Recommended Reading Part 2

The purpose of this page is to display a selection of articles related to the theme of spiritual ascension through crisis and releasing emotional blockages (dying to the attachments and habits of the past) explored in the e-book Karma & Emotions.

Ophelia's Kiss

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Karma & Emotions

Further Reading I

DNA & The Indigo Factor


Letting Go of All You Know

Dealing withyour darkness instead of denying it

Why do you insist on pandering to the minds of the insane?

Navigating the Stages of Emotional Clearing

'From My Diary'

A Meal at Milliways



How Recent Solar Flares Are Affecting Us

Transmute Collective Emotions

A Strong and Noble Heart

Do not allow your doubts and anxieties to discourage or alarm you

When and How Will Ascension Happen?

Power vs Whimsy, Doubt vs Wisdom

Love is VAST

“If we were standing in your physical shoes, we would not let the reality of something be our basis for attention; we would let the feeling-vibration of it be our basis. So we would start by saying, to anyone who was interested in knowing what we were about, ‘If it feels good, I give it my full attention; if it doesn’t, I don’t look at it at all.’ You can and will create the essence of anything that you are giving your attention to.” – Abraham (Manifest Your Desires by Esther and Jerry Hicks, Hay House, Inc., New York, U.S., 2008, p.281).

“We have to heal our wounded world. The chaos, despair and senseless destruction we see today are the result of the alienation that people feel from each other and their environment. Often this alienation has its roots in an emotionally deprived childhood. Children have had their childhood stolen from them. A child’s mind needs the nourishment of mystery, magic, wonder and excitement. I want my work to help people rediscover the child that’s hiding in them.” – Michael Jackson (Dancing the Dream, Doubleday, London, U.K., 1992, p.80).

Emotions & Solar Flares

"Most of us are feeling the roller coaster ride of emotions that solar flares can bring up, and if this is new to you then this brief information may be of great support. Solar flares rise up from the Sun and energetically they bring up deep seated emotions to be cleared. We are in the time of great awakening and clearing our emotional body is very important if we choose to have a smooth ride. Hence, be gentle with yourself and give yourself and others some slack." (Awakening From Within newsletter, May 2012,

 “I think it's important to be detached and put the facts to one side rather than dwelling on them. It's a discipline. We're here to accelerate our growth, often through illness and other crises, and ascend spiritually. Even when we do we may still have karma from previous lives to work off. Who knows? Just keep breathing and releasing those emotions because n doubt those early experiences helped to bring blocked fears to the surface that you've been holding onto for many lifetimes. We can only release these negative emotions by reexperiencing them - that's why we need similar challenging situations to those that caused them in the first place. Acceptance, gratitude and forgiveness are perhaps the most powerful tools we have. The last ones even, as Bill Hicks suggested in his last performance. They help to open the higher chakras and allow us to receive cosmic frequencies from the Self through the crown. It has been suggested that we meditate for longer periods each day if we are unable to clear patterns that plague us in order to 'whitewash' them with cosmic energies.” – Antraeus de Herschia (17 November 2014).

"Karma is really only a person’s own choice to make amends, a choice made on entering the spiritual or non-physical realms after bodily death, when the unloving thoughts, intents, words, and deeds of the life just past flow into their awareness as they remove their barriers to that awareness. It can be a very painful and shocking realisation." - Saul (channelled through John Smallman, 27 April 2015, Love is VAST).

"It is so much safer not to feel, not to let the world touch me." - Sylvia Plath.

“We understand the feelings of the reader who wrote her difficulty in believing that anyone would choose a life of suffering or cause suffering to others, that the first is masochistic and the latter, sadistic. Indeed, it is difficult to imagine why souls would willingly choose either role - or that all of you have done the very same many times. It is with unconditional love for all others in the pre-birth agreement that some souls agree to act with extreme harshness so others can experience what they need to balance lifetimes when they were the abusive ones. When peoples live together happily and harmoniously, life on Earth will be in balance and no more back-and-forth lifetimes will be needed.” – Matthew (channelled through Suzanne Ward, 24 June 2015,

"Feelings are just visitors, let them come and go." - Mooji.

Aneta Ivanova

Letting Go of All You Know

By Lisa Renee

9 September 2011

Dear Family,

We are not turning back. The future of humanity, the future direction of the human species is at stake and the ante has been raised. We are in the best of times and the worst of times. There is no denying the level of uncertainty and the disorientation we are feeling while in the pinnacle of this planetary energetic chaos. This rapidly increasing chaos is a result of massive changes to the fundamental energetic architecture of the planet, and it is an entirely necessary process to facilitate evolution into the next cycle.

This chaotic peak has radically increased the environmental transparency to view how dependent humans have become on the false programs of a mind controlled reality. These mind control programs have been propagated for 3D humans to believe that the physical world and our Ego is the center of the Universe. We are now being forced to learn a deeper Universal Truth about the true Nature of Reality and it can be very painful to realize. The Ego Nature is being destroyed in the Presence of the Supreme Nature of the Eternal Living Light. The Life Story is over as you knew it from your Ego, the 3D personality matrix. What you Thought It Was, Will Never Be. We are leaving the finite Ego Nature to Live within Cosmic Consciousness, our infinite Spiritual Nature.

Our Infinite Consciousness only Lives in the Moment of Now. The behavioral imbalances, the mental disease, the broken systems, the disconnected boilerplates regurgitating from the automaton “machine” mentality, are apparent in the 3D environment EVERYWHERE. Without a rudder, without direction (which can only be accessed from the inner stabilization of your core essence) many feel utter confusion in the midst of this accelerating chaos. How we perceive and experience this point of time during the Ascension cycle is a matter of personal choice. Having clarity from within this massive confusion requires awareness of negative patterns and their attachments and then the focused discipline of your Ego mind to clear them. It is the time to remove all attachments to the external outcome and personal results.

Many human beings are having trouble understanding the complexity of what they are undergoing and what they are actually “looking at” as their ego perception of reality is being dismantled now. Because most people misinterpret what is transpiring it can be very traumatic. It does not need to be this way and choice is offered. Mind control has been so powerfully effective on this planet that most people deny the existence of many things that are an actual waking walking reality around us every day. Such as the Extraterrestrial species and UFO’s that are around us every day (and most of us have no idea why.) Such as the ancient artifacts of a helicopter and speed boat carved into a 5,000 year old Egyptian Temple (proving we were very advanced centuries ago.) Such as the fear method of the power elite creating continual “unseen” enemies in the media to direct public opinion favorable to giving up personal constitutional freedoms. Such as believing the government and economic structures (such as the financial institution bail out) were supposed to be of primary service to help the public stay in business or have a roof over their head.

All of these examples, whether directly implicated with the Negative Alien Agenda (or Not) are commonly connected into one shared blaring fact – all of it is promoting anti-human agendas through deception and enslavement as acceptable social behavior. By staying asleep to these deceptions or by doing nothing - we continue to feed these control systems and keep them alive.

Many people say, “What does any of this have to do with me living my life?” This has EVERYTHING to do with your personal life, whether you as a human being, your children and the future timelines will live in freedom and self determination of your own creative expression. Where you vibrate now is where you will vibrate to when you leave your body, this planet or transfigure into an Ascending orb. What you decide now will impact generations. Invest in the permanent part of yourself, get into your relationship with your inner core spirit. To get into the Core Spirit you will have to face the shadows of deep fear and self deception. Acknowledge it. See It. Then give it to God. Inflexible minds only continue to deny the existence of the dark forces in order to attempt to continue to cover up the true nature of reality. We must confront the outer deception in order to get to the inner truth, and ask the hard questions. Who is benefiting here? When will we wake up and actually “see” what we are looking at? In order to finally “see” the nature of this planetary reality one has to Let Go of All you Know. Free your Mind.

Accept As It Is Now

Our 3D Ego Self and its distorted belief system will not continue to be reinforced anymore in the external environment. For those on the Ascension pathway, plotting, planning and strategizing for control over your future prospects is over. Your life force is in the hands of your Higher Self and you are learning how to communicate in the new language without the ego interference. Wherever you find yourself right NOW, there is a reason for it. Dissatisfaction, unhappiness and frustration in your life circumstances can only be shifted in the perception in the Now moment, there is no magical answer in the future to feed the unhappy ego. To overcome an unhappy ego you must surrender to and accept the circumstance As It Is Now.

For many untrained people at this stage of evolutionary development, ego denial of the facts and blaming everything on the outside is still used as a coping mechanism. This promotes more resistance and more energetic backlash to feed the uncomfortable circumstances, prolonging the issue. We must stop the blame game and accept the responsibility for our life circumstances no matter where we find ourselves at. By way of living and breathing in a body on the planet tells you that you agreed to be here during this challenging time. Accept that responsibility by avoiding the ego’s blaming behaviors or victimizer patterns. The external environment for many people now is crumbling, at the job, relationship, health, money, possessions and social level. The walls, the ceiling and the floor are caving in and many people are in a deep panic about losing their perceived external reinforcement of security and safety.

This of course is the great Illusion that must be dismantled in order to live consciously aligned to our core essence which holds the potential to infinite consciousness. There is no safety found in anything physical, the only safety is our connection to our inner core and true heart essence. If it is your time to be physically dismantled, breathe, surrender and accept it As It Is Now. Be as Still as possible. You are going to be alright. Things will then progress in your life much easier.

The Lit Path to Safety is Balance

If we can awaken from our mind controlled external nightmare and actually begin to feel within, we will also feel the pathway light up leading us to true safety and balance. There is a LIT PATHWAY to safety accessed through inner balance. When inner balance is achieved by the connected individual (no matter how intense the external chaos) the clear lit path of security and stable foundation is omnipresent. This emanates incredible peace and it is tangibly experienced when inner balance is attained. The goal of achieving balance through meditation, ego clearing and any other self reflective technique that works for you is very important now. This path of balance leads to the Aurora Guardian Hosted Ascension Timeline and is open to every person, place and thing that interacts with its new energy “unity source code” architecture. In order to connect to this architecture one must desire to know the inner light or exist in unity with God Source. God Source can only be accessed through the feeling and sensory intelligence of the pure heart. This is each person’s responsibility to learn how to connect with their personal heart space and access their inner core essence of being. NO ONE CAN DO THIS FOR YOU !

The principles of Unity, Freedom, Sovereignty and Spiritual Ascension are upheld for All Beings, and it is accessed relative to the quality of purity residing within the heart space. A Pure Heart has a High Frequency that is able to connect to God Force. A Blackened Heart has a Low Frequency and cannot connect to God Force. There is no judgment, sin or worthiness considered of any life force. All life is valued equally and given every opportunity to evolve. However, God Source and the energetic physics of that eternal source field is a mathematical architecture and cannot be accessed from within the ego architecture or from its mind control systems. Free your Mind, Live from the Heart and Terminate Fear from governing your actions and you will find safety in God Forces. It is that simple. However it is YOU that must apply that commitment to all levels interacting with your day to day life. If you apply daily devotion to these basic principles you will find release from the agony of negative ego bondage. It is this negative ego bondage which is manifesting a self created hell of mentally enslaved creatures. It is the same Negative Ego architecture that the Negative Alien Controllers use to ensnare humanity into enslavement.

Commit to living and expressing balance in your body, mind and emotions through spiritual connection and mental and emotional discipline of the ego. The Controllers have zero power over you when you are outside of their frequency reach by maintaining neutral balance. If you stay out of mental and emotional polarity (inferior and superior thoughtforms) it is very hard for them to manipulate or control you. The Controllers have no access to control Now Moment Consciousness and do not understand the self organization of God Force in Action. When you are capable to maintain and then embody energetic balance (through observer with no attachment to outcome) God Forces can access your being and bring resolution, reconciliation and peace to the most despairing of circumstances. Remember Fear closes the door to God Force while Balance (Peace and Love) Opens it.

Be Awake Without Living in Denial

One does not have to live in total denial in order to not be personally impacted by the incredible external chaos and human pain. Most people choose denial to avoid pain. If we deny dark force existence we then give it power to manipulate us masking as Gods Light. If we can see the chaos/pain as it is, accept it in the moment, we then have the power to invite God Source to Light the Way. Commanding your authority in Gods Eternal Light in the Face of the Darkness is much more effective in dissolving deception, lies and manipulation. The Dark has no chance when going face to face with the Transparent Truth. The Negative Entities controlled by Darkness are Ignorant of the Light, Ignorant of the Law and are deceivers. Dark Forces/ Ego forces are disconnected from Source light and will never tell the truth and never can be trusted as personal survival and feeding off others is their only priority. This is true for human beings possessed by these forces as well as interdimensional entities. As a result many lightworkers are deceived by Dark Masters, Negative Aliens saying they are “Jesus”, ”Mother Mary”, ArchAngel Michael and whomever they read in your ego you have a soft spot for.

Living in denial of the nature of reality ultimately will allow a blind spot in your ego to be manipulated by dark forces. Denial breeds deception breeds manipulation. Just because a person does not believe in negative forces or extraterrestrial involvement on this planet does not mean these same forces are not impacting his life. This is living like an ostrich with your head buried in the sand. Choosing to “know” means you must choose to grow up and become responsible. The planet is offering you two choices, evolve or stay in suffering. Staying in denial of your requirement to self responsibility to evolve will only prolong the mental agony. When you are informed, have evolutionary (ascension) context, you can choose and therefore are empowered. You have the personal power over what you choose as you gain knowledge and you can choose inner peace with your growth to learn self responsibility. As you participate with your growth, accept things as they are now, you will cease to suffer in pain.

The Social Sheeple Effect

However, for many humans with weak adaptive skills (which require mental and emotional flexibility), incredible mental frustration and emotional rage are apparent in the collective. Many people are being incited by the collective human mind and spinning out of control from its negative influence. Self discipline to self source the thought-form or emotion corrects this problem immediately. Ask yourself is this thought/emotion mine? Is this emotional manipulation or thought interference? Disidentify with the thought and emotion immediately and source its nature. Where is it coming from? Do you want to own it?

This lack of clarity regarding the necessity of psycho-emotional discipline to be a balanced healthy human is a massive issue in our society. This lack of self discipline breeds self entitled egomaniacs which lead to the social mass mind control of the “Sheeple Effect”. Sheeple are very easily plugged into the collective mind and controlled by the current fear program being propagated by the Controllers. ”Sheeple” are very easily manipulated and can be used to create more chaos and disruption as a distraction tactic.

Most times this is carried out by dark forces using a person’s righteous self indignation to prove his ego is right. Every Gridworker has been the recipient of a “sheeple” interference at some point, many times a clear Negative Alien possession of a human being. Currently Cataclysm, Weather manipulation, Psycho-tronic terrorism are their favorite fear program of choice. It their self interest to keep the larger public misinformed, uneducated, poverty stricken and painfully distracted in every way possible. When you are connected to your inner core, all of this is meaningless to you. Achieve inner balance and God devotion and then these items will cease to disturb you.

We all will witness more unprepared people and untrained minds undergoing confusion in this forced planetary change to transform ourselves. Many of us are here to guide the masses into re-education and rehabilitation from the lower ego mind. This evolution will impact everyone on this planet at whatever appointed timeline they have made an agreement to participate with the ascension process. We will see some people appear unaffected and others traumatized, while others live joyfully connected. None of that is our problem to fixate upon as we must focus on our inner person.

For most humans that have been habitually programmed into fears of basic survival, the intensity of the recent dismantle has been brutal. Basic stress management, positive thinking skills and emotional development to overcome trauma is mostly nonexistent in our social and educational systems. If the system manufacturers low adaptive skills it disempowers the individual to have the capacity to manage their own lives from accepting their own responsibility. This negative manipulation and thought control possession is rampant in the mass collective mind right now. How do you handle the stress of all you thought was reality, all you thought you were living for is actually not true? Let Go of All you Know. Free your Mind.

On the Other Side

For those of us that have made it to the other side, the inner peace and supportive energy has been nothing short of awe inspiring. (So this means YOU will get here too!) It is very clear that the Liquid Light of the Christ Sun Body is here, and we can feel it “living” inside our body. We are making a new residence for the Diamond Sun Crystal Body within our person and within this planet, and a joyful optimism is emanating from our hearts that we “made it”! We are learning the new “Diamond Sun” sensory language, as this is a new level of energetic communication that has completely changed the way we process information. This phase necessitated isolation to help the body prepare for its new configurations and well as explore how your body responds to this frequency alignment.

Many of us have recently had our 7D crucifixion implants released and are awaiting the monadic attunement in the next weeks to this merkabic circulatory system that runs the Krystic Living Light throughout our body. (This accelerated around June 1st when the magnetosphere adjusted and some of us began the ascension embodiment process reflecting that change moving us out of the lunar node connection to the solar node connection). This configuration is generating a completely different “spark current” set throughout the etheric-atomic body structure. This new spherical form is a “mirrored” ball of plasma waves generating throughout and around the radial body. (The radial body has the umbilicus that connects your entire Monadic Family all the way into your biology) These plasma waves are projected from a new “light” lens that moves in multiple complexities of axiatonal lines, nodes and transfiguration points throughout the merkabic circuitry. There are a host of bodily changes and symptoms.

The Solar Feminine Returns

Due to the recent planetary changes with the lunar forces, many women have endured massive changes to their bodies more dramatically than males at this time. The False Lunar control manipulated the magnetic fields, controlled the “magnetosphere” and generated an artificial frequency fence that suppressed humanity through transmitted mind control programs. This generates distorted magnetic sound waves that control matter compression rates that ultimately lead to the molecular compaction (death) of the physical body and sometimes the soul body. This magnetic compaction rate of the physical body (which accelerated the dead light miasma) is one reason why the physical human has been disabled from embodying its higher frequency Monadic body.

In March when the Unity Source Code architecture anchored into this planet, many of us (the “ascension prototypers”) went to work on embodying this new female template, the Solar Plating of the Feminine Principle. This is changing the lunar field distortion and its artificial magnetic imprints in how it has impacted our female cycles and biorhythms. This also has to do with a massive suppression insert in our pineal gland being removed. There are a host of bodily changes and symptoms.

Our entire endocrine system and how it produces, distributes and assimilates hormones into the bloodstream is slowly adjusting. Our entire biochemistry and bio-resonance is shifting. The menstrual cycle, as well as the female reproductive organs, are undergoing rejuvenation and harness/implant/artifact releases. This is creating all kinds of interesting to painful side effects as the body adjusts to stabilize this new hormonal and blood chemistry.

Our digestive system is undergoing a complete overhaul. In most cases very little solid food with a ton of fluids is required and will make you feel much more comfortable. Because of the incredible high frequency the digestive system and metabolic system slow down massively, and all energy is required for frequency integration. This means your liver is busy and there is no peristalsis movement in your intestines. Reducing your diet to liquids, puddings and small amounts of high nutrient foods that are super easy to move through - are your best choice if you are experiencing this. At this point if you consume anything solid or hard to digest foods - you will experience, high bloating distension, gas, belching and fermentation in your gut. It’s not pretty and feels bad.

As we are integrating more light, we are changing the mitochondrial DNA (sources from mother) and how we utilize energy conversion in the cell. We used to require more carbohydrate consumption to convert usable energy to operate our bodily functions. The stabilized light quotient of our Aura is now reflected in the ATP energy distribution in our cells. (ATP transports chemical energy within cells for metabolism.) Clearly it appears we will be consuming much less food from now on. (For more on ATP : 

Rod and Staff Unions

These assigned Starseed couplings have been a work in progress in the planetary field architecture since February of 2009 to sequentially dismantle the polarity (bi-wave) Vesica Pisces harness and the NRG program headquartered in the United Kingdom. The use of these structures on the planet is to collect, siphon and transpose life force and sexual energy from human beings. (To override this extreme polarity distortion these couples build a platform for the tri-wave field which allows true tantric (heart) union to occur.) The revelation hidden inside these “unions” are astounding as they have so many different dimensions of purpose for the Ascension process.

Some of these unions are genetically purposed to work on templating the transfiguration Orb architecture in the Merkaba body, as both Rod and Staff corrected principles are required to enable this function in the Diamond Sun Crystal Body. As the Female principle (Staff) holds the Monadic Blueprint architecture to infuse the Mother Aquamarine 13th Gateway, the Solar Father RA Rod principle unites with her to open the Inner Stargate within a 45 degree spinning field that collapses into a Transharmonic Orb body. That Inner Stargate is located inside our core Diamond Sun body and enables complete transfiguration of our physical and auric body to occur.

As the physical body dematerializes pulling its particle mass into the center of the body core, the mass is pulled into the core at a 45 degree angle from four sides. Upon the dematerialization collapse, the Orb field spins in 360 degrees aligned to zero point/144. The inner spinning core opens into the Universal Monadic Core and every direction and movement ( into any event horizon) possibility opens into the consciousness awareness field. Moving around from inside of this Orb Body feels like “sliding”. Similar to a slippery monorail, there is a directional movement of the consciousness field perception of “sliding” back and forth. It’s a little like having sea legs after sailing on a boat and returning back to walk on land. This experience has a definite change of “grounding” as your sense of self perception and “whereabouts” is nothing we know here on Earth!

Clearly the Mother has a lot of surprises up her sleeve for us still, and having the capacity to become a Free Transfiguring Ascended Orb in our Universe, appears to be another possibility left for us to ponder.

Thank you to the ES community and all planetary gridworkers who have been committed to their clearing work and in all ways that are supporting our planet to Ascension. In celebration of our four year anniversary of the ES internet community this 9/11, we have included a bonus meditation clearing treatment for all of our readers. As you feel guided from within your personal 12 D field, this Guardian meditation has specific language to clear and to be released from the 911 Armageddon software and its mind control implantation. This Guardian meditation is the energetic architecture override of the Alpha Omega Agenda also known as the Negative Alien 911 timeline. (This is the mission and purpose of our ES community.) Commit to human freedom and let us know how you do!

Here is the meditation link to share:

Until next, stay in the luminosity of your Avatar Heart Path! Be Gentle with your hearts and each other.

Love Always, Lisa

© 2010, Lisa Renee - Please note in order to distribute this Newsletter in other forums please do so with the following guidelines: Include author's credit, copyright and include the ES website url.


"To offer no resistance to life is to be in a state of grace, ease, and lightness. This state is then no longer dependent upon things being in a certain way, good or bad. It seems almost paradoxical, yet when your inner dependency on form is gone, the general conditions of your life, the outer forms, tend to improve greatly. Things, people, or conditions that you thought you needed for your happiness now come to you with no struggle or effort on your part, and you are free to enjoy and appreciate them - while they last. All those things, of course, will still pass away, cycles will come and go, but with dependency gone there is no fear of loss anymore. Life flows with ease.” – Eckhart Tolle.

"Let go of the Past.
Let go of the Future.
Let go of the Present.
With a heart that is Free.
Cross over to that shore which is beyond suffering."

- Buddha.

Dealing withyour darkness instead of denying it

5 Stages of Healing

   1. i walk down the street.

      there is a deep hole in the sidewalk

      i fall in. i am lost ....i am hopeless.

      it isn't my fault.

      it takes forever to find a way out.

   2. i walk down the same street.

      there is a deep hole in the sidewalk.

      i pretend i don't see it.

      i fall in again.

      i can't believe i'm in the same place.

      but it isn't my fault.

      it still takes a long time to get out.

   3. i walk down the same street.

      there is a deep hole in the sidewalk

      i see it is there.

      i still fall's a habit

      my eyes are open

      i know where i am

      it is MY fault.

      i get out immediately.

   4. i walk down the same street.

      there is a deep hole in the sidewalk

      i walk around it.

   5. i walk down another street.


 Intoxicated with the madness, I'm in love with my sadness
Bullshit fakers, enchanted kingdoms
The fashion victims chew their charcoal teeth
I never let on, that I was on a sinking ship
I never let on that I was down
You blame yourself, for what you can't ignore.

- The Smashing Pumpkins (from the lyrics of ‘Zero,’ on the album Mellon Collie and the Infinite Sadness).


A friend: This lady was passing my tarot table and she told me, "You need to make the cards cry." My readings jumped up to the next level that day, as I stopped being concerned with tap dancing around the so called negative cards.

Antraeus: Yeah! I love that. We are taught that feeling feeling feeling is the answer...feel through the darkness to reach the Light. It's the only way. Feel all the pain we've locked away, the emotions we've denied life after life, release and be free, surrender and fly!


Why do you insist on pandering to the minds of the insane?

By Jayem

Extract from the awesomely powerful 32nd Darshan (Reflections) of the Enlightening Way of Mastery On-Line Ashram

"A key question Jeshua once asked me:

                                  Why do you insist on pandering to the minds of the insane?

Though ego won’t be comfortable with this question, I would suggest you make your home in the breathing, sit back in your easy chair, and ask it, noticing what images/memories, come up... Allow them, look at them.... We are ALL under the spell of this ‘pandering’ (fear makes it happen), and this simple practice can be very liberating and healing.

Here is a great summation of the PathWay:

1. Turn within

2. Discover all obstacles you have created against love

3. Know your True Self

4.Be Free

No, it won’t happen on a boring Saturday, but IF it is what is desired, it IS inevitable.

Key idea: Hope has NOTHING to do with Reality.

Key idea: “To know Love, give love.”

When we begin to find ways to share what we have been given, we actually enter a new stage of learning that deepens our realization of what Love really is. This further learning, further purifies and awakens us.

Jeshua: ‘Until you have given all you have received, your receiving is not yet complete.’ It is a transition from Studentship to Servantship. Wonder question: Where am I – truly – in giving away to others what I have received?


Deliberately make it part of your prayer, part of your desire and intention, daily, to help alleviate the suffering of others. Don’t worry... God will do the rest!

Key idea: The flow of love MEETS NO OBSTACLES

What?!!!!!! We all believe our attempts to love DO meet obstacles. And they are ‘out there’.

But, in fact, the obstacles are our resistances to the flow of love. Seeking these out is important!

Wonder question: What seems to prevent or block the flow of love through me?

Example: Not being understood

I need to know i am safe, first

I need it to be returned.

What other obstacles (can you see each is really a core belief/requirement we are making up?) can you discover as you simply ask the question, breathe, and observe what comes up????"

Navigating the Stages of Emotional Clearing

By Nicole Canter

7 April 2003

Have you ever found yourself in the midst of a painful emotional issue and couldn’t find your way out? Ever had one of those times when you thought you were done clearing it only to find yourself right back in it? I have and I don’t know about you but I find emotional clearing to be hairy, scary stuff. It’s like trying to find your way through a jungle full of quick sand pits and deep cavernous holes - one needs a really good, really detailed map. Throughout my childhood and into my adult life, I got stuck in the quick sand many times because I didn’t know how to navigate the stages of emotional clearing. So how do we move through the stages of emotional clearing? And just what is it?

Emotional Clearing

Emotional clearing the process by which you peel off the layers of your emotional blocks, transmuting dense energies of anger, shame, and guilt etc., contained in each layer into compassion. Those layers are kept repressed and sealed in our emotional body until they are released to come to the surface (triggered into action) through the conflicts that come our way. At that point we become conscious of them.

Stages of Emotional Clearing

Once the energies formerly held with in a layer have reached the surface, we begin the process of clearing them. This clearing involves moving through a series of stages that enable us to physically and emotionally release those energies from our body while at the same time, integrating the fear which is at the root of them and learning the lesson involved. Whew! That was a long sentence!

Sometimes the clearing is mild because the stuck energies are mild but sometimes the clearing is very painful, escalating into a full-blown conflict with someone. Let me just say that regardless of whether it is mild or major it ain’t easy! It’s like trying to climb up out of one of those very big, very deep holes!

Why would we want to do emotional clearing?

That’s a really good question. There are many payoffs to emotional clearing. One is ascension - we must lighten our bodies in order to ascend and we can do this through releasing old stuck energies that make it dense. We do it in order to have better more satisfying relationships. We do it in order to have greater mental and emotional health.

Thanks to months and months of painful lessons with my husband Shaun I have finally learned to navigate the stages of emotional clearing - at least enough to write this article. All that I can say is bless Shaun’s heart for hanging in there with me. It has been a challenge to say the least! Clearing with one’s partner can be very frustrating because we’re constantly being forced to look at a mirror of ourselves. We can’t get away! Over and over we demand to know why we would have agreed to this pain and agony. Once we figure out that this is a process and we see the higher perspective, we’re able to move forward with a little more ease and grace each time.

The Process

The emotional clearing process is a process that takes us from the 3D perspective all the way into the multidimensional perspective where we can transmute the emotion out of our physical and emotional bodies. It begins with our *Inner Child (IC) being triggered into reaction and ends with us finding the higher, multidimensional understanding of the emotional issue at hand. In case you’re not familiar with the Inner Child, I’m talking about that little child inside of each of us, and although he or she behaves just like a small child, their real job is to protect our physical bodies from damage. The Inner Child does this through fear, but that fear becomes unbalanced when he or she begins to take over our emotions with it.

Also, keep in mind that you may not realise what is occurring until you get used to going through emotional clearing and recognise being triggered, and even then the first few stages (roughly 1-4) are often unconscious.

Stage 1: The Trigger

The first thing that happens when an issue arises is that my Inner Child (me) gets triggered. ‘Triggers’ are in our lives to bring up undesirable feelings from old, core emotional issues that we have failed to clear in the past. A trigger can be anything that elicits feelings of anger, guilt, shame, fear, or any other ‘negative’ emotion. It lets me know a boundary has been crossed or that an old hurt is still buried deep within. It can be person or even a situation (such as stumping my toe) that triggers me, and I always know it because I react. Sometimes the reaction is mild, like a subtle emotion and/or physical sensation, but there is always some degree of physical or emotional reaction (or both), even if it is just a faster heartbeat for a few seconds.

When I clear an emotional block, I normally clear one or more layers off of the core emotional issue, resulting in the trigger affecting me less and less each time. Once I fully clear the issue, however, the trigger melts away as if it were never there.

Stage 2:  Identifying the Trigger through Anger

When we react to a trigger, we react, at the most basic level, in fear, because fear is the lowest frequency emotion. Sometimes I will literally be afraid, and I may even feel shame or guilt, but most often I will react in anger. Why anger? My Inner Child has been hurt and she will express that hurt with anger in order to protect me from feeling this hurt. Think of it as a shield to attempt to stop the pain from continuing by taking offensive action. Have you ever heard ‘the best defence is a good offence?’ The Inner Child thinks so!

Both Shaun and I have a core issue involving abandonment, and we always act as each other’s primary triggers regarding this issue. For example, when Shaun triggers my abandonment issue, I almost always react in anger first. The scenario usually goes like this: I make a decision to do something and I tell him about it. He comments, and I tell him he is trying to control me and I get very angry. But sometimes, I feel more subtle emotions instead, such as fear or guilt. The reason that they are more subtle, though, is because my Inner Child doesn’t really want to feel these emotions (which are an even lower frequency than anger), so she uses anger as our primary defence/offence.

Sometimes I am extremely angry before I even realise that I have been triggered. It’s almost like I go on Inner Child Auto Pilot! But the more experienced I get at this stuff I find that I can identify the trigger sooner.

Stage 3: Projection and Blaming

Once my Inner Child is sufficiently angry, she will take that shield of anger and deflect the feelings back to the other person by blaming them. This way my Inner Child and I do not have to take responsibility for creating our own reality, i.e., the pain we are feeling. Can you believe that in the past I have actually blamed Shaun for me stumping my own toe, when he was several rooms away in the house? Well I have because I couldn’t bear the pain of taking responsibility. This most interesting phenomenon is also called projecting.

So using my abandonment issue example, when I project back to Shaun when we’re having an ‘abandonment trigger,’ I point the finger at him and tell him he is controlling me and that is why I am miserable, sad, mad, etc. My Inner Child is not willing to acknowledge that this is OUR issue at this point, and so we will try to make it Shaun’s problem until we are ready to take responsibility.


Stage 4: Reaction/Projection and Blame by Trigger

Once I have reacted and blamed the ‘trigger,’ they will usually react as well, also feeling hurt, and point the finger back at me. This usually results in an argument, which may last for a few minutes or a few days depending on what layer of the block I’m trying to clear. You can see what a vicious circle this is!

For example, once I have blown up in Shaun’s face, he reacts and blows up in mine. His Inner Child isn’t willing to take on my pain, and if he has pain involved he doesn’t want to take responsibility for it either. So he points the finger at me, and we continue doing this until we get tired of arguing. Ugh!

It is worth mentioning that if someone has been consciously emotionally clearing for a while then they may react differently. I’m referring to when you can consciously see the trigger coming and choose to react differently. This means that you have almost cleared the block. But don’t beat yourself up if you’re not here yet - old habits die hard! Believe me - I KNOW!!

Stage 5:  Expressing and Releasing the Anger

This is the stage where I usually begin to get a hold of myself and get with my Inner Child about what is going on. I want to strongly emphasise that all of this seemingly ‘negative’ stuff is OK! Your feelings are valid and it is ok to let your Inner Child express and react in an appropriate manner, i.e., expressing your feelings without hurting yourself and others. You may need to make agreements with your Inner Child regarding expressing so that both of you will feel safe while doing so.**

It is also very important that you express both verbally and physically in order to move the energy out of both the physical and emotional body. I have found it very useful to both yell and scream as well as write what I call a ‘bitch and vent.’ A bitch and vent may be as mild as a complaint or as explosive as a neutron bomb, with words of course. You can do this how and where you feel comfortable, but if you choose to bitch and vent to someone in particular, it is wise to ask them if you can unload on them first. If you don’t, they may react in anger. I also find an appropriate item to use physically, such as a foam or plastic baseball bat or a pillow, and then I hit my bed or the floor with it. I recommend any of these because I can’t hurt myself or others (or my possessions) by hitting something soft with something soft. When I am finished expressing I always know it because I feel lighter. If I don’t know I am done, then I keep going until I know I am done.

I can’t stress enough here that the main thing to keep in mind is that it is OK to express your anger, etc., and not to censor your Inner Child in any way regarding his or her feelings or thoughts. Let your IC express his or her feelings and validate those feelings with something like ‘I hear ya!’ or ‘You go!’ By embracing and allowing this ‘dark’ expression to come through, you will be able to integrate the fear and anger you are experiencing much faster.***

Of course, during our initial argument Shaun and I always release some anger. Sometimes we even sit there for an hour and bitch and scream at each other. We have mixed feelings afterward about this, because while we’re both sorry for what has transpired we both feel so much lighter and better! But other times we have to go out on our own and express the anger, and I always do what I recommended above.

Stage 6:  Finding and Recognising the Mirror

In this stage I begin to step back and realise that I have an issue with the other person and we begin to consciously process by expressing how we feel to each other. Optimally we both engage in this, but if I have to continue without the other’s participation then it’s is ok. Also know that this step of the process takes an indefinite amount of time, all depending on the level of communication between me and my Inner Child. We usually start with an intellectual process and end with my Inner Child expressing her true emotional feelings that are at the core of the trigger. This is my goal - true, honest expression of my emotions. This is the language of the Inner Child.

Once I can be honest with myself, I am ready to look for the mirror and own it. Finding the mirror, or seeing myself in the other person, always shows me how I have treated my Inner Child. Owning the mirror means that I am ready to take full responsibility for my pain and my actions. It means being brutally honest with myself and with others, even if it hurts. So in my example, I said that Shaun was controlling, etc. But now I can see how I have controlled my Inner Child and not let her express herself or be who she really is because I am afraid of Shaun abandoning me. Now that’s a hard one to swallow, and for both of us because my Inner Child fears that I will abandon her out of blame. Hmmm…see a pattern here?

Stage 7: Clearing the Mirror by Taking Responsibility and Validating Pain

This is when I use multidimensional tools to ‘get’ the lesson, take responsibility and release myself and the other person from blame.  This is what we call, ‘clearing the mirror.’  The tools I use are multidimensional tools known as the 7 Keys of Compassion.  I use the Formula of Compassion (the 1st Key) and the Compassion Key (the 2nd Key), to clear the mirror and they work great! By using these tools I am always able to see the higher perspective and once I do I beam from ear to ear with gratitude for the person who is my trigger and always want to thank him/her for their role in the lesson. Once I can do this, I know and feel that I have ‘gotten’ it! Then I can congratulate myself for peeling yet another layer off of my emotional issues! Yay!

Once I get the lesson and am able to take responsibility for my part in the issue point, I am able to validate the other person’s pain and hurt. Validation means being able to apologise for pain I have caused the other person by my actions without any excuses or defending my behaviour. I speak to the pain by describing it as if it were happening to me.  This is an important step, and can only be reached after I can emotionally connect with the other person’s pain. In the example of the conflict between Shaun and I, this is where I say to him, ‘Shaun I am sorry that I accused you of trying to control me.  I am sorry that I didn’t come to you to discuss my idea before I made my decision. I am sorry that I didn’t treat you as a partner, and because of determination to have it my way, I accused you to trying to control….which is what I was doing!  And so I am so very sorry for the pain that my accusation caused.’

I have to let them know that I heard and felt them by repeating what it is that they are hurt over, and apologizing for causing the pain. It doesn’t matter if I intended to cause pain or not - if I can feel their pain I am always able to validate it. And most of the time, all the other person wants is to hear is that I’m sorry they are hurting. Know that this doesn’t include any pledge to change my behaviour - I am simply validating their pain.

But what if I find that I cannot validate the other’s pain and hurt? What do I do then? I have to go back and talk with my Inner Child because I know that she is blocking me from feeling the other person’s pain. Why? Because she fears that I will abandon her if I feel Shaun’s pain. She blocks me from feeling Shaun’s pain because it is a type or level of pain that I have told her that I never want to feel…hence the blocking. So I make an agreement with my Inner Child that I will not abandon her if I feel Shaun’s feelings. I know when she has agreed because I begin to feel the pain of the other this case, Shaun’s pain.

So that’s it...those are the stages of emotional clearing. Just knowing about the stages and knowing what to expect has given me great comfort when I am in the midst of my issues. Each time I go through them I figure them out a little bit more and so am able to crawl up out of my proverbial hole a little faster. It is my hope that with this article you will have a clear enough map to navigate through your jungle of emotional clearing and find your way of your own emotional holes.


[Note:- For further insights on this subject I recommend Jelaila Starr’s related article ‘Let’s Get Real about Ascension! Part 1,’ 27 January 2000,].

Nicole Canter, Galactic Counselor
Blue Star Services
Nibiruan Council Galactic Counselor Network

Additional Reading

*For more information on working with your Inner Child:
The Soul/Ego/Self Partnership” the 3rd Key of Compassion.
**For more information on creating Agreements with your Inner Child:
and “The Open Door” the 4th Key of Compassion.
***For more information on integrating and embracing the Dark polarity:
Dancing with the Dark
” the 6th Key of Compassion.

About the author

Nicole is a gifted clairvoyant whose abilities enable her to access information on both a galactic and spiritual level. For starseeds and walk -ins this is a godsend since discovering their identity and identifying their missions involves both. As a galactic counselor, Nicole assists individuals to see beyond the illusions and beliefs that hold them back so that they can free themselves to fulfill the divine purpose for which they came. Nicole can be reached at (256) 881-1697. Email:

'From My Diary'

By Hermann Hesse (1918)

Last night I had a lot of dreams without being able to remember any of them clearly. All I am sure of is that the context and feeling of these dreams ran in two directions: some were concerned exclusively with all sorts of sorrow that befell me – the others with longing and striving to overcome this sorrow through complete understanding, through holiness.

            Thus between suffering and contemplation, between despair and profoundest effort, my thoughts, wishes and fantasies lashed themselves for hours against narrow walls, to the point of excruciating exhaustion, and at times were transformed into half-obscure bodily feelings: precisely circumscribed, most clearly differentiated states of sorrow, misery and weariness of heart presented themselves palpably in pictures and harmonies, and at the same time from another region of the soul emerged impulses of greater spiritual vigour. Admonitions to be patient, to fight, to persevere on the road that has no end. A sob here was matched by a courageous forward stride there; a feeling of torment on one level was answered on another level by an exhortation, an urge, a self-realisation. If there is any sense at all in dwelling on such experiences, bending attentively over the depths and abysses one bears within oneself, then this sense can only be disclosed if we try to follow the impulses of our souls as faithfully and accurately as possible – much further and much deeper than words can reach. Whoever tries to make a record of this does so with the same feeling one would have in attempting to discuss delicate and difficult personal matters in a foreign language of which one had but a smattering.

            And so my condition and radius of experience was this: on the one hand endurance of great sorrow, on the other a conscious striving to master this sorrow, to achieve complete harmony with fate. This was approximately the judgement of my consciousness or, rather, a first voice audible within my consciousness. A second voice, fainter, but deeper and more resonant, put the matter differently. This voice (which like the first one I heard clearly but far off in my sleep and dream) did not call the suffering wrong and my vigorous mental struggle for perfection right, but rather meted out right and wrong to both sides. This second voice sang of the sweetness of suffering, it sang of its necessity, it had no interest in mastering or eliminating it but only in deepening and illuminating it.

            The first voice, roughly translated into words, said something like this: ‘Suffering is suffering, there’s no argument about that. It hurts. It is painful. But there are forces that can overcome it. Well then, seek out those forces, cultivate them, put them to work, calm yourself by them! You would be a fool and a weakling to want to go on suffering and suffering forever.’

            But the second voice said something like this: ‘Suffering only hurts because you fear it. Suffering only hurts because you complain about it. It pursues you only because you flee from it. You must not flee, you must not complain, you must not fear. You must love. You know all this yourself, you know quite well, deep within you, that there is only a single magic, a single power, a single salvation and a single happiness, and that is called loving. Well then, love your suffering. Do not resist it, do not flee from it. Taste how sweet it is in its essence, give yourself to it, do not meet it with aversion. It is only your aversion that hurts, nothing else. Sorrow is not sorrow, death is not death if you do not make them so! Suffering is magnificent music – the moment you give ear to it. But you never listen to it; you always have a different, private, stubborn music and melody in your ear which you will not relinquish and with which the music of suffering will not harmonise. Listen to me! Listen to me, and remember: suffering is nothing, suffering is illusion. Only you yourself create it, only you cause yourself pain!’

            And so in addition to the suffering and the will to escape, there were also constant conflict and tension between the two voices. The first, the one closer to consciousness, had much to say for itself. To the dim realm of the unconscious it opposed its own clarity. On its side it had the authorities, Moses and the Prophets, father and mother, the school, Kant and Fichte. The second voice sounded farther off, as though emerging from the unconscious and from suffering itself. It did not create a safe island in the midst of chaos, it did not throw light into the darkness. It was itself dark, it was itself primal cause.

            It is impossible now to describe how the two voices developed in concert. Each of the two original voices in fact divided, and each new secondary voice divided again but not as to constitute two choruses standing opposite to each other, as for instance a brighter and darker, a higher and lower, a male and female, or whatever. No, rather each new voice contained something of both dominant voices, echoes of chaos and echoes of the formative will, day and night, male and female in new and unique combination. Each voice always had the diametrically opposed character to the voice whose child and offspring it seemed to be. A new secondary voice springing from the chaotic mother voice always sounded manlier and clearer, more purposeful, cooler, more sharply defined – and vice versa. But each was a mixture, each had been created out of yearning for the other principle.

            Thus a polyphony and multiplicity emerged in which it seemed to me the whole world together with all its millions of possibilities was contained. Each possibility was contained. Each possibility was counterbalanced by its opposite; the whole world seemed to be running its course in my dreaming soul to the accompaniment of constant muted pain. There were power and drive in its career, but also much friction, restraint and agonising limitation. The world revolved, it revolved beautifully and passionately, but the axle groaned and smoked.

            As I have said, I know nothing more about what I dreamed. The notes have disappeared, only the signature of the melodies and voices is recorded in my memory. All I know is I endured much that was bad, and at every new pain the valiant concept of freedom and redemption was kindled afresh. So here was presented an eternal process, a round of impulse and acceptance, of creation and endurance, of action and suffering – without end.

            In witnessing this I was in distress. The whole had more the flavour of sorrow than of joy, and where the dream states took on bodily feelings, these were painful; my head ached. I was dizzy and faint.

            Manifold were the events that befell me and to each new experience or sorrow a new voice gave answer, and on each assault followed an inner exhortation. Examples emerged, among them I saw the Staretz Zossima of The Brothers Karamazov appear as model and teacher. But that primeval maternal voice, eternal and constantly reformed, dissented each time or, rather, it did not dissent but gave me the feeling of a beloved being turning away from me and shaking her head in silence.

            ‘Accept no examples!’ this voice seemed to say. ‘Examples do not exist, they are something you simply make up for yourself out of pretence. To imitate examples is flummery. Right action comes of itself. Just suffer, my son, just suffer and drain the cup to the dregs! The harder you try to avoid it the bitterer the drink will be. The coward drinks his fate like poison or medicine, you must drink yours like wine and fire. Then it will taste sweet.

            But it tasted bitter and all night long the wheel of the world rolled on, groaning and smoking on its axle. On the one hand was blind nature, on the other the seeing spirit – but the seeing spirit kept transforming itself into blind, dead, sterile things: into morality, into philosophy, into formulas; and blind nature kept constantly opening an eye here or there, a marvellous, moist soul eye, shy and bright. Nothing remained true to its name. Nothing remained true to its essence. Everything was ‘just’ names, everything was ‘just’ essence and, behind it all, life’s sanctuary and the mystery of vocation receded farther and farther into new, more distant, more frightening mirror depths. So would my world roll on smoking, as long as the axle held.

            When I awoke the night was almost past. I did not look at the clock – I was not wide awake enough for that – but for a short time I kept my eyes open and saw the pale morning light falling on the window sill, on the chair and on my clothes. The arm of my shirt hanging loose and somewhat twisted challenged my pictorial imagination – nothing in the world is more fruitful and stimulating to our souls than twilight – a wavering spot of white in the darkness, a dissolving system of gray and black shadows against a misty background.

            But I did not respond to the challenge of turning the dangling white form into a whirl of dancing girls, circling nebulas, snowy summits or holy statues. I still lay under the spell of the long dream sequence and my consciousness did no more than register the fact that I hoped I could fall asleep again. Rain drummed softly on the roof and on the window sill. Sadness, pain and emptiness filled me; in flight I closed my eyes and crept back into the region of sleep and dreams.

            However, I did not fully recover those dreams. I remained in a tenuous, fragile half sleep where I felt neither weariness nor pain. And now I had another experience, something like dream and yet not a dream, something like thought and yet not thinking, something like a vision, something like a momentary flooding of the unconscious with the bright beams of consciousness.

            In my light morning half sleep I encountered a holy man. Half the time it seemed as if I myself were the holy man, thought his thoughts, had his feelings; and half the time I saw him as another person, separate form me, but penetrated by my understanding and most intimately known. It was as though I saw him and it was also as though I heard or read about him. It was as though I were telling myself about this holy man and as though he were telling me about himself; or as if he were living out something before my eyes that I experienced as my very own.

            The holy man – no matter whether he was or whoever – the holy man suffered a great sorrow. But I cannot write about this as though it had happened to anyone but myself, I experienced and felt it. I felt that my most precious thing had been taken from me, my children had died or were at that moment dying before my eyes.  And they were not only my real, physical children with their eyes and foreheads, their little hands and voices – they were also my spiritual children and possessions that I saw there dying and deserting me, they were my very own most personal dearest thoughts and poems, they were my art, my thinking, the delight of my eyes and my life. More than this could not be taken from me. Nothing more grievous, more horrible could happen than that these dear eyes should grow dim and no longer know me, that these dear lips should no longer breathe.

            This I experienced – or the holy man did. He closed his eyes and smiled, and in this mild smile there was all the suffering that can in any way be conceived, there was the admission of every weakness, every love, every vulnerability.

            But it was beautiful and tranquil, this faint smile of pain, and it remained unchanged and beautiful on his countenance. Thus a tree looks in the autumn when the last golden leaves flutter down, thus the old earth will look when its remaining life disappears in ice or fire. It was pain, it was sorrow, deepest sorrow – but there was no resistance, no denial. It was agreement, resignation, obedience, it was knowledge and acquiescence. The holy man sacrificed and praised the sacrifice. He suffered and he smiled. He did not harden his heart and yet he survived, for he was immortal. He accepted joy and love and gave them away, gave them back – but not to a stranger, rather to the fate that was his own. As a thought subsides into memory and a gesture sinks into rest, so the holy man’s children and all the possessions of his love subsided, faded away in pain – not lost, but gathered into his own inner depths. They had disappeared, not been killed. They were transformed, not destroyed. They had gone back into the depths, into the inside of the world and the inside of the sufferer. They had been life and had become symbols, in the way that everything is a symbol and at some time perishes in pain in order that, as a new symbol, it may wear a different dress.

From My Belief: Essays on Life and Art by Hermann Hesse

Triad/Panther Books 1976, p.52-58

A Meal at Milliways


“Ford staggered back to the table where Zaphod, Arthur and Trillian are sitting waiting for the fun to begin.

‘Gotta have some food,’ said Ford.

...The waiter approached.

‘Would you like to see the menu?’ he said, ‘or would you like to meet the Dish of the Day?’”

A large dairy animal approached Zaphod Beeblebrox’s table, a large fat meaty quadruped of the bovine type with large watery eyes, small horns and what might almost have been an ingratiating smile on its lips. ‘Good evening’, it lowed and sat back heavily on its haunches, ‘I am the main Dish of the Day. May I interest you in the parts of my body?’

It harrumphed and gurgled a bit, wriggled its hind quarters in to a more comfortable position and gazed peacefully at them. Its gaze was met by looks of startled bewilderment from Arthur and Trillian, a resigned shrug from Ford Prefect and naked hunger from Zaphod Beeblebrox.

‘Something off the shoulder perhaps?’ suggested the animal, ‘Braised in a white wine sauce?’ ‘Er, your shoulder?’ said Arthur in a horrified whisper. ‘But naturally my shoulder, sir,’ mooed the animal contentedly, ‘nobody else’s is mine to offer.’

Zaphod leapt to his feet and started prodding and feeling the animal’s shoulder appreciatively. ‘Or the rump is very good,’ murmured the animal. ‘I’ve been exercising it and eating plenty of grain, so there’s a lot of good meat there.’

It gave a mellow grunt, gurgled again and started to chew the cud. It swallowed the cud again. ‘Or a casserole of me perhaps?’ it added. ‘You mean this animal actually wants us to eat it?’ whispered Trillian to Ford. ‘Me?’ said Ford, with a glazed look in his eyes, ‘I don’t mean anything.

‘That’s absolutely horrible,’ exclaimed Arthur, ‘the most revolting thing I’ve ever heard.’ ‘What’s the problem Earthman?’ said Zaphod, now transferring his attention to the animal’s enormous rump. ‘I just don’t want to eat an animal that’s standing there inviting me to,’ said Arthur, ‘It’s heartless.’

‘Better than eating an animal that doesn’t want to be eaten,’ said Zaphod. ‘That’s not the point,’ Arthur protested. Then he thought about it for a moment. ‘Alright,’ he said, ‘maybe it is the point. I don’t care, I’m not going to think about it now. I’ll think I’ll just have a green salad,’ he muttered. ‘May I urge you to consider my liver?’ asked the animal, ‘it must be very rich and tender by now, I’ve been force-feeding myself for months.’

‘A green salad,’ said Arthur emphatically. ‘A green salad?’ said the animal, rolling his eyes disapprovingly at Arthur. ‘Are you going to tell me,’ said Arthur, ‘that I shouldn’t have green salad?’ ‘Well,’ said the animal, ‘I know many vegetables that are very clear on that point. Which is why it was eventually decided to cut through the whole tangled problem and breed an animal that actually wanted to be eaten and was capable of saying so clearly and distinctly. And here I am.’ It managed a very slight bow.

‘Glass of water please,’ said Arthur. ‘Look,’ said Zaphod, ‘we want to eat, we don’t want to make a meal of the issues. Four rare stakes please, and hurry. We haven’t eaten in five hundred and seventy-six thousand million years.’

-The Restaurant at the End of the Universe, Chapter 17, by Douglas Adams (William Heinemann, London, U.K., 1980).

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    “Water is the only drink for a wise man.” ~ Henry David Thoreau

    How to Charge your Water:

    Each one try this, and if you do not feel results at first, just go on, for you certainly will as you use it more and more: 

    "'I AM' the Presence charging this water with the Life-giving Essence which I absorb and which renews my body in Perfect Health and Eternal Youth." 

    I also used this to charge the water that makes up my body - I placed my hands on my body stating:

    "'I AM' the Presence charging the water in this body with the Life-giving Essence which I absorb and which renews my body in Perfect Health and Eternal Youth." 

    Another way from Quan Yin to charge water:

    "With these hands and with this Heart and through the pure intention of God, this water (food) is blessed, removing and transmuting all impurities forever. God Bless this water (food). Thank you, thank you, thank you."

    7th-dimensional tool from St Germain for energising the water in our bodies and the earth

    (Our water is under attack!)


    "In a world filled with hate - we must still dare to hope!
    In a world filled with anger - we must still dare to comfort!
    In a world filled with despair - we must still dare to dream!
    And in a world filled with distrust - we must still dare to believe."
    - Michael Jackson

    Love is what matters. Indigo must shift to Crystal, to full consciousness. By demonstrating unconditional love in all his dealings with people and under all pressure Michael passed on to the summit of the astral realms. John Lennon - referring to himself as an ascended master - introduced him as 'Moonwalker' in the channelling circle I was in for a brief time. So he is a powerful guide and through continued loving service to humanity will soon ascend to the 5th dimension himself.

    "What we need to learn from children isn't childish. Being with them connects us to the deeper wisdom of life which is ever-present and only asks to be lived. They know the way to solutions that lie waiting to be recognised within our own heart. Today, I would like to thank all the children of the world including the sick and deprived. I am so sensitive to your pain." - Michael Jackson (at the 35th Annual Grammy Awards, 24 February 1993, Los Angeles, California).

    "The whole world abounds in magic. When a whale plunges out of the sea like a newborn mountain, you gasp in unexpected delight. What magic! But a toddler who sees his first tadpole flashing in a mud puddle feels the same thrill. Wonder fills the heart, because he has glimpsed for an instant the playfulness of life." - Michael Jackson (From 'Magic,' Dancing The Dream, 1992)

    “We have to heal our wounded world. The chaos, despair and senseless destruction we see today are the result of the alienation that people feel from each other and their environment. Often this alienation has its roots in an emotionally deprived childhood. Children have had their childhood stolen from them. A child’s mind needs the nourishment of mystery, magic, wonder and excitement. I want my work to help people rediscover the child that’s hiding in them.” – Michael Jackson (Dancing the Dream, 1992, p.80).

    "And my goal in life is to give to the world what I was lucky to receive: the ecstasy of divine union through my music and my dance." - Michael Jackson

    Breathe deeply!

    Breathing fully means that we are allowing our connection to the Source. Shallow breathing is a sign of denial of, and resistance to, our Divinity

    "Fill yourselves with love, with joy. Breathe in the prana. Breathe deeply. The prana is once again available to you, in such magnitudes as you have not known since Atlantis. It is the Elixir of Light, it is the Love of all Creation, it is the Adamantine Particles, it is the foundation of all life, all Creation. You have The All available to you, by simply breathing deeply throughout your day. A gift from the Creator. Take advantage of this blessed gift and breathe deeply, Dear Ones. You will lift yourselves up once again to the heights which you are soon to experience, a civilisation far surpassing Atlantis, as this time, there will be no darkness. There will be no misuse of power. You have come through the darkness and are emerging into the light and the light will allow no darkness. That Dear Ones is the beauty of the Now Moment which you are entering. You have succeeded and you will live and breathe the Love and the light and the joy and the peace and harmony, and you will experience the abundance which is your Divine birthright." - Archangel Michael (channelled through Michelle Coutant, ‘Claim Your Personal Power & Be the Love of Your Sacred Heart,’ 29 June 2010)


    Invoking the Mother Goddess

    Mahalaya heralds the advent of Durga, the goddess of supreme power. It is an invitation to the mother goddess to annihilate the evils of the world by her Supreme Goodness



    Love is

    Love is all

    Love is all there is

    Love is all

    Love is



    Don't be a stranger

    It's cold outside, There's no kind of atmosphere, I'm all alone, More or less. Let me fly, Far away from here, Fun, fun, fun, In the sun, sun, sun.

    I want to lie, Shipwrecked and comatoase, Drinking fresh, Mango juice, Goldfish shoals, Nibbling at my toes, Fun, fun, fun, In the sun, sun, sun, Fun, fun, fun,In the sun, sun, sun.

    (Red Dwarf theme tune)

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