon the principle of reciprocity. Neither a drop of kindness nor a speck of evil will remain unreciprocated. For not the plots, deceptions, or tricks of other people. If somebody is setting a trap, remember, so is God. He is the biggest plotter. Not even a leaf stirs outside God’s knowledge. Simply and fully believe in that. Whatever God does, He does it beautifully.” - Shams Tabrizi.

Karma might be defined as a demonstration of how our actions affect and teach us in this karmic school of Earth. In other words, how action is used as a tool to invoke emotional response in order to counter thought, specifically judgement.

I've been trying to get my head round karma since I came across some unusual channelled info. I actually ended up writing a short ebook called 'Karma and Emotions.' I used to think I had it sussed but it's a slippery ol' fish! It looks like there is a universal law that all must be balanced which includes debts being paid as overseen by the Lords of Karma but also that there is a personal reflection of the soul which is an emotional issue and perhaps the two work together as a polarity like Saturn and the Moon in astrology. And as time/control/concentration/order and the flow of feeling/consciousness. Although there may be no linear time in reality all karmic residue is used by our Self and guides according to our experience and need regarding our spiritual growth. Wherever we are and whatever time we think it is! This is kind of like saying there is one level of karma which is physical, kind of like the law of gravity, and runs on the principle of necessity and is therefore unavoidable. And another level which is astral (4D) where we must face ourselves and learn to love ourselves and transcend self-judgement. Because any experience of what we are not belongs to the illusion and while it persists we are attached to the dream of life and must clear it and wake up (move beyond to the5th dimension which is the beginning of the realms of Light although this itself is only a valid perspective and interpretation of a paradigm that exists beyond human thought/words). Negative energy must be cleared which is why many of us also agree at a soul level to take on national and also global karma.

And, according to Matthew, we may also increase our karmic load by assisting others with their karma:

“Nevertheless, in the council’s planning of a process unprecedented in speed and scope, they wisely took into account that some of the weaker souls might falter and welcome assistance in addition to the continuous in-beaming of light from distant civilisations, and the plan included several means to handle that contingency. Stronger souls who had shared lifetimes with weaker ones could take upon themselves a portion of those souls’ heavy karma; volunteers for those roles were in fourth or higher densities, and so were the energy healers, psychic intermediaries and receivers of telepathic communication, who would help in their respective ways. A multitude of souls was needed to become way-showers and standard-bearers. Some would intuitively know the truth of information transmitted by messengers in the light and share it with all who were receptive; others would become active in various reform efforts or prepare for professions where they could influence positive changes; and some of the many souls who would exemplify the power of positive thoughts and feelings and the joy of living in godly ways would fill other roles, too.” - Matthew (channelled through Suzanne Ward, 19 October 2014,

So we may perceive that a God is judging us but we are only ever judging ourselves because we are God and there is always an issue with a reflection that is not our true self. It don't feel right! And this is projected onto the canvas of life as experience and as a lesson we need to learn and create for ourselves on a higher level. The experience provides us with an opportunity to feel the blocked emotions and fears from previous lifetimes in order to release them. This is the deeper issue where karma is concerned. And we can only release emotions by experiencing them again. When we fail to learn from karmic lessons and accomplish this the lesson is repeated until we do. In different situations, with different characters, in different times and places. But no not going backwards in so-called time because that is the whole point of progress. We are always learning and moving forward eve when we take two steps backwards we must then take three forwards because we cannot help but awaken eventually since the dream doesn't even really exist. We're just playing a game. It's just a trip man! It'll all be over in the blink of an eye and then we'll just laugh at our foolishness when we were trapped in human egos and believe that we existed, that those personalities were real and we actually got sucked into all this nonsense. And our lessons become harder after may lives because it's only then that we are stronger to endure difficult karmic debts created when we were more naive and gung ho, less responsible and wise. We do not come to Earth for a holiday but to learn and to serve and as older souls we are not going to learn unless our experiences are hard. Anything less is not going to challenge us or persuade us to change and try to wake up. And in my case even that doesn't work! lol.

Karmic debts are repaid when we are ready and strong enough. Everything is used by our guides. What we don't learn today we will tomorrow...or when we're old and weak or in a future lifetime. And ultimately we don't let ourselves off the hook because we can't - because we simply cannot remain in the illusion of the ego forever. We have to wake up. Reality is all there is. We cannot dream forever. Being stuck in illusion is a negative situation all round and we're never going to be happy until we master it. And we all want to be happy, deep down.

On a higher level all is in divine order but the ego mind is itself a condition of discomfort. Being in a physical body is a state of discomfort because it is the vehicle through which we experience karma and that exists to give us a chance to release negative emotions, dark energies we have held onto because we couldn't face feeling through them, but just escaped, projected, did anything but!

So we may experience certain things as 'good' or 'bad' even though from a higher perspective they just are what they are. It's hard to be completely centred in the heart and not judge. I can't do it and don't know anyone who can but they would have achieved some level of self-mastery and know that they are not their human self.

Everything is pre-arranged prior to incarnation and has already happened on some level. And nothing exists in isolation. Everything is interconnected. Our current experience is connected to past life experiences and we are repeating or intensifying our lessons. That explains the phenomenon of deja vu. And quite possibly it happens when our emotional response is clear and we are able to own the emotions and allow them to flow. We are tuned in.

Karma means action and action that is not in alignment with who we really are in Spirit binds us to the material plane because for every action there is a reaction. We make karmic contracts prior to birth and prior to incarnating on Earth in the first place. When we depart from our physical bodies we are confronted with ourselves and our actions and self-inflicted judgment takes over until we have awakened spiritually. We are then in a stronger position to resolve such issues. So perhaps this karma thing is just a tool that we use until we reach that level of maturity, where we have polished our character and perfected our soul and think and act more wisely lest we again slip down into third-dimensional thought and behaviour. Or, at any rate, we use any remaining karma in a different way, to fine-tune our self-awareness.

I think karma really is a bitch from the perspective of the ego which wants to survive and not be replaced by true self-awareness. The whole arrangement is orchestrated by us as our higher selves for our growth and therefore on that level there is no judgement. But the whole point is learning to transcend the lower self and its attachment to duality. My life has defo been shit not by choice but because I have been clearing a lot of karma, much of which I could have dealt with in my previous life but apparently I left my wife and kids to join the navy and escape from my responsibilities to be quickly blown to smithereens! lol. Whether that's true or not idk but it sounds like me and makes me just laff! Someone (higher self) is trying to turn me into a saint but I often have one finger up!

When I hit the sack last night after suggesting that 'karma is our internet connection' I thought yeah that makes more sense than I thought! When there is an emotional blockage we are not connnected to our true self so we have to work on it and may complain, resist and grow angry and frustrated. But ultimately we must accept the situation and be patient and not sacrifice the flow of feeling or conscious clarity. The connection will return but if we identified with the fear, the torment, the impatience, the feeling of powerlessness, we missed an opportunity to stay centred in the heart with the result that our consciousness remains fragmented and we keep one or both feet in the three-dimensional prison/matrix.

I find it easy to compare the internet with karma! As though it is an alternative, parallel experiential platform which is testing us just as life does in general without necessarily being karmic specifically. Although, being a MySpace refugee and very image-oriented, I don't like facebook that much, it's nowhere near as bad as the four other main sites I have to use regularly in terms of smooth and efficient operation and connectivity issues: blogger, yahoo, tumblr and my web builder which now sucks since it was was bought by a corporation that cares only about making a profit.

The upshot is: whatever the outer experience we create for ourselves using the tool of karma and handiwork of our spirit guides, the real issue is our emotional response. That's the fruit on the tree that nourishes us if we allow it to ripen instead of leaving it to go putrid yet again. It revives us and eventually restores us to eternal life. Feeling is healing as they say.

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